30 June 2013

Notes - enjoy the peace / good weekend


         Mid-morning. You drove to McDonalds for breakfast and began eating it there; which it turned out was not such a good idea. So, home you came where they finished their pancakes then played. Brennan wanted Owen's toy but he had one of his own. Mary Lou just arrived and the four are heading to the local children's park a block away. You may now enjoy the quiet. - Amorella

         I do enjoy it. I'm played out for the time being. (1005)

         Sometimes I am played out too. - Amorella

         Lines from Hamlet rise in my head making me a bit uncomfortable.

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GUILDENSTERN
But these cannot I command to any utterance of harmony.
I have not the skill.

HAMLET
Why, look you now, how unworthy a thing you make of me! You would play upon me. You would seem to know my stops. You would pluck out the heart of my mystery. You would sound me from my lowest note to the top of my compass. And there is much music, excellent voice, in this little organ, yet cannot you make it speak? 'Sblood, do you think I am easier to be played on than a pipe? Call me what instrument you will, though you can fret me, yet you cannot play upon me.

 Hamlet, Act 3, scene 2
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         It was a figure of speech, boy. People may play all they wish, but it is their own music not mine. - Amorella

         It was about me not you, an easily made mistake. It is I who worries about being played upon.

         Manipulation is a built in tool for survival in this universe, boy. The Dead have no need of such a tool; ah you have your irony here, survival is an existential point of contention; not if, but why. - Amorella

         Such darkness lights a smile; with such a humor I can get along rather reasonably.

         Enjoy the peace. Post.  - Amorella


You are happy to be home sleeping in your own bed. Again, you had another busy and fun day with the boys. Kim and Paul arrived home late afternoon with Jennifer cookies from On the Rise in Cleveland Heights as treats. Paul begins studying for his new level cardiothoracic anesthesiological exam in a week or two. He is excited the Cleveland Clinic Fellowship is successfully completed and that by the end of July he will be at work in surgeries at Marion General/Smith Institute. - Amorella

         2135 hours. What a delightful evening ride home. We stopped with Kim and Paul on the way home to see two model homes. Perhaps, if things begin well, they will be looking to build in the area in October. I remember building our two houses, it was a very exciting and uplifting time. We had supper at the 'rocking chair place' at Exit 100 on I-71 south of Columbus, then headed home. It has been a good weekend. 

         Post. - Amorella

29 June 2013

Notes - I have no need of words of any kind. - Amorella


         Late dusk. The boys are in bed asleep at last. Quiet, and though you thought you were ready for bed you need to unwind. - Amorella

         2114 hours. The boys were very good but I did not come alive (pro-active) until after their naps and my own quiet time. Morning was cool and thus I was more arthritic. I took a pill late mid-morning realizing the stiffness plus wasn't going anywhere. I napped while the kids were at the park with Kim, Paul and Carol. Sluggishness had settled in the joints, pains slid away, out my toes I suppose. Everyone was ready for a Papa John home delivery of a large half veggie, half cheese. Owen and Brennan each ate a piece and a half of cheese pizza (discounting the crust) plus they had grapes and orange slices. Carol and I each had two pieces of veggie deluxe.

         I do not know how I survived parenthood. I am quite happy we had only Kim. Some sage along the way told me that one child is one thing but when you have two it takes the energy of having three. I believe it. When my sisters and I were young Dad would spend two hours in the bathroom after supper. He would just sit in there are read books and/or magazines -- mostly about guns, hunting and/or fishing, or Mickey Spillane styled mysteries. 

Here's a quote:

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"Nobody reads a mystery to get to the middle. They read it to get to the end. If it's a letdown, they won't buy any more. The first page sells that book. The last page sells your next book."
Mickey Spillane

From: Brainyquote.com
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         You have never had to write to put food on the table. - Amorella

         2134 hours. I am not a professional writer, Amorella. It is nice to have a few readers; I am satisfied. I would be depressed if no one at all read my books and/or blog, but I get a few hits, mostly one timers that are mostly accidental hits I suppose. I don't need the money and I would be terrified of fame in this day and age. I was considered a good teacher of English (a small miracle considering the miss-wiring in the head). I have had a wonderful career and life; there is no need, nor there is no wish for anything more. Self-publishing means I don't have to sell one book to sell another. I write them as you deliver them.

         You are reassured with the words above because they are the truth; they are who you are. - Amorella

         2147 hours. I have a different personal vision of success.

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success - noun

the accomplishment of an aim or purpose: the president had some success in restoring confidence.

• the attainment of popularity or profit: the success of his play.

• a person or thing that achieves desired aims or attains prosperity: I must make a success of my business.

• archaic the outcome of an undertaking, specified as achieving or failing to achieve its aims: the good or ill success of their maritime enterprises.

ORIGIN mid 16th cent.: from Latin

From: Oxford-American Mac Software
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         Success is completed the books to the best of my ability at the time they are written. These books are for my two grandsons to read when they are adults if they so wish. They are for my daughter and my son-in-law; they are for my friends and for readers who are interested. The notes are primarily for myself and for the interested reader to keep these books of fiction in context.

         You are out of words here because you are going deeper into the heart of the matter. You want no exploitation and manipulation of the books and/or the blog. - Amorella

         2201 hours. The words that come to mind are on the tomb in Stratford-on-Avon, England:

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"Good friend for Jesus sake forebare,
To digg the dust encloased heare;
Bleste be the man that spares thes stones,
And curst be he that moves my bones"

Curse engraved on Shakespeare's tomb at Holy Trinity Church, Stratford-on-Avon in 1616
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         Your intent here is to say that a curse be placed on anyone who would exploit these Merlyn books and blog for their own self-interest. --

         As it is I, Amorella, who is moved to give these words to you from your own heartansoulanmind; I have no need of words of any kind. Post. - Amorella

         I approve of your title for today's blog. - Amorella

         I back away slowly.

         As well you would, boy. - Amorella


28 June 2013

Notes - Earth seen as a joy to my soul / terms of context


          Nearing noon, local time. This morning the Davey Company ground six stumps to below ground level, enough for flowers or grass to grow. You are quite pleased with their efforts. It is time to move on without the ash trees. On BBC you noted a reference to the NASA photo of "Earth as seen in the G Ring of Saturn". You enhanced it on iPhoto and now have it as a desktop, at least for the day. Yesterday you asked why would aliens want to come all the way in here when they can stalk up on essentials on Mars or the many moons of Jupiter and Saturn beyond. Drop the photo in for perspective. Earth is a blue-like dot in the upper left on the inside of the next to outer lit ring.




NASA: Earth in the G Ring

         1152 hours. This is a photo of reality and it is a joy to my soul.

         Funny, you thought you were going to write 'joy to my heart'. In here however, soul is a more than reasonable location. This will give you something to think on while you drive to Columbus. Post. - Amorella

          1206 hours. Your perspective does me good as it shows where I am coming from in context.


         1946 hours. We had an uneventful trip up; this is a good thing. We had delicious spaghetti pie and salad for supper then everyone (but me) went outside for a walk and/or play. I did go out for a while to sit on the stone patio; fortunately the front of the house faces west so a pleasant shade.

         You have cut Grandma 19 to 2608 words and have more to go. When convenient, run through it again, deleting to about 1000 words. - Amorella

         2056 hours. This reminds me of the expatriates in the 1920's, of Hemingway working with Gertrude Stein on his writing in Paris. Though I am no Hemingway and you are no Gertrude Stein and Delaware, Ohio is hardly Paris.

         What about that small bluish dot on the other side of Saturn? - Amorella

         That makes 'physical place' feel far less important and mind feel far more important. But also, it makes me not want to venture too far away from where my feet are resting/standing. A balance has to remain where the body lives no matter what heartansoulanmind have to say about it. You can't forget where you are.

         You cannot forget what you are either, boy. - Amorella

         2126 hours. That is a very important point. You don't have to be home to know where you are. This appears to be a soul statement not a heart or mind statement.

         In here, in this blog and books, this will be so. People are not where they think they are. An example of this is seen in the photo of the Earth as a dot on the other side of Saturn. In here, the soul can more easily see this as a reality than can the heart and mind. In here, heartansoulanmind are usually best connected in that order. How would this be in terms of context if the soul were in any other place? - Amorella

         2139 hours. I don't know. I will have to think on this.

         Good. Post. - Amorella

27 June 2013

Notes - toys / delete more /


        Mid-morning. You were up early, got the papers, breakfast and read the paper. Carol left early to pick up Ann at the Otterbein Retirement Community, then on to have breakfast at Judy's in Milford. Meanwhile you watched "Under the Dome" from earlier in the week. - Amorella

         0917 hours. The show is following the typical criteria for such summer fair. Characters and setting have been introduced, enough diversified via point of view to fill an hour's diversion (commercials included). Hints of a plot but if it doesn't fork out next week I'll be done with it. Carol didn't even want to start. One problem is that when the small plane, flying at under ten thousand feet crashed into the dome it appears the passenger's purse made it through. At the conclusion the visual suggestion is that an alien craft is responsible but who knows. King and Spielberg no doubt have this summer series down and perhaps are looking at two or three season’s worth at best, worst, the series will be over sooner than anyone thinks, or hopes, in some cases. I cannot think of a good reason for aliens to ever come to this planet other than kindness. Our nearby planets have resources without the bother of having to deal with our species. If there is water on Saturn's or Jupiter's moons why come any closer to the sun than need be? It seems in the stories that aliens appear to want something on our planet but I cannot imagine them needing anything from this place including us. Our ego is the very small pebble in the proverbial shoe. Our whole media culture is built around us, about who we are and what we do. Hype, we are far too much hype. We attempt to devour the planet one way or another and symbolically through media we feed on ourselves; for many mirrors for glorification. Why in the world would anyone ever come here voluntarily? Other than an act of kindness it is beyond my imagination. Hype is a shade that dulls our real growth, our humanity. We are but toys. Come on, we are better than playing toys. Surely, we are.

         Like you say, boy, 'cheer up, things are bound to get worse.' Post. - Amorella

         I think, not worse, just more of the same. But then I'm old and should know our species better. I think what I need is a nap. 


         You wrote a note of condolence that will serve for all those past and present in your Class of 1960. Add and post. - Amorella

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         Each member of our Westerville High School Class of 1960 has left her or his mark on me; Tom is no exception. I am sad on Tom's leaving this place; I am glad we met along the way. The world is what it is and in time we all move on. Along that way I would hope we will, each of us, meet again in yet another place at least as interesting as this universe is.

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         Carol wanted to go to Marx Bagels in Blue Ash for a tuna salad sandwich in a cinnamon raisin bagel. Wonderful treat and you followed up by also splitting a turtle sundae with two scoops of ice cream (vanilla and mint chocolate chip) with a dollop of whip cream and a cherry on top. Your idea but no complaints from Carol, nor would there likely have been. Presently you are at Hallmark's on Mason-Montgomery Road to pick up a birthday card fro Tod (Carol was not successful finding one earlier.) - Amorella

         1425 hours. I had a nap before Carol arrived home from her breakfast. Tomorrow Davey's is going to grind the stumps before we leave for Delaware. It is so odd using Delaware.

         Use Columbus then boy. Sometimes you are too exact when you needn't be, part of Dr. Harold Hancock's influence on "being significantly specific". You'll find your love of words too much from time to time. This is one of them. By the way, you have no need to second-guess yourself on the condolence; it is heartfelt and sincere. Sometimes you would be better off without so much imagination. I would not have enclosed it in today's blog to make a fool of you. However, I understand your sentiment. - Amorella

         You have kept your word to me, Amorella. I have only a few private regrets on any writing I have had read by others (in my life). You have never been a part to any of them. (1435)

         You see how it is with cutting words in Grandma 19. We are taking it down in chunks. You are home, take a break, then we delete more. Post. - Amorella




26 June 2013

Notes - trees, Tom James, today / Brothers 19 completed / preview of Grandma


         Mid-morning. Sitting in your bedroom chair looking out to the north a void exists where the largest of the trees was cut down yesterday. You can peer further into the thick woods engulfing Muddy Creek. You can see further into the woods but not through to the other side as in winter. To see further in is not to see the other side. You have to wait until winter, boy. - Amorella
         I understand. We lost another of our Class of 1960 yesterday, Tommy James, to pancreatic cancer. At her insistence, Sandy sat on my left side in our May gathering and Tommy sat on her left. She was delighted with the arrangement. I feel bad for her and Jean as much as I do for myself. Tom James and I were not close friends but we had known each other since grade school, since summer Little League. He was the better athlete and likable enough, but he ran around with the townies and I with the Minerva Park bunch. It was good to see him at the May gathering. He was quite witty, especially with Sandy. Our class is a dwindling crew as is our generation before the baby boomers. Do we have a name too? I have no idea. Our parents were the greatest generation; our parents who were also propagating during World War II as well as after. We had a lot of clouds and rain and thunder during the night; the sun is just beginning to show itself to our little part of the world.
         Take a break, boy. You are back to your regular breakfast with a quiet read of the paper along the way. You spoke to Kim and Owen on the phone and gave it back to Carol for a continued mother and daughter chat. You are up to Delaware Friday afternoon, arriving around four to beat the rush hour traffic. You are baby sitting for Owen and Brennan Saturday afternoon, night, and Sunday morning because Kim and Paul have a wedding in Cleveland Saturday night, at the stadium. Today, you have been informed that Carol has to pick her old friend Ann up at the Otterbein Home near Lebanon and drive her to Judy's (another retired Blue Ash teacher friend) in Milford for breakfast. You had already planned on buying some new slip on sandals and another pair of comfortable boat shoes because the old ones are wearing out. Carol is taking a book and magazines to read along the way and you might as well take your MacAir. Later, dude. Post.


         1806 hours. I have Brothers 19. It is a bit darker than intended.
         Add and post. We'll talk about it later. - Amorella
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The Brothers 19, ©2013, rho, draft

      Robert drove up West Main passed the Hanby House then left on Grove passed John Knox College towards the north entrance of John Knox Cemetery in the 350 Lexus sedan. He turned left on West Walnut and left into his brother's driveway. Not much original going on in our town these days, he thought, as we are practically surrounded by Columbus. Cincinnati touches the Ohio and Cleveland beaches Erie, but nothing stops Columbus from gobbling the rest of the state. Ordinary and Ohio go together. This is the way we are.

      Robert smiled upon seeing Lady’s long eyelashes dusting the diamond-shaped windowpanes. I should have brought Jack with me; they would have enjoyed each other’s company. He walked to the door, gave a quick knock and entered.

      “I’m upstairs,” shouted Richard.

      “It’s been a few days,” said Rob climbing the steps. “What have you been up to?”

      “Not much.

      “Going by the Hanby House I was thinking about the abolitionists. This was big in the Underground Railway, several well known conductors lived here, but the town’s pretty much lost its identity except uptown and the streets closest to the college; the small town we grew up in.”

      “Yeah. That’s the way it is, Robert. Do you want a beer?”

      “I’ll take the beer.” He rubbed his chin, “What do you think if we had beards?”

      Richard chuckled, “Like the Smith Brothers?”

      “Can you still get their cough drops? I haven’t seen them in years.”

      “I don’t know.”

      Robert paused then asked, “What’s the matter with your set?”

      “Nothing,” replied Richard. “I was thinking about the on/off button and then about how the real off button is a pulled plug.

      Rob smirked, "One is a button on the set the other dangles from the back like a tail.”

      “The tail is the power supply,” said Richard, “but if you were a television set you would think the power supply is always available.”

      “The heart’s our power supply, Richie. We've got nothing to plug in.” Both laughed. Rob sat irritated by Richard rubbing at his forehead.

      “Human beings have passion, that's as important as the heart, don't you think?”

      Robert chuckled finding his own hand at his forehead for no particular reason. “We are nothing but a self-reflective biochemical mass.”
     
      “I agree completely.”

      “No high tech machines are we. We are self-starters born in a puddle of biochemical wattage.”

      “Okay,” said Richard. “Here’s the thing though, why do we feel connected to the cosmos?”

      “It is the essence of what we are. It is built into psyches.”

      “And into our genes.”

      “Our genes are our psyches, Richie. It’s only bio-chemical makeup.”

      “We are genetically predisposed."

      Without the slightest hint of doubt, Robert responded, “We are pre-programmed to have our doubts.”

      “We are our own genes, doubts and all.”

      Rob added, “As are our wives.”

      Richard paused then commented, “We mostly all duplicates of the species Homo sapiens.” For a short moment he stared at the unplugged television, then he continued, “We human beings are more analogous with the television than the computer. We are social centers, or at least it used to be. Earth is our gathering place, as the home's hearth, villages, towns and cities used to be.”

      "We are but weeds, Richie. Nothing more. Yesterday we were looking at the foliage in the back yard and Connie said we ought to get rid of the honeysuckle because it isn't a native. I replied, 'Neither are we.'"

      "That doesn't make us weeds though."
     
      "I think it does. We act like we are weeds. We take over what is really native in the world and manipulate it to our own liking."

      "We're native too as far as the world is concerned."

      "So are weeds by any other name."

      “I do agree that people are more like televisions than computers. I would like to think we are also computer-like in that we are creators and designers.”

      Robert spied the wireless router on the floor below the window. “Why do you have your router on the floor?”

      “So people can’t pick up the signal so easily.”

      “You got it secured?”

      “Of course Rob,” sighed Richard.

      “What did we ever do without the Internet?”

      “Or our cell phones.”

      “Long ago, human beings only had their dreams,” added Robert.

      "In our youth we had our imagination and our games.”

      "We played cause and effect with observational errors."
     
      "We still do," responded Richard.

      Robert's natural smile with a hint of a smirk rose to the occasion, "So do our in-law natural sisters."

      A statement from Richard slid in, "This is a good reason to go down and get those beers." Both chuckled at the weedy darkness.

778 words

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         2106 hours. Grandma's Story 19 begins one of the more fun stories because it goes on for these three chapters and it includes Merlyn as one of the characters by the end of the book, Chapter 21. It is 6817 words long and I am not sure how I can shorten this to around 750 words and say the same thing. This will definitely be a fun challenge.

         As with Dead 19 we will work on Brothers 19 again later. The difficult part for you is keeping the initial passion for these chapters while deleting material you love. Not only is Merlyn in these selections but Renaldo and Criteria. To keep with the fun let's be sure to include the whole of the concluding poetry in each. Here's the conclusion of Grandma 19.

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. . .  Their search continued, not for the bones of the brother of Jesus, but for anyone of Jesus' father's or mother’s bloodline. No one knew the truth then, nor do people know it now. Most don’t even know the truth about their own family lines let alone their royal ones.

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Criteria and Renaldo stand on one square or another
Surrounded by the reflexive line of political division;
You know the reflection of ‘I’ll do this, but I’d rather,’
In the moral circumstance of personal decision.

So together it comes three divisions in one
Today, a Past, and a Future is spun;
One by one through Chapter Twenty-one to deliver
A slow march of freed words from across the River.

Words delivered by Ferryboat Captain, Leo Lamar
From the dead of humanity tilting the Living ajar;
Filtering through humankind like a somber dew
Through a body of friendship, from Grandma to you.

From smiling Grandma's white teeth and black gums
Merlyn's mind in a Future this way comes.

[poetry - 117 words]

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         I really don't see how this can be done, Amorella, even saying I go to 810 words or thereabouts as total.

         You always have your doubts, boy. I'll provide some help. Tomorrow we take a practice draft and begin deleting and eventually we'll see what happens. Post. - Amorella


25 June 2013

Notes - all in a summer's day /


         Shortly after noon, local time. Again, errands and chores today plus Tim and Carol mowed the south side and Carol the back and north side yards. You trimmed the sections but you have the front to do after the tree people cut the last of the ash trees in your yard this afternoon. - Amorella
         1308 hours. We had a clean the leftovers lunch and we'll have left over Papa John pizza for supper. I wonder if Dead 19 needs a little more before moving on.
         We will tie these chapter nineteen sections together once they are completed as is. It'll work as you'll see. - Amorella
          1521 hours. The last ash tree (ash bored to death) was cut and ground within an hour and forty minutes. We are talking a sixty-five foot tree with a trunk diameter of  34.5 inches. Three pronged main branches at about eighteen feet. They tied a rope, using the man in the bucket apparatus at about forty feet then tied the other end of the rope on the tractor hitch and while Dave cut the trunk at about a foot and a half they slowly tugged the tractor back and the rope taut, then the tree shook slightly at the top, the chainsaw stopped, the tractor pulled slowly and down the tree came between the Hawthorne and the front porch. Splintering like lightning at the top dead branches and the trunk crashed like thunder. The men were proud of themselves. "We know how to cut down trees," said one. The others agreed. They took a cold high test Coke break, then finished grinding and putting the two long pieces of 25 inch diameter trunk on the truck and the tractor on a flatbed trailer behind it, cleaned up the debris from the yard and street and drove off in the truck with the grinder-to-sawdust behind it; another day of work completed. (The other large front tree, the sixty-footer, was 28 inches in diameter where cut near the base.) It was cool and awesome to watch. I'll water the front flattened grass once it's shady and I plan mow in the morning or as soon as the blades straighten as they did the last time the men-who-cut-trees were here. (1539)
         You are at Kroger's on Kings Mill Road after stopping at McD's for dollar Cokes and a McDouble. Lots of traffic. Bad timing at McD's in that it was a twenty-minute wait in carryout line. One problem as you see it is that longer SUV and personal trucks are the length of a car and a half so a double line is not in sync as far as length goes. - Amorella
         What is Brothers 19 about? (1733)
         Check what you have in the original. - Amorella
         I haven't done that for a while. Actually, I forgot about it. -- Brothers 19 is 1408 words in length.. Part of it is chess though.
         Delete the chess part and we'll work with what's left. - Amorella
         Late dusk. Earlier you and Carol had left over Papa John pizza for supper and watched last night's third episode of a new TNT summer detective show, "King and Maxwell". You both are enjoying the development of the characters and the pace of the series so far. Then at Carol's insistence, you and she finished mowing the front yard about half an hour ago.
         2141 hours. Dusk is gone by now but we took a pleasant drive uptown  (sunroof back and windows open) and around the block (Mason-Montgomery Road to U.S. Route 42 down to Tylersville, then Tylersville back to Mason-Montgomery and home to the Lakeside subdivision across from the relatively new Mason Municipal Building and nearby Mason High School. It has been a very pleasant summer evening.
         All for tonight, boy. Post. - Amorella