15 March 2014

Notes - 15 March / the 'spirit' / anger and rebellion / final Chapter Four

        
         0947 hours. Julius Caesar was assassinated today.

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Julius Caesar: Historical Background - VRoma

102/100 BCE: Gaius Julius Caesar was born (by Caesarean section according to an unlikely legend) of Aurelia and Gaius Julius Caesar, a praetor. His family had noble, patrician roots, although they were neither rich nor influential in this period. His aunt Julia was the wife of Gaius Marius, leader of the Popular faction.
c. 85 BCE: His father died, and a few years later he was betrothed and possibly married to a wealthy young woman, Cossutia. This betrothal/marriage was soon broken off, and at age 18 he married Cornelia, the daughter of a prominent member of the Popular faction; she later bore him his only legitimate child, a daughter, Julia. When the Optimate dictator, Sulla, was in power, he ordered Caesar to divorce her; when Caesar refused, Sulla proscribed him (listed him among those to be executed), and Caesar went into hiding. Caesar's influential friends and relatives eventually got him a pardon.
 c. 79 BCE: Caesar, on the staff of a military legate, was awarded the civic crown (oak leaves) for saving the life of a citizen in battle. His general sent him on an embassy to Nicomedes, the king of Bithynia, to obtain a fleet of ships; Caesar was successful, but subsequently he became the butt of gossip that he had persuaded the king (a homosexual) only by agreeing to sleep with him. When Sulla died in 78, Caesar returned to Rome and began a career as a orator/lawyer (throughout his life he was known as an eloquent speaker) and a life as an elegant man-about-town.
75 BCE: While sailing to Greece for further study, Caesar was kidnapped by Cilician pirates and held for ransom. When informed that they intended to ask for 20 talents, he is supposed to have insisted that he was worth at least 50. He maintained a friendly, joking relationship with the pirates while the money was being raised, but warned them that he would track them down and have them crucified after he was released. He did just that, with the help of volunteers, as a warning to other pirates, but he first cut their throats to lessen their suffering because they had treated him well.
72 BCE: Caesar was elected military tribune. (Note that Pompey and Crassus were the consuls for 70 BCE.)
69 BCE: He spoke at the funerals of both his aunt, Julia, and his wife, Cornelia. On both occasions, he emphasized his connections with Marius and the ancient nobility of his family, descended from the first kings on his mother's side and from the gods on his father's (revealing a notable talent for self-dramatization and a conception that there was something exceptional about him).
68/67 BCE: Caesar was elected quaestor and obtained a seat in the Senate; he married Pompeia, a granddaughter of Sulla. Caesar supported Gnaeus Pompey and helped him get an extraordinary generalship against the Mediterranean pirates, later extended to command of the war against King Mithridates in Asia Minor.

65 BCE: He was elected curule aedile and spent lavishly on games to win popular favor; large loans from Crassus made these expenditures possible. There were rumors that Caesar was having an affair with Gnaeus Pompey's wife, Mucia, as well as with the wives of other prominent men.
63 BCE: Caesar spent heavily in a successful effort to get elected pontifex maximus (chief priest); in 62 he was elected praetor. He divorced Pompeia because of her involvement in a scandal with another man, although the man had been acquitted in the law courts; Caesar is reported to have said, “The wife of Caesar must be above suspicion,” suggesting that he was so exceptional that anyone associated with him had to be free of any hint of scandal. In 61 he was sent to the province of Further Spain as propraetor.
60 BCE: He returned from Spain and joined with Pompey and Crassus in a loose coalition called by modern historians “The First Triumvirate” and by his enemies at the time “the three-headed monster.” In 62, Pompey had returned victorious from Asia, but had been unable to get the Senate to ratify his arrangements and to grant land to his veteran soldiers because he had disbanded his army on his return and Crassus was blocking his efforts. Caesar persuaded the two men to work together and promised to support their interests if they helped him get elected to the consulship.
59 BCE: Caesar was elected consul against heavy Optimate opposition led by Marcus Porcius Cato, a shrewd and extremely conservative politician. Caesar married his only daughter, Julia, to Pompey to consolidate their alliance; he himself married Calpurnia, the daughter of a leading member of the Popular faction. Caesar pushed Pompey's measures through, helped Crassus' proposals, and got for himself a five-year term as proconsul of Gaul after his consulship was over. However, he used some strong-arm methods in the Assembly and completely cowed his Optimate colleague in the consulship, Bibulus, so that jokers referred to the year as “the consulship of Julius and Caesar” (instead of “the consulship of Caesar and Bibulus”). Caesar was safe from prosecution for such actions as long as he held office, but once he became a private citizen again he could be prosecuted by his enemies in the Senate.
58 BCE: Caesar left Rome for Gaul; he would not return for 9 years, in the course of which he would conquer most of what is now central Europe, opening up these lands to Mediterranean civilization—a decisive act in world history. However, much of the conquest was an act of aggression prompted by personal ambition (not unlike the conquests of Alexander the Great). Fighting in the summers, he would return to Cisalpine Gaul (northern Italy) in the winters and manipulate Roman politics through his supporters.
56 BCE: Caesar, Pompey, and Crassus met in Caesar's province to renew their coalition, since Pompey had been increasingly moving toward the Optimate faction. Pompey and Crassus were to be consuls again, and Caesar's command in Gaul was extended until 49 BCE.

54 BCE: Caesar led a three-month expedition to Britain (the was the first Roman crossing of the English Channel), but he did not establish a permanent base there. Meanwhile, Caesar's coalition with Pompey was increasingly strained, especially after Julia died in childbirth in 54. In the following year, Crassus received command of the armies of the East but was defeated and killed by the Parthians.
52 BCE: Rioting in Rome led to Pompey's extra-legal election as “consul without a colleague.” Without Julia and Crassus, there was little to bond Caesar and Pompey together, and Pompey moved to the Optimate faction, since he had always been eager for the favor of the aristocrats.
51 BCE: The conquest of Gaul effectively completed, Caesar set up an efficient provincial administration to govern the vast territories; he published his history The Gallic Wars. The Optimates in Rome attempted to cut short Caesar's term as governor of Gaul and made it clear that he would be immediately prosecuted if he returned to Rome as a private citizen (Caesar wanted to run for the consulship in absentia so that he could not be prosecuted). Pompey and Caesar were maneuvered into a public split; neither could yield to the other without a loss of honor, dignity, and power.
49 BCE: Caesar tried to maintain his position legally, but when he was pushed to the limit he led his armies across the Rubicon River (the border of his province), which was automatic civil war. Pompey's legions were in Spain, so he and the Senate retreated to Brundisium and from there sailed to the East. Caesar quickly advanced to Rome, set up a rump Senate and had himself declared dictator. Throughout his campaign, Caesar practiced—and widely publicized—his policy of clemency (he would put no one to death and confiscate no property). In a bold, unexpected move, Caesar led his legions to Spain, to prevent Pompey's forces from joining him in the East; he allegedly declared, “I am off to meet an army without a leader; when I return, I shall meet a leader without an army.” After a remarkably short campaign, he returned to Rome and was elected consul, thus (relatively) legalizing his position.
48 BCE: Pompey and the Optimate faction had established a strong position in Greece by this time, and Caesar, in Brundisium, did not have sufficient ships to transport all his legions. He crossed with only about 20,000 men, leaving his chief legate, Mark Antony, in Brundisium to try to bring across the rest of the soldiers. After some rather desperate situations for Caesar, the rest of his forces finally landed, though they were greatly outnumbered by Pompey's men. In the final battle, on the plains of Pharsalus, it is estimated that Pompey had 46,000 men to Caesar's 21,000. By brilliant generalship, Caesar was victorious, though the toll was great on both sides; Caesar pardoned all Roman citizens who were captured, including Brutus, but Pompey escaped, fleeing to Egypt.
October 2, 48 BCE: Caesar, with no more than 4,000 legionaries, landed in Alexandria; he was presented, to his professed horror, with the head of Pompey, who had been betrayed by the Egyptians. Caesar demanded that the Egyptians pay him the 40 million sesterces he was owed because of his military support some years earlier for the previous ruler, Ptolemy XII (“The Flute Player”), who had put down a revolt against his rule with Caesar's help. After Ptolemy XII's death, the throne had passed to his oldest children, Cleopatra VII and Ptolemy XIII, as joint heirs. When Caesar landed, the eunuch Pothinus and the Egyptian general Achillas, acting on behalf of Ptolemy XIII (at this time about 12 years old), had recently driven Cleopatra (at this time about 20-21 years old) out of Alexandria. Cleopatra had herself smuggled into the palace in Alexandria wrapped in a rug (purportedly a gift for Caesar) and enlisted his help in her struggle to control the Egyptian throne. Like all the Ptolemies, Cleopatra was of Macedonian Greek descent; she was highly intelligent and well-educated. Caesar saw her as a useful ally as well as a captivating female, and he supported her right to the throne. Through the treachery of Pothinus and the hostility of the Egyptian people to the Romans, Achillas and an army of 20,000 besieged the palace. Caesar managed to hold the palace itself and the harbor; he had Pothinus executed as a traitor but allowed the young Ptolemy to join the army of Achillas. When he ordered the Egyptian fleet burnt, the great Library of Alexandria was accidently consumed in the flames.
February, 47 BCE: After some months under siege, Caesar tried unsuccessfully to capture Pharos, a great lighthouse on an island in the harbor; at one point when cut off from his men he had to jump in the water and swim to safety. Plutarch says that he swam with one hand, using the other to hold some important papers above the water; Suetonius adds that he also towed his purple general's cloak by holding it in his teeth so that it would not be captured by the Egyptians.
March, 47 BCE: Caesar had sent for reinforcements, two Roman legions and the army of an ally, King Mithridates; when they arrived outside Alexandria he marched out to join them and on March 26 defeated the Egyptian army (Ptolemy XIII died in this battle). Although he had been trapped in the palace for nearly six months and had been unable to exert a major influence on the conduct of the civil war, which was going rather badly without him, Caesar nevertheless remained in Egypt until June, even cruising on the Nile with Cleopatra to the southern boundary of her kingdom.
June 23, 47 BCE: Caesar left Alexandria, having established Cleopatra as a client ruler in alliance with Rome; he left three legions under the command of Rufio, as legate, in support of her rule. Either immediately before or soon after he left Egypt, Cleopatra bore a son, whom she named Caesarion, claiming that he was the son of Caesar.
August, 47 BCE: After leaving Alexandria, Caesar swept through Asia Minor to settle the disturbances there. On August 1, he met and immediately overcame Pharnaces, a rebellious king; he later publicized the rapidity of this victory with the slogan veni, vidi, vici (“I came, I saw, I overcame”).
October, 47 BCE: Caesar arrived back in Rome and settled the problems caused by the mismanagement of Antony. When he attempted to sail for Africa to face the Optimates (who had regrouped under Cato and allied with King Juba of Numidia), his legions mutinied and refused to sail. In a brilliant speech, Caesar brought them around totally, and after some difficult battles decisively defeated the Optimates at Thapsus, after which Cato committed suicide rather than be pardoned by Caesar.
July 25, 46 BCE: The victorious and now unchallenged Caesar arrived back in Rome and celebrated four splendid triumphs (over the Gauls, Egyptians, Pharnaces, and Juba); he sent for Cleopatra and the year-old Caesarion and established them in a luxurious villa across the Tiber from Rome. In a letter at this time he listed his political aims as “tranquility for Italy, peace for the provinces, and security for the Empire.” His program for accomplishing these goals—both what he actually achieved and what he planned but did not have time to complete—was sound and farsighted (e.g., resolution of the worst of the debt crisis, resettlement of veterans abroad without dispossessing others, reform of the Roman calendar, regulation of the grain dole, strengthening of the middle class, enlargement of the Senate to 900), but his methods alienated many of the nobles. Holding the position of dictator, Caesar governed autocratically, more in the manner of a general than a politician. Although he nominally used the political structure, he often simply announced his decisions to the Senate and had them entered on the record as senatorial decrees without debate or vote.
April, 45 BCE: The two sons of Pompey, Gnaeus and Sextus, led a revolt in Spain; since Caesar's legates were unable to quell the revolt, Caesar had to go himself, winning a decisive but difficult victory at Munda. Gnaeus Pompey was killed in the battle, but Sextus escaped to become, later, the leader of the Mediterranean pirates.
October, 45 BCE: Caesar, back in Rome, celebrated a triumph over Gnaeus Pompey, arousing discontent because triumphs were reserved for foreign enemies. By this time Caesar was virtually appointing all major magistrates; for example, when the consul for 45 died on the morning of his last day of office, Caesar appointed a new consul to serve out the term—from 1:00 p.m. to sundown! Caesar was also borrowing some of the customs of the ruler cults of the eastern Hellenistic monarchies; for example, he issued coins with his likeness and allowed his statues, especially in the provinces, to be adorned like the statues of the gods. Furthermore, the Senate was constantly voting him new honors—the right to wear the laurel wreath and purple and gold toga and sit in a gilded chair at all public functions, inscriptions such as “to the unconquerable god,” etc. When two tribunes, Gaius Marullus and Lucius Flavius, opposed these measures, Caesar had them removed from office and from the Senate.
February, 44 BCE: Caesar was named dictator perpetuus. On February 15, at the feast of Lupercalia, Caesar wore his purple garb for the first time in public. At the public festival, Antony offered him a diadem (symbol of the Hellenistic monarchs), but Caesar refused it, saying Jupiter alone is king of the Romans (possibly because he saw the people did not want him to accept the diadem, or possibly because he wanted to end once and for all the speculation that he was trying to become a king). Caesar was preparing to lead a military campaign against the Parthians, who had treacherously killed Crassus and taken the legionary eagles; he was due to leave on March 18. Although Caesar was apparently warned of some personal danger, he nevertheless refused a bodyguard.
March 15, 44 BCE: Caesar attended the last meeting of the Senate before his departure, held at its temporary quarters in the portico of the theater built by Pompey the Great. The sixty conspirators, led by Marcus Junius Brutus, Gaius Cassius Longinus, Decimus Brutus Albinus, and Gaius Trebonius, came to the meeting with daggers concealed in their togas and struck Caesar at least 23 times as he stood at the base of Pompey's statue. Legend has it that Caesar said in Greek to Brutus, “You, too, my child?” After his death, all the senators fled, and three slaves carried his body home to Calpurnia several hours later. For several days there was a political vacuum, for the conspirators apparently had no long-range plan and, in a major blunder, did not immediately kill Mark Antony (apparently by the decision of Brutus). The conspirators had only a band of gladiators to back them up, while Antony had a whole legion, the keys to Caesar's money boxes, and Caesar's will.
Selected and edited from -- http://www - dot - vroma.org/~bmcmanus/caesar.html
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         1013 hours. Caesar was one of my earliest heroes. Such a life he had; he was murdered by his friends; stabbed numerous times with only one fatal wound. That’s how the story goes.

         You would like to write more here but more is not needed. The day makes you sad at heart and you can find them in the short history above. The point, like the rest of you he was a human being. Hypothetically, when asked – “Who are you, and what is your story?” You have only your imagination and a few facts to guide you. – Amorella

         1022 hours. I think it is the same for each of us, hypothetically. I cannot imagine one would know what she or he was going to say – she or he would look the Angel in the eye and begin.

         Post. - Amorella


         You did your regular exercises for fifty-five minutes the first time since the operations. You did use weights but only three pounders. – Amorella

         1159 hours. At least I did them, longer to make up for the loss of weight. I feel better. Earlier I did take one of the new pain pills and though I ache it is not so much as it was. No more walking in the park until I can use the cane better because it throws my balance off and my legs become prone to the Charlie horse afterwards. In a week or two I’ll be back to normal and maybe better than I was before. I am still numb though in the thumb and first three fingers, particularly in the right hand. I use them mainly to poke keys though so it makes little difference. My hands feel ‘big’ again after the exercise, ‘heavy’ but they don’t look swollen. My skin under my forearms is still black and blue, well, mostly a deeper brown. The left forearm looks worse than the right.

         The dermatologist’s assistant called yesterday and said the wart you had removed was indeed abnormal, but that he had successfully removed all of it so there is no need of further treatment. For this you are thankful. Tuesday you have a post operation morning office visit with Dr. Dan on Montgomery Road in Kenwood. Then no more doctor office visits for a while. – Amorella

         1211 hours. I am feeling more like working on the chapters today. Yesterday I wasn’t into it.

         The spirit didn’t move you, huh? – Amorella

         I knew I should have taken that line out of that note.

         You were just being yourself orndorff. Humor and sarcasm go hand in hand, so to speak. – Amorella

         It is so odd to think that I love words and grammar and such but I feel so uncomfortable talking (communicating with) to people. All those years of teaching – those notes were with me in the beginning. Many were in the margins of my lit books. (I rarely looked at the teacher manual text books because they didn’t do what I thought was important.) Notes ended up lectures. They were in front of me so I would have something to say to get through the class periods. Those first few years were terrifying in that sense. Every day I felt like I was on the stage. After four or five years though, particularly teaching the same classes, I was on a roll for the next thirty-two or three years.

         Eventually you will be going to lunch and Carol will be taking her walk. Later, dude. Post. – Amorella


       You ate at Max and Erma's in Sharonville, returned home and you have been working some time on Dead Four and one of the phrases you dropped in is “the quick and the dead” because it sounds better than “the Living and the Dead”.

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The Quick and the Dead (idiom)

The Quick and the Dead is an English phrase originating in the Christian Bible and popularized by the Apostles’ Creed, one of the earliest statements of faith in the Christian religion and still one of the most widely used in worship.
The phrase is found in two passages in the King James version of the Bible: in the Acts of the Apostles, (Acts 10:42) and also in the First Epistle of Peter, which reads
For the time past of our life may suffice us to have wrought the will of the Gentiles, when we walked in lasciviousness, lusts, excess of wine, revellings, banquetings, and abominable idolatries: Wherein they think it strange that ye run not with them to the same excess of riot, speaking evil of you: Who shall give account to him that is ready to judge 'the quick and the dead.
1 Peter 4:3-5

This passage advises the reader of the perils of following outsiders in not obeying God’s will. Specifically it warns that those who sin, both the quick and the dead, will be judged by Jesus Christ. In other words, it implies that God is able to act on the sins of a person whether that person is alive (quick) or has passed into the afterlife (dead).
In the Apostles' Creed the phrase appears in the following passage (taken from the Book of Common Prayer).
He ascended into heaven,
And sitteth on the right hand of God the Father Almighty;
From thence he shall come to judge the quick and the dead.

Language

The use of the word quick in this context is an archaic usage because of the publication of the King James Bible in 1611. In this context the word specifically means living or alive (a meaning still retained in the "quick" of the fingernails). It is derived from the Proto-Germanic *kwikwaz, which in turn was from a variant of the Proto-Indo-European form *gwih3wos - "lively, alive", from the root *gweih3- "(to) live" (from which also comes the Latin vivere and later the Italian and Spanish viva). Its English meaning in later centuries shifted to "fast", "rapid", "moving, or able to move, with speed".
Secular Usage

The phrase has been commonly used throughout English-speaking history since its first publication in the 1549 Book of Common Prayer. In particular it has been as a title for novels, films and other popular culture entities, in some cases to describe the act of gunfighting. The usage of the phrase in many such secular contexts uses the modern English meaning of the word quick meaning fast or smart rather than alive, either as the result of a misunderstanding or for the purposes of creating a double entendre (e.g. quick vs. dead in the context of gun battles can play on the fact that the being fast is generally a prerequisite for winning, and by implication, staying alive).

Selected from – Wikipedia Offline
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         You have been sitting in the car at Pine Hill Lakes Park while Carol was cleaning up areas above the dam. Now that you have fully read the Wikipedia article above you know where you know the idiom comes from in your head – the Apostles’ Creed. With you “the Quick and the Dead” has passion and rebellion built into the mix of words. Do you see where you are orndorff? Do you see why you mixed your fictional story to an angel after death is set up as it is? This is the psychological/spiritual non-fiction that drives the setting of the Merlyn books. The truth, your truth in this story is in the spiritual passion and rebellion, this is a truth when told to an angel real or imaginary. That’s the way I look at it orndorff. – Post. - Amorella

         1708 hours. Amazing. I cannot deny this -- back to joining the First Presbyterian Church in Westerville. I lied before God taking the oath. I did not believe the Creed then or now. I am still angry about it -- to be twelve years old and to be put in such a 'social' position. I agreed and sat down with the others. I joined the church but it was a lie and at twelve I felt I had no choice. If angels were real it could read my heartansoulanmind and know the truth. I am expressing this in the books. In that sense the books have a truth to them, the anger and passion are still there. They will be there when I die whether there is an afterlife or not, that is, I will die with the anger and passion of that day. 

         Now post. - Amorella


         You watched ABC and NBC News, had leftover meatloaf and veggies for supper, watched the first of the season “Suits” from a couple of weeks ago and then Carol read while you watched last night’s “Grimm”.

         2225 hours. I completed the final of Chapter Four. I am beginning to see I will still be checking this over once again before I send it in for ebook publication.

         Add and post. – Amorella

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Chapter Four

Crème de la Crème

The Supervisor has a little saying:
                                    Ring-a-ring o'rosies
                                    A pocket full of posies
                                    "A-tishoo! A-tishoo!"
                                    We all fall down!

                                    We rise from clay
                                    On Judgment Day
                                    Be we dead or still alive.

            I, Merlyn, have this little ditty above memorized to the point it sets stemmed in letters out of which each four-leafed chapter dreams grow to clover size. I knead the dreams into a word stream of music for the heart and soul and mind with hope that when read, these stories cast a light into those living with an imagination that casts no shadow.
           

The Dead 4

            Wearing a linen Doric chiton, a violet linen cloth draped over her left shoulder dropping in folds around the blouse and over the hips to the ankles, Sophia steps off the stage in Merlyn’s sanctuary. Merlyn smiles, speculating how the style in the twenty-first century might be considered of a beautiful woman in a delightfully intimately, suggestively setting to crawl into bed with her best friend.
            Merlyn spirit reaches out a bit more younger handed than the moment before, clasps her right hand with both of his and says, “My Sophia, I am honored, you are always a welcome sight.”
            Sophia comments in a voice melodically soft and honest, “I understand our Mother was recently here. What a beautiful meadow you commend yourself to be, Merlyn.”
            “This place is where I touch the living,” responds Merlyn. “I think the Dead who are fit will find this a challenge.” He pauses, “Mother Glevema stopped by asking for you.” Merlyn continues with a confident smile and points to the northeast. “On the other side of the cemetery stone one can touch the present Living.”
            “Can you show me beyond that granite one day, Merlyn?” To be alive again races in wonderment from Sophia's heartansoul into mind alone.
            Calmly, Merlyn suggested, “We have forgotten much of what Life is in the moment. I see and feel through Richard Greystone, a spirit already partially ensnared with his identical twin Robert's spirit and now a region of my own. One day you may walk with me among the living.” Merlyn watched Sophia's features suddenly dissolve.
            Heart's memory cocks the trigger, the soul rises as the sun, the mind re-forms the billiard table and Merlyn sees the solids and stripes scatter about on the slate's green field. Refocusing, Merlyn notes the purple striped 12 ball resting on the cue mark. Sophia clothing is violet dyed linen, he appraises, and surmises, she is the 12 ball on my mind.
                        The 12 ball disappears to a shade from the mark, from in his mind. I have seen this before, considers Merlyn, once in ancient Elysium. Panagiotakis, the shaman who had said, “We are from There, to Here,” is standing below me.
            We are on this side of the Styx where no earthly tremors exist. The Prophet, Ezekiel, is alongside Panagiotakis and two others. I sit cross-legged high in the tree behind the shamans on the shoreline of the River. Their souls, each alone, dances in the center of a shaded circle on the riverbank. The shades flow into the bank of the Styx.
            Takis, Ezekiel and the two others formed four billiard balls in Merlyn’s mind. He continues, I see those souls William Blake-like and fiery flamed and dancing. The Rebellion of the First Ten Thousand Greek Dead had begun not soon before. This Rebellion of the Dead, pulled human will into the gravity of the Grave, into the twelve major cultures of the World of the Human Dead in those days eight hundred or so years before the Common Era of the twenty-first century.
            Human spirits became less-minded, common letters in any human alphabet spoken or signed. Each spirit scooted about no better than the common letter until with personal will it rose to a capital letter height.
            With this thought, reflects Merlyn, the question rises to the left side of the capital letter and the question mark on its right. Length and width had risen straight up adding an undiscovered third dimension to the Dead height, which had before only been experienced while living and captive by time and distance.
            In wonder, Merlyn returned to his rock, his thinking throne. In Earth’s modern day, since the more recent in Richard and Robert’s time, Second Rebellion of the Dead, has more perspective, a sun in the sky and earth below. Before the first Rebellion during the time of Homer the Storyteller, the sky of the dead was blue and dotted with periodic white clouds. Collectively within the spirit, the heartansoulanmind, we continue to have a place of solitude, a suit to disguise our nakedness, clothing, opened to human and human-like spirits visitors in free choice. Many Dead huddle together in a patchwork quilt, afraid of strangers, or worse, afraid of themselves. No one else with any sense of deadanliving can return to the living experience in any manner but memory, no one but I, Merlyn, can feel the present-past-future what it is to be a bridge, a Betweener of higher consciousness, a human spirit-in the-physics. The Living, the reader, has a sense of this spirit-in-the-physics but most make themselves too busy to contemplate what this truly means to be among the quick and the dead both at once.


The Brothers 4
            Richard awakes to hear their grown daughter Julie chattering from downstairs in the kitchen. He surmises Julie and Jenni are here with their kids, Ronda and David. No doubt Rob will be popping in wondering why I am not up.
            In a tone of melodiously forced politeness, Cyndi shouts, “Are you up, Richard? Ronda is bringing David.”
            Richard rolls over feigning sleep. Noisy feet on the steps give way at the door’s slightly creaked from the bottom hinge he had promised to lubricate a month earlier. I hear my favorite four and two year olds on the steps, he reasons. Do I feign a deep sleep or rise up from the sheet with a lion's 'I-m-going-to-get-you' roar?
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            Later in the day, after a large family meal at a nearby Longhorn Steak House, Robert and Richard return to sit in the living room, each in a high back chair, with Julie on the left side of the living room couch followed by four year old Ronda and two year old David and his mother, Robert and Connie’s daughter, Jennifer. Robert mentions on how good the kids were at lunch when David scooted off and under the gray marble topped coffee table looking for his blue Thomas the train engine. Ronda remarks, “I'm going to the kitchen to see Grandma.” Julie being older speaks first, “Thank you for lunch, Uncle Richard. We always have a good time coming over.”
            “We have a good time,” mimicked Jennifer. “Dad, you and Uncle Rob are going to babysit while we girls go shopping?”
            In a quiet demeanor like her mother’s Julie quickly adds, “Mom said it was okay. We are so glad you are retired and can take care of the kids once in a while. We appreciate it.”
            Looking directly at Richard, Cyndi comments, “We could not imagine living so far away, like your parents Jennifer.”
            In the bond of family togetherness, Jennifer remarks, “It is good what with my Calvin out of town at a conference, and Julie’s Allen working six days a week.” She then smiles graciously while commenting, “I am not complaining at least the kids' fathers both have jobs.”
            “We've been there,” respond Rob and Rich almost simultaneously. The two sets of grandparents laughed light heartedly and began chatting about how each was in the process of redecorating one room or another.
            Rob and Rich could both hear the strain of 'we-wish-we-had-the-time-and-energy-to-think-on-such-things' in their voices. The twin grandfathers thought back on how it was with each of their children, who were affectionately called ‘rug rats’ in the late seventies. Life and the business that ensues in one's thirties, forties, and into the fifties -- work, home, errands, chores and parenting; more parenting, errands, chores, home and work, all crammed in and on life's familiar rotating stages of such philosophical and practical goals of ‘We do whatever works best for the family first. Everything else is second’.
            Both brothers conclude their silent high back chair conversation in the general theme of 'the fifties were a much better time for growing up than today'. Fortunately, both sets of grandparents had some money saved and invested. Neither had debts beyond monthly credit cards paid in full. Every generation, from time to time, helped their children and grandchildren survive better. This generation is no different.
            Hard economic times and then there was a great world war to resolve. The parents of Rob and Connie and Richard and Cyndi grew older through the administrations of FDR, Truman, Eisenhower, Kennedy, Johnson, Nixon, Carter, Reagan, Bush and Clinton none had lived passed the tenure of George W. Not a one, as young children, would have dreamed a Negro would have become President of the United States shortly after their demise.
            The events in the twentieth and early twenty-first centuries have subtly and not so subtly changed the social and cultural dynamics of people in every country of the world. Families resided in the genes of thousands upon thousands of the ancestors and the youngsters will reside in descendants of the brothers Robert Greystone, his spouse, Connie Bleacher and Richard Greystone and his spouse Cyndi Bleacher. Who, like the rest of humanity feels and share a common genetic link. We are all fifty-second cousins, or so thinks Richard as he reflects on his personal and universal family in the species, Homo sapiens. Richard falls asleep that evening after an exhausting and fun day with family. Merlyn stirs in the wake of Richard’s dreams as does Grandma.



Grandma’s Story 4

            This is Grandma.  I once caught the passion leak away on this particularly contrary human spirit named Wexer. He has since disappeared among the Dead and no one who notices knows what happened to him. When his once special woman's friend discerned his utter lack of spiritual being she was surprised to find herself more at peace with Wexer gone.
            Wexer enjoyed debating most people, his spirit thrilled on a confrontation like a pyromaniac's eyes bored into a roaring blaze. Once dead, and finding but one friend (she never disagreed) among the Dead he became profoundly bored. His whiplash-and-biting-spirit-of-a-tongue fell into great desperation. Wexer finally decided it was time to have a singular great internal debate between his heart and mind, something he would have never thought to do in the commotion provided in life. Wexer knew the in's and out's of grammar and logic in his native language. He believed himself sharper and cleverer than anyone he ever chose to know. His slippery and restless spirit concluded, 'I have never lost a debate and there is no way I can lose this one as heart and mind are both my own.'
            The debate between his heart and mind focused on his singular woman friend who had always agreed with him. Wexer's mind had become convinced that his friend was pretending to agree, that she could not possibly agree with all his arguments for or against one passion or another. Wexer's heart, on the other hand, debated that the woman friend, his only friend, did not disagree with him because she loved him so terribly much. The deeper Wexer's spirit whipped its arguments the less resolve Wexer discovered he had in coming to a conclusion as to which was the winner, his heart or his mind.

Grandma sashays in doing a little calypso dance in her bare feet, throws her hands over her head, twirls, and claps three times. She smiles like the glow of a tropical sunset and whispered a secret, “I just love these little freedom stories.”  Who won, Wexer's mind or heart? Why did he disappear even among the Dead? Why did his woman friend become more at peace with herself after Wexer's spirit, his heartansoulanmind, disappeared from the scene? What do you think happens when heart and mind battle to a stalemate? Hint: you can only answer this with your heartansoulanmind, your holistic human spirit.

I have one more dead man's short story here. This one balances out the first story. Another ancestor, a shaman of about seven thousand years ago in the area of the Black Sea, stood by the fire one cloudy dark night in summer and said, “I have a new story. This is about a man who can be in two places at once while he is still alive. He can be standing here like me, telling a story, and,” he pointed to his north, “be in the nearby woods telling a story at the same time. How do you think he accomplishes this?”
            The shaman discovered he could be enormously entertaining while being instructive in giving an unsolvable mystery no one could decipher to everyone’s satisfaction. Here is the question: how is it possible for a person to be telling the same story in more than one place at the same time?”
            This story was so popular that shamans throughout the world were soon asking the question to their neighbors along the major world trade routes had been set into motion because people wanted goods from far away places. People wanted something valuable to keep for security, for peace of mind, and for the pleasure of having material goods they did not already have. Storytelling helped pass the time on the journeys from Asia to Europe and Europe to Africa and from Africa to Asia. Some of the stories even migrated to the Americas.
            This particular storyteller created a mysterious set of written characters that allowed the carving of the story line onto a tree. Other tribe members were taught to read the runes, so it was possible for someone to be reading the story in one place while it was being told at the same time in another place entirely. Few could believe such a marvelous invention, but they soon discovered belief wasn’t a part of the equation. Below is a representative translation of what the shaman wrote.
A, B, C, D, E, F, G
Now the characters you can see
H, I, J, K, L, M, N, O, P
Each as individual as you or me
Q, R, S, T, U, and V
Allow each us to remain free
W, X, Y, and Z
The beginning and the end carved on a tree.

You see, from Grandma’s tongue, tooth and gum
Some unfamiliar runes this way come.





Diplomatic Pouch 4

            By late mid-morning the next day Justin watches as Blake inspects the slightly damaged Rolls-Royce turboprop Cessna P210N Silver Eagle. Pyl waits at the entrance to the Burke Lakefront terminal for Fran and her companion to arrive.
            Shortly after introductions and a walk to the east side of the terminal Justin stands next to the wire fence watching as Blake answering the women’s questions and pointing out various aspects of the Silver Eagle. Justin feels it odd that they would bring their U.S. passports to prove of identity when a driver’s license would do; and why do they want to buy this plane? Why are they willing to give so much for a refurbished old plane? I don't feel any safer flying in it. I'd feel better if it were a brand new Cessna, not so fancy, just newer. A thought crossed. Here it is, another sunny and relatively warm day in January, no wind, it feels like early April. I wonder if we are going to fly. He continued his observations and private thoughts while leaning back on the fence with he arms crossed as if he were an airport inspector.
            Within an hour Justin felt some pangs for lunch and was ready for a soda at the terminal when Pyl waved from down and across from the row of planes he had casually checked over as if they were a string of used cars.
            Pyl smiles profusely as he draws closer. "Blake won’t sell for a million and a half. Hart says she wants to take a ride anyway and she talked it up with Fran, so Fran asked Blake for a ride over to Put-in-Bay saying she'd give us a thousand dollars for the ride there and back because she loved flying in a Silver Eagle similar to the one her uncle had when she was a child. We are all going. It ought to be fun. Maybe we’ll have a picnic in the park. In January, can you believe this weather Justin?"
            He sighed. "I guess; but I could use a drink."
            Pyl hardly contained her excitement while saying, "Go get something and get me a candy bar and one for you too. We’ll get the plane checked out and ready." Memory flew her to the time Grandpa took Grandma and Blake and herself over to Put-in-Bay for an afternoon of fun and a plane ride too. Sometimes we stop at Port Clinton and take a cab to Cedar Point, as kids we always have good times in the plane.
            Justin turns and rather pensively asks, "Pyl, what about the damaged wingtip?"
            She smiles reassuringly, "It'll be okay, Justin. Blake wrote out a report. We are getting it repaired next week. The plane is safe to fly." Why is Justin on edge when we are contemplating a flight; even when we were first dating he had an issue with safety issues. I wanted him to take lessons but he would have none of it. He’s just a conservative old soul in a young body, that’s what he says, but he never knows why.
            Within the next hour the five flew from Burke Lakefront on the secondary runway, 6R/24L on their way to the South Bass Island. Blake turns from the controls at ten thousand feet commenting, "The 3W2 Put-in-Bay airport is open for light traffic this time of year. It'll be fine, it's a nice strip."
            From the co-pilot seat Pyl spontaneously adds, "This will be fun. We’ll see Perry's Monument and the town. We can rent a golf cart and take a quick tour, get something to eat then be on our way."
            Blake glances back, "Our treat, ladies, you are quite generous with your payment. I’m glad you’re not too upset that I don’t want to sell the old girl – she’s been in the family too long."
            "We are glad to have you all along with us," replies Fran. "It is always nice to make new friends, even if we could not come to a deal. It is a delight to be flying in this
days flying with our Uncle Jack."
            "And you can fly us back, Fran, but if you don't mind, I'll sit co-pilot,” says Blake comfortably.
            "Fine with me," she said, and she looked at Hart with an excited smile, mimicking, "Won't this be fun."
            Hart responded to the private sarcasm with her eyes and accented raised right eyebrow.

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14 March 2014

Notes - yesterday and this morning / afternoon /

         Your doctor visit went okay though you have a slight rise in your A1c. You told Dr. B. that you would take your blood sugar three times a day instead of once although she wants you to vary the times. You told her it is easier to be methodical than try to remember to take it a two variable times.

         You stopped to see Kim and Paul’s house construction before stopping in Westerville. Kim could come and meet you so she did. The first floor walls are mostly up and carpenters were working. You dropped Carol off at Mary Lou’s then drove over to Cathy and Tod’s and visited for an hour or so before heading uptown. A lot of people showed up for the Class supper and everyone appeared to have a good time. Bill M. and Fritz M. did not make it however. You sat near the end near Jean, Shirley, Ruth Ann and Darrel. You and Jean forgot your cameras but she took photos with your iPhone. You picked up Carol at eight and the drives up and back were uneventful.

         Liz S. of Publish Green had looked at the blog and says she is interesting in knowing more about your work. You appreciated the fact that she had actually checked the blog and told her you would get back with her today to tell her more about the project and you have no idea of how to express this to her because ‘selling’ the project is not in your interest. She says it appears that you have a compilation of short stories and it has never struck you that is the case. You need to accept the fact that people will not and do not view the work in the same way you do. – Amorella

         0954 hours. I do, Amorella. No one has ever said the project appears to be a compilation of short stories, but I can see that it does. It made me feel good because I immediately thought of one of my literary heroes Geoffrey Chaucer and his Canterbury Tales. “Grandma’s Stories” are mostly short stories at least in book one, but the others are as vignettes. The project is the three Merlyn books redone. That is what it is. What else can I say and be truthful about it?

         You have written the letter and sent it. Post it here so you won’t forget what you said. – Amorella

         1106 hours. This is a surprise. I wanted help but just wrote it anyway. I see it is not so well done but she will at least have a better idea than she had earlier. I cannot believe I wrote this myself.

         Add and post. - Amorella

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[Liz]

This is what I posted on my FB page 1 March 14:

My newly reconstructed Great Merlyn’s Ghost: One has four story segments per chapter for twenty-one chapters. In essence the reconstruction accomplishes the same story, Braided Dreams, of 166,328 words in the same twenty-one chapters with a twenty-five percent story addition in only 67,501 words. Now is time to run a real paper draft for final proofing. The ebook will soon be available for free for 90 days in appreciation for those who bought the first softbound paper edition of Braided Dreams. Running Through and Merlyn’s Mind will also be transformed to more in less. After the last two books are fully ‘refurbished’ I will make the three books each available in a softbound paper edition.

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 The main character is Merlyn. He is a dead man living in the character of Richard Greystone a twin in  "The Brothers" chapter segments. Merlyn explains how the 'spirit' is after life in "The Dead" chapter segments. Grandma's Stories ties in the ancestors of Richard Greystone and his wife's family. Essentially our human family. Meryln also has a future-like dream based on the Recent Second Rebellion of the Dead (the reason why he returns to Earth in the manner he does. This dream includes earthlings meeting our alien counterparts with hearts and souls and minds - the marsupial humanoids whose dead are now with the earth dead, i.e. the Dead have a message for the living both marsupial humanoids and Homo Sapiens.

The point is that originally I wanted to tell a story as if I were dead and an angel says, "Who are you and what story do you have to tell about yourself and life?" The three Merlyn books are my story I am telling to a make believe angel while I am alive to be better prepared were I asked to tell a story. If there are no angels in real life then I will have told a story anyway and though the story is fiction it is told with heart and soul and mind (my own). The intention I have is to share the story not sell it. The authenticity of the books constructions is not built on selling it can only be built on sharing as one is telling this to an angel. The stories, I assure you, are built authentically in this nature. You can witness this in the develop of the stories in notes and blog. I do not need money. I don't need much of anything. I am just writing a 'good' story, one fit for an angel to hear first. 

There you have it. I feel the words when they are transcribed to the keyboard. Part of this is because I put myself in a light trance in order to write 'automatically'. The words are constructed in the unconscious mind where I assume they come from the part of me that people would call one's heart and soul and mind (together as a unit). My inner writer, Amorella, pulls the stories from my imagination and a lifetime of reading good literature and bad. She is an interesting helper and I have made her my imaginary angel. She will not allow me to write on the stories unless they are authentic to my purpose. She also says she will not help if I do not share the works construction on the blog. This keeps me in check. It keeps me honest. If I am not honest in this endeavor I am not authentic. This is the way one writes good fiction. In my mind, this is the way Melville wrote Moby Dick. A story that tells a truth even though it is partially fiction. 

Thank you for listening. I am still working on the final of the first book and it should be done within a month or two. I am under no pressure. I write when the spirit moves me, so to speak. I love life and believe, even though I am an agnostic at heart, that it may be possible for the spirit to survive physical death. The books make a construction. I write in imagination with reason. 

Take care, and have a good day.

With regards,
Rich O

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         I guess the above is okay. It is so difficult to write from within myself and it is so shallow to write otherwise.

         1522 hours. We had a late lunch at Panera/Chipotle, then a Graeters, then a very windy walk in Pine Hill Lakes Park. My legs tensed up to the point of a nearly completed Charlie horse as I entered the path through the two lakes. Carol went on and I turned back. I felt it again nearing the car. I can’t hold on to the cane correctly because the operation will not allow me to hold either hand down to ‘cup’ the cane because of body weight. I enjoy the fresh air though – the winds must be gusting into the 40 mph range. Flags stand straight out and this time of the year there isn’t much cover. Even the Accord rocks in the wind gusts just setting here. We need to be putting at least five to seven thousand miles a year on this car, maybe more. If we had a windfall I’d buy another hybrid, even a used one but Carol wouldn’t have it. No used cars.

         Carol returned and you drove to the far southeast of parking; she took some Kroger bags and the ‘pick upper’ stick to acquire more trash for the cans. She did this on her last walk (Wednesday) too. – Amorella

         1538 hours. I think I would wait and get the next Prius generation, the 2015 model, probably a hybrid, then that would do us for the rest of our driving lives. That way we would be using both cars more reasonably. I like the hybrid driving style. I feel good using less gas and saving money at the same time. Ever since my 1965 VW Beetle it has been saving gas money. Frugality on the roadways! I love to hear the ‘clicks’ and ‘whines’ on the hybrid. Lots of technology at work. Thousands of calculations per second set to make the machinery more efficient. Just the idea of it pumps me up.

         You are thinking about this because it is more fun to think about than working on the final draft. Writing that letter today has brought a psychological shock to your system and it makes you uncomfortable. – Amorella

         1546 hours. I like being invisible. I would hope my letter makes that clear.

         We will adapt that letter if someone else shows the slightest interest. – Amorella

         No one else in the business has in all these years. That’s the way I like it. I can see my name on several pages when I Google it, that’s enough, just to know it’s out there. That’s enough recognition for me. This is a pleasant way to conclude one’s life – “He was a teacher of English, a poet, and a short story writer and a novelist.”  That’s pretty good for the likes of someone like myself who still cannot do mathematics well; someone whose parents felt he did not have the wherewithal to finish high school. That’s pretty good. In some ways my parents were correct. I didn’t have much gumption in high school and my favorite words were “I don’t care.” I did think about trade school when they talked about it. My friend, Eddie H. who was a couple years older and who lived across the street in Minerva Park went to trade school at Columbus Central. He learned lots of stuff and I admired him for his abilities. Plus, he was a nice guy to be around. One of the problems for the electric things he did was that he had to use mathematics, amperes and the like.

         You are home. Post. - Amorella

12 March 2014

Notes - sluggish / 4, 5 and 6 ready to keyboard

         Late morning. Carol is running errands as you watch CNN focusing on the gas explosion in Harlem. You took a pain pill and are suddenly tired. More later. – Amorella

         Carol drove over for a prescription painkiller if you need it tonight. Today your hands ache with a 6+ sometimes and they feel heavy. You think it is a bout of arthritis. You had nuked asparagus and meatloaf for lunch that tasted very good and are settling in the black lounge chair in the bedroom. About an hour ago the rain turned to snow but so far that’s been it. Everything else is fine and you are feeling pretty good except for the heavy hands. Carol may have to drive you to your appointment tomorrow and up to Westerville. She will go to supper with Mary Lou after shopping then you will come home, at least that is plan A. Plan B you will go to Kim and Paul’s and spend the night and come home Friday morning. Kim is going to be out with Stacy, her old college roommate for lunch and the afternoon. You won’t see the boys or the framework on part of the house unless you stay over. Part of this depends on how you feel at the time. – Amorella

         1259 hours. I am surprised my hands hurt today. I assume it is the weather change from sunny and 65 degrees yesterday. The pill made me tired but I was tired anyway. I have been sleeping well but waking up early. I suppose it is from switchover to daylight savings. I’m glad I took those bandages off yesterday at least I look more normal. Early next week I have the stitches taken out. Carol and I watched a YouTube video of my operations; evidently Dr. Dan used a newer procedure. It wasn’t that bad to watch and I would have observed it myself at the time if I hadn’t been put to sleep. I’m glad I had it done but I think my hands should feel better by now. Even my wrists are a little sore. I used ice last night. Maybe I should do some more later.

         Post and take a nap orndorff. – Amorella

         1312 hours. I feel listless not tired. 

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listless – adjective

this heat makes me listless | a listless performance: lethargic, enervated, spiritless, lifeless, languid, languorous, inactive, underactive, inert, sluggish, torpid. ANTONYMS energetic.

From Oxford-American software
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         I was seeing if there was a better word for listless but the only one that fits is sluggish. I feel sluggish not tired sounds better.

         I agree. Sluggish makes you sound pronouncedly alive; listless more like body warm dead. - Amorella

        1322 hours. Good description, Amorella. I wish I could use words like you can.

        Late this afternoon you completed chapters four and five and have six to go. Carol suggested Papa John’s for supper – she drove but you picked it up. Homer is going to a PJ Conference in Orlando next week; they are even paying for his wife to go along. He was excited to tell you about it tonight. You think it is great that afterwards they are staying in Clearwater for another week. Tomorrow you have your appointment in the morning. You are feeling better tonight and you kept ice on your hands and wrists for a half hour or so. – Amorella

         2053 hours. I just want my hands to feel better. I am almost back to normal on the keyboard and am thankful for that.

         Later, dude. – Amorella

         Bedtime. Earlier you and Carol watched “Rizzoli and Isles” after the news. You just completed chapter six with corrections so four, five and six are now ready to be updated on Page. Carol replaced your bandages and the wounds looked good and clean. Carol agrees that the hands are still swollen some but are less swollen than they were. You both assume the ice packs help.

        2213 hours. I didn't think I would finish chapter six but I had more time than I thought plus the earlier nap helped -- I am tired but not so much as I was this time last night.


         Post. - Amorella