Mid-morning. Even going into Grandma Eight
there are name complications and this is throwing you into numbness because of
Grandma Seven seeming character lineage success. – Amorella
1020 hours. I have to work through this though presently
these lineage complications appear never-ending and take a tremendous amount of
specific focus. I need to stop and do my exercises then back to work.
1119
hours. I completed my forty minutes. Yesterday saw lots of arthritic aches,
mostly in my knees and hips, a few sharp but mostly dull and deep throbbing
from the affected joint areas, thus no exercises. I assume the arthritic
conditions were mostly from the local cold chilling weather. I wouldn’t want to
be in Boston or New York.
You are tired, not from the exercises but
from being awakened by Jadah several times during the night, mostly because she
was cold (paw pads and ear flaps) and uncomfortable. Thus she climbed up on you
or Carol to sleep and in the process kept waking you. – Amorella
1130 hours. This has happened several times the last few
nights. She only weighs 7.4 pounds and is quite petite. I hope she doesn’t make
a habit of this. The furnace is set on 70 degrees but our room stays at 67,
which is the way we like it. Other rooms are warmer, particularly Carol’s
office downstairs. Some of this is her need for affection. She likes to cuddle
in. Jadah is a people-companion cat and we love her dearly. Spooky does not
cuddle but would rather hang close, sitting in the same room or on the couch
with Carol. I have been taking a quick nap after breakfast and it helps. In
some ways Jadah reminds us of our days waking up in the middle of the night to
tend to Kim during her early days. It is nice to feel needed so we don’t really
complain about either cat. Both are soothing and entertaining for us. In her
own way Jadah ‘mothers’ us too – always checking up, getting us up in the
morning (particularly me) by ten after eight. And, she gives each of us an
affectionate head butt at least once a day, sometimes when we least expect it.
See, there was more in your head and heart
about your cats than you expected to see in print. Post. - Amorella
Late afternoon. You had lunch at Penn Station for a
change, dropped the book to Doug off at the post office, and drove to Joseph
Toyota to buy the Plus maintenance package that includes the forty-five
thousand miles service; it was two hundred and ninety-nine dollar and includes
all major and minor services. Since it is seventy-two dollars for every ten
thousand miles service (synthetic oil, inspections, and rotating tires included)
you and Carol think it is a good deal. – Amorella
1717 hours. This includes other emergency services also.
Anyway, I don’t know why you are including this because it has nothing to do
with writing or character or any aspect of being a writer.
It relates to everyday life, boy, at your
age should be significant – in fact it is more significant than you care to
admit – thus it is included. – Amorella
1722
hours. I am not really that conscious of how much time I have left on this
planet.
Mind consciousness and the heart
consciousness work on two different levels. The more you are ‘conscious’ of
this, the clearer you are of inner distractions. – Amorella
What is the real human focus here?
To be a peace with one’s public and private
self at all times unconsciously. - Amorella
1728 hours. This sounds Buddhistic and Hinduistic.
It sounds practical and reasonable as well
as self-humane. – Amorella
1732 hours. I can accept this, and I can accept the being
at peace (harmony) but I cannot accept “at all times unconsciously”. This would
mean, at least to me, to have complete control over one’s unconscious self. How
could this be? If one has complete control then sheorhe is conscious of the
unconscious.
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conscious
– adjective
aware
of and responding to one's surroundings; awake.
•
having knowledge of something; aware: we are conscious of the extent of the problem.
•
(conscious of)
painfully aware of; sensitive to: he was very conscious of his appearance.
•
concerned with or worried about a particular matter: they were growing
increasingly security-conscious.
•
(of an action or feeling) deliberate and intentional: a conscious effort to
walk properly.
• (of the mind or a
thought) directly perceptible to and under the control of the person concerned.
consciousness – noun
the
state of being awake and aware of one's surroundings: she failed to regain
consciousness and died two days later.
•
the awareness or perception of something by a person: her acute
consciousness of Mike's presence.
• the fact of awareness by
the mind of itself and the world: consciousness emerges from the operations
of the brain.
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unconscious –
adjective
not
conscious: the boy was beaten unconscious.
•
done or existing without one realizing: he would wipe back his hair in an
unconscious gesture of annoyance.
•
[ predic. ] (unconscious
of) unaware of: “What is it?” he said again,
unconscious of the repetition.
noun (the
unconscious)
the part of the mind that
is inaccessible to the conscious mind but that affects behavior and emotions.
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1743
hours. Using at the above definitions your implied statement is false.: “[One
should work] to be a peace with one’s
public and private self at all times unconsciously.”
The
‘statement’ implied is for you, Richard. I provide the background on your
unconscious. – Amorella
1754 hours. These notes over the years show evidence of
this so in context with notes and books I concur. It seems odd though and
rather non-human in a very basic way.
You and Carol watched last night’s “CSI” and
another episode of “House of Cards” as well as NBC News Then Carol and you each
had a bowl of cut green pepper, brown rice with ground steak-burger, corn and
other assorted veggies mixed in. It was very good. As for your consciousness
and unconsciousness you are quite human, boy, because I am here to keep you
honest and aboveboard for the sake of your witnessing your own authenticity.
That’s the sole purpose, and with this you write fiction so you can eventually
die an honest enough man. All for tonight, post. Tomorrow you can complete
Grandma Eight so we can move on and finish this chapter. – Amorella
2141 hours. I am a contradiction.
