31 July 2015

Notes - hypothetically / evening

         Shortly after noon local time. Carol is working with her physical therapist and you have run some errands. You are both packed are ready to finish loading the car, and you are stopping for lunch on the drive, probably at the new Wendy’s near Kings Island. – Amorella

         1222 hours. I think it would look better if I added the day of the week at the beginning of each mostly daily blog posting.

         As you wish, boy. Time is your agenda, not mine. – Amorella

         1228 hours. I like the concept of time and how for most practical purposes, it moves forward. Life as we know it was created within the framework of motion, thus, we have no choice but to accept it as a physical reality. It is difficult to imagine anything (work) ever being accomplished without a sense of time. How can events be measured without time?

         Being or not being is the usual way of measurement. – Amorella

         1231 hours. Hypothetically, how would an immortal-like being measure time?

         I, the Amorella, am displaced and as such I measure time by the event of ‘being’ within your ‘being’.

         1234 hours. Being displaced, does this mean you are not responsible for the welfare of three to five universes?

         No. Being here is a displacement of my sense of self much are you are a displacement during dreamtime. I am within the within while being beyond and out of three universes of which you are within one as am I. – Amorella

         1240 hours. In your context motion does not exist.

         Yes. I am, as you might say, a multitude of motionless points. But then, so are you on a lesser scale. Toes and fingers are not at the same point in space but you say they are anyway. Your liver is not at the same point as your brain. Enough for now. Carol is about done with her exercises and you will be leaving for Westerville first, then Kim and Paul’s. Later. Post. – Amorella

         You dropped off Carol at Mary Lou’s where Linda is staying and drove on out to Kim and Paul’s. At dinnertime you went along as Kim and Paul picked up Owen and Brennan from Primrose and headed to Max and Erma’s in Westerville for dinner. Afterwards, as is the usual everyone but Gayle went to Graeter’s for dessert. Tomorrow the bases are covered at both houses as the movers bring the dining room furniture and hutch from Mary Lou’s to Kim and Paul’s. – Amorella

         2106 hours. I am thinking that I will meet Carol and Linda for breakfast and head home, as I am unneeded. Tomorrow night Kim is having everyone at the house for steak dinner, but I am not that interested. I had too much food today with a Wendy’s for lunch and a dinner dish of shrimp scampi for supper – very filling, especially with three glasses of Coke Zero.

         Post. - Amorella

30 July 2015

Notes - broader context / Carol and Dr. T. / comet / subjectively

         Mid-morning. You sit with fingers on the keys but words are not rendered up. Carol is having breakfast with her retired Blue Ash teacher friends. While visiting Kim and Paul the car’s exterior was damaged by spray/spillage on the road. State Farm, and the Joseph Toyota Collision Center has not identified the substance but the collision center has concluded it will ‘rub out’. Next Tuesday they will have the car for the day and the paint will be fully restored as well as a reapplication of the Xzilon treatment you paid for with the original purchase of the car. – Amorella

         0910 hours. Mary Lou's friends, Dee and Tony, gave us a wonderful framed recent portrait of Mary Lou – it captures my sister-in-law’s outgoing and distinctive personality – just looking at it at breakfast. I am more deeply saddened by her passing than I suspected I would be.

         A step in the right direction, boy. The heart has many river-like passageways – the ebbing and flowing are not always intuitive or counter-intuitive for that matter. Common shared memories are more easily resurrected than understood. You knew each other for forty-nine years of family time, especially with Kim and her daughter Sharon being born less than a year apart – lots of shared trips to Florida to see Carol and Mary Lou’s mother and father as well as Linda and Bill and their girls, Jean and Jen. Ventures throughout Florida and the best of times at Key West were all a major part of your lives together. – Amorella

         0925 hours. Obviously, Mary Lou has had more bearing on my private family life than I was willing to think on. Mary Lou and Sharon, Linda and Bill and Jean and Jen have an impact of the lives of Carol and myself and Kim and Paul. Mary Lou was a very important to our family’s private lives. I need to accept this sorrow in a broader context, and as the needed phrase says, move on. 

         Post. - Amorella


         You and Carol had lunch at Penn Station and Carol is getting ready for her last physical therapy at home. – Amorella

         1544 hours. Yesterday when Dr. Thomas asked Carol to bend her knee sitting down she did so naturally and efficiently that his excitement was caught in the surprise. I also was surprised, almost as much so as when she first walked without a walker or cane. The bend movement was certainly more than the 120 degrees he was looking for. The only therapy to work on is keeping the knee straight when stretched; it is within 5 degrees of straight. He wants it straight. She has two sessions as the Mason Community Center a week and will start a week from Monday. Once this is accomplished her leg strength will continue to grow and within three months the replacement should be completely ‘naturalized/normalized’ by relearned leg muscle. It was completely cool to see the X-rays of the artificial knee. I am very proud and amazed with Carol and her progress. She sat and bent her knee for Dr. Thomas like it had been there her entire life. It was her best performance. No hesitation or jerkiness – just a natural bending of the knee more than 120 degrees while sitting. Most cool.

         You found a good BBC science article today, one that gives you more hope that comets indeed helped seed life in the universe. Add and post. - Amorella

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Science & Environment

Comet yields 'rich array' of organics

Science editor

The spacecraft which made a spectacular landing on a comet last year has discovered a rich array of carbon compounds.

One leading scientist has even described the chemicals as "a frozen primordial soup".


The Rosetta craft is still orbiting 67P and took image on 28 April 15

This supports the theory that comets may have seeded the early Earth with the ingredients for life.

The findings came after the lander, known as Philae, touched down on comet Churyumov-Gerasimenko 67P in November.

It was dropped by the European Space Agency's Rosetta "mothership" in the climactic stage of a ten-year mission.

Results from the lander's seven instruments are published in a special collection of papers in the journal Science.

One team running a device called COSAC found no fewer than 16 organic compounds, four of which had not been known to exist on comets before.

Ancestral material

Prof Ian Wright of the Open University, who leads another instrument, Ptolemy, said the results were "really interesting".

"I see this cometary material that we're analysing as frozen primordial soup. It's the kind of stuff that if you had it, and warmed it up somehow, and put it in the right environment, with the right conditions, you may eventually get life forming out of it.

"What we may be looking at here is our abiological ancestral material - this is stuff that went into the mix to produce life.

"In many ways it's quite a humbling thing to be working on, because this is life before life happened."

One of Ptolemy's most significant discoveries is of a compound known as polyoxymethylene, a string of relatively simple molecules forming a polymer of formaldehyde.

Prof Wright said: "The simplest unit of this polymer is a single carbon, two hydrogens and a single oxygen, and this then repeats itself. That same ratio of elements occur in carbohydrates and sugars so it's very interesting and implicated in the biological cycle we have on Earth."

In a separate paper, Fred Goesmann and colleagues describe the 16 compounds found by their COSAC instrument, and their possible importance for the development of life.

Hydroxyethanal is "an efficient initiator in the prebiotic formation of sugars", they write.

And methanenitrile is "a key molecule in the prebiotic synthesis of amino acids and nucleobases and even offers an elegant pathway to sugars".

The authors conclude that the complexity of the comet's chemical makeup, and the presence of organics containing nitrogen, "imply that early solar system chemistry fosters the formation of prebiotic material in noticeable concentrations".

None of the papers suggests the presence of more sophisticated compounds such as amino acids - though further analysis of the findings may yield that.

'Hardware shop'

Professor Charles Cockell, director of the UK Astrobiology Centre, was not involved in the mission but told the BBC the results were "very significant".

"Finding simple organic compounds on a comet out there in space, showing us that they could have been delivered to the early Earth, early in the history of our planet, is tremendously exciting.

"It gives us better ideas about how those building blocks of life may have formed and where they may have come from.

"It confirms there is organic chemistry throughout the universe, that carbon-containing compounds, some of which are very complex, could be being formed on comets in our solar system."

Prof Mark McCaughrean, the European Space Agency's senior science advisor, told BBC News: "Imagine you want to build a house and you go to a forest, where there are trees, mud and rocks. You could make a house out of that, but it would be hard work.

"Well, we've now discovered the comet is more like a hardware shop - lots of pre-made building blocks, like door frames, bricks etc. It gives you a head start.

"One of the big questions, though, is this material made on the comet? Or is it made first in space and then incorporated into the comet? We don't know the answer to that yet."

The data published today was gathered during Philae's chaotic landing on the comet. Ptolemy had been programmed to switch on ten minutes after touching down.

Prof Wright told the BBC: "The idea was we'd just have time for a sniff of the air - there was no great reason to do it, it was to check the instrument had survived landing, an insurance policy to get some data as soon as possible."

As things turned out, Philae did not anchor itself to its original landing zone but bounced back up which meant that Ptolemy's 'sniff' took place while the spacecraft was airborne.

Despite this, the instrument successfully got readings of whatever material had entered its vent pipe.

"We've just got a snapshot of some dust that was flying around as we landed but we've got some very significant data," Prof Wright said.

After a long silence, the Philae lander made contact last month but the link has been intermittent and the spacecraft's fate is unclear.

One theory is that it may have been dislodged or tipped over by a jet of gas emerging from the rocks beneath it.

And gas jets are becoming more intense as the comet approaches the Sun - with its closest approach, known as perihelion, coming up shortly on 13 August.

Another idea is that because Philae is believed to be sitting at the foot of a cliff, it may have been hit by falling debris, dislodged as the surface warms.

But those involved in the mission are determined to remain optimistic that the lander has survived and will resume contact.

Even if it does not, several loads of data, collected and sent back in the Philae's first 60 hours on the comet, are still being analysed and have yet to be published.

Selected and edited from - http://www.bbcDOTcom/news/science-environment-33720951

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         Carol is in her last home session and you are mulling over moving ahead with chapter nine. Let’s check and see where you are. – Amorella

         1630 hours. First, I was reading an article in the ‘Mind over Matter’ section of the September issue of Discover. The article is  “Talking Heads – What happens when scientists try to eavesdrop on the inner voice?” by Cassandra Willyard. Here are a couple excerpts.

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         “In the search for answers, I [Cassandra Willyard] began combing through the scientific literature. One man’s name appears again and again: Lev Vygotsky, a Russian psychologist. He proposed in the 1930’s that our inner voice evolves when we are still children . . .. We’ve all heard children talk to themselves as they build Lego battleships or whip up imaginary pancakes. Eventually, Vygotsky wrote, these private conversations begin to take place silently inside our heads.” p. 22

            Charles Fernyhough of Durham University in Britain says, “Inner speech is just private speech that has been fully internalized.” p. 22

            “Try having a thought and documenting it at the same time, and you’ll begin to understand the problem scientists are up against.” p. 22

            “Dolores Albarracin, a psychologist at the University of Illinois at Urbana-Champaign, says it typically appears ‘when you are really worried or really anxious.’ Albarracin and her colleagues found that negative situations and internal struggles tend to elicit a ‘splitting of the mind’ that transforms the inner voice into something of a surrogate parent.” p. 24

            “Inner speech also seems to help people perform cognitive tasks.” p. 24.

Selected and edited from – Cassandra Willyard, “Talking Heads”, Discover, September 2015.

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         1740 hours. This article fits very easily around my situation, first, as a child with a private internal friend who looked and sounded like Aunt Jemima and later in life morphed into an angelic-like Amorella. This is one of my hypotheses for my inner writer phenomenon anyway.

         I find no argument against the above as a hypothesis. – Amorella

         1747 hours. I am documenting my/your thoughts in any case.

         I exist subjectively in your head. I also exist objectively when displayed with an independent point of view as a writer, or as you might say, as your fictional character who ‘acts’ as a writer by writing rather than by an inner voice ‘writing’ rather than talking. Post. - Amorella


         You reworked and completed Brothers Nine and feel the better for it. Post. – Amorella

         2229 hours. I did. I am the better for it. Grandma 9 and Pouch 9 are completed. I need to create Dead 9 then move on to Chapter Ten of Book Two.

29 July 2015

Notes - not thought

         Early Wednesday evening. You have not felt at ease in writing thus, you have not. – Amorella

         1821 hours. I have nothing to say.

         For perspective, perhaps this might be what the Living think when they go to bed and don’t wake up. – Amorella

         1825 hours. I had not thought this before.

         Post. - Amorella

25 July 2015

Notes - perspective / Earth's cousin / how-it-is /

         Saturday, late morning. Yesterday, Cathy and Tod took you home and you took them out to lunch at the Brazenhead. Once finished the three of you went home to chat for a bit then they left. You gathered up what Carol said to bring back, played with the cats, particularly Jadah who was more interested. Carol called and said there was no reason to come back in Columbus Friday afternoon traffic so you caught up on three television shows. You left in the Accord after five and as you arrived at I-70 and I-71 Kim called about supper. You turned on I-670 to return to I-71 North and met Carol, Kim and Paul at an Italian restaurant on the south side of Polaris Centre. The boys were enjoying a once the month “Parents Night Out’’ courtesy of Primrose School. The children are watched until nine or so the parents can go out to dinner by themselves.

         After a good night’s sleep you all had breakfast with Kim making pancakes and Paul making scrambled eggs and mushrooms as well as sausage patties. You had a long soaker bath and washed your hair. Kim, Paul and the boys headed to work at Mary Lou’s house. Presently, Carol is taking a shower in Kim’s bath. – Amorella

         1132 hours. It is interesting and I sit here while you go over the days. Minor events mostly, but Mary Lou is no longer here to experience minor events or anything else. Everyone has a last day. Hers was last Saturday. Sunday, either nothing or she wakes up dead, so to speak. No more sun and sky, green foliage, shelter, water, food, conversations. Mary Lou always said, “I’ll be right beside you, Richard,” and she will in the cemetery – Carol on one side and Mary Lou on the other. Life is always interesting no matter what it brings. Every day brings on a new perspective one way or another.

         Post. - Amorella

         1142 hours. I was looking at my email and Doug sent me an article that fits pretty closely with GMG. Here it is:

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NASA finds 'Earth's bigger, older cousin'
By Michael Pearson, CNN

Updated 9:35 AM ET, Fri July 24, 2015

(CNN)NASA said Thursday that its Kepler spacecraft has spotted "Earth's bigger, older cousin": the first nearly Earth-size planet to be found in the habitable zone of a star similar to our own.

Though NASA can't say for sure whether the planet is rocky like ours or has water and air, it's the closest match yet found.

"Today, Earth is a little less lonely," Kepler researcher Jon Jenkins said.

The planet, Kepler-452b, is about 1,400 light-years from Earth in the constellation Cygnus. It's about 60% bigger than Earth, NASA says, and is located in its star's habitable zone -- the region where life-sustaining liquid water is possible on the surface of a planet.
A visitor there would experience gravity about twice that of Earth's, and planetary scientists say the odds of it having a rocky surface are "better than even."

While it's a bit farther from its star than Earth is from the sun, its star is brighter, so the planet gets about the same amount of energy from its star as Earth does from the sun. And that sunlight would be very similar to Earth's, Jenkins said.
               
The planet "almost certainly has an atmosphere," Jenkins said, although scientists can't say what it's made of. But if the assumptions of planetary geologists are correct, he said, Kepler-452b's atmosphere would probably be thicker than Earth's, and it would have active volcanoes.
It takes 385 days for the planet to orbit its star, very similar to Earth's 365-day year, NASA said. And because it's spent so long orbiting in this zone -- 6 billion years -- it's had plenty of time to brew life, Jenkins said.

"That's substantial opportunity for life to arise, should all the necessary ingredients and conditions for life exist on this planet," he said in a statement.

Before the discovery of this planet, one called Kepler-186f was considered the most Earthlike, according to NASA. That planet, no more than a 10th bigger than Earth, is about 500 light-years away from us. But it gets only about a third of the energy from its star as Earth does from the sun, and noon there would look similar to the evening sky here, NASA says.

The $600 million Kepler mission launched in 2009 with a goal to survey a portion of the Milky Way for habitable planets.

From a vantage point 64 million miles from Earth, it scans the light from distant stars, looking for almost imperceptible drops in a star's brightness, suggesting a planet has passed in front of it.
It has discovered more than 1,000 planets. Twelve of those, including Kepler-425b, have been less than twice the size of Earth and in the habitable zones of the stars they orbit.

Missions are being readied to move scientists closer to the goal of finding yet more planets and cataloging their atmospheres and other characteristics.

In 2017, NASA plans to launch a planet-hunting satellite called TESS that will be able to provide scientists with more detail on the size, mass and atmospheres of planets circling distant stars.

The next year, the James Webb Space Telescope will go up. That platform, NASA says, will provide astonishing insights into other worlds, including their color, seasonal differences, weather and even the potential presence of vegetation.

From - http://www.cnnDOTcom/2015/07/23/us/feat-nasa-kepler-planet-discovery/index.html

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         1152 hours. This is very cool, in our own galaxy no less. Awesome.

         Now Post. - Amorella

         1658 hours. We stopped by Mary Lou’s and saw Sharon and Gil for the first time. We helped with shredding papers then drove to the airport and picked up Linda and Jen. We are at Kim and Paul’s and family discussions have begun around the kitchen table. Those who have had this end-of-life human experience no doubt know how this conversation goes. How much theatre could be created from real life family discussions around the kitchen table?

22 July 2015

Notes - Mary Lou (revised)

        Carol’s sister, Mary Lou Hammond-McKeen died in her sleep last Saturday night, most likely from dehydration after working in the yard with her dear longtime friend, Mack Bailey. Both came in hot and tired from planting lilies. Mack returned to his home and after seven he called Mary Lou. She said she was very tired and was going to bed. She did not return various calls on Sunday and on Monday night Gayle, her sister, went to the house with the Westerville police. After gaining entrance the police found Mary Lou in bed. Mary Lou’s daughter, Sharon, with her children and friend Gil, arrived this afternoon from her home in Henderson, Nevada. Arrangements have not been fully decided. May Mary Lou, dear sister to Carol, Gayle and Linda rest in peace. – Amorella and Richard

         Post. – Amorella

         1148 hours. Mary Lou was quite social and outgoing. She had graduated from Fort Hunt High School, near Alexandria, Virginia, graduated from Otterbein College and from the Ohio State University with a Masters in Education. She did most of her fifth grade elementary school teaching in Westerville City Schools and retired several years ago. In retirement she volunteered a lot of time as a teacher at the historical Hanby House in Westerville and also at the Ohio Historical Society in Columbus. She had many costumes representing Ohio history which she would wear for educational and demonstration purposes. And, instead of flowers, she requested donations to the Westerville and Ohio Historical Societies. She was a good person who, among other things, told you outright what she thought. Mary Lou will be very much missed by those who knew and loved her.


         Amen. - Amorella

20 July 2015

Note - humor / reading in bed

         Late morning. Carol is in the shower after her exercises. You also completed your forty minutes of exercises and took a pain pill for hips, knees and ankles arthritic conditions. Carol’s therapist comes mid-afternoon. You had a long nap this morning and feel better for it. Carol woke up about four to take a pain pill; she forgot to take it yesterday. You both spent about two hours before getting back to sleep. You tried on the couch but it aggravated your arthritis so eventually you came back up to bed once she was again asleep. – Amorella

         1124 hours. This is the first time she forgot to take a prescribed pill. It is a sobering reminder that this knee business is going to take some time. We were both out getting the morning papers with our canes in hand. It was like we were ten years older hobbling around. The scene had a frame of dark humor to it, which I was happy to see. Better dark humor than no humor at all. Besides, dark humor does take some presence of mind. I enjoyed the focus enough to remember it with a grin and a ‘cheer up, things are bound to get worse.’

         Some might think you are feeling sorry for yourself but that is not the case. You live on dark humor, and have done so the whole of your conscious life. It is a predisposed and reflected inner sunshine that comes while enjoying a mighty thunderstorm overhead – i.e. a small existential moment in your mind. Post. - Amorella

         Evening. You had salad and small sandwiches for supper after splitting a Subway, chips and two cookies for lunch. You both napped in the afternoon and watched a PBS, “Inspector Lewis” and the opening episode of “Proof”. Carol decided she will watch it for at least one more episode. You will let her catch up. Carol is up in bed for the night for the first time since the surgery. You have the bedroom doorway lightly blocked so she won’t accidently fall down the steps while sleeping. She has begun a new book and you are about to watch one of your shows via ‘On Demand’ and the MacAir.

         2157 hours. Carol is sleeping on my side of the bed because of her right knee (it is easier to get into and out of bed). It is good having her upstairs and I hope tonight goes well for her. With her reading in bed everything seems the old normal – a good sign. Kings Island has begun their nightly fireworks. We used to see them from our house, but now the trees are too tall.

         Post. - Amorella

19 July 2015

Notes - exercises / geography / soul training? / in principle

         You did your exercises, thirty-five minutes worth today, then helped Carol with her exercises. Carol is icing her knee and has suggested Cracker Barrel for lunch. – Amorella

         1239 hours. She is doing better on her exercises every day – lots of progress over the last three weeks (three weeks on Tuesday). Routine is our framework, which I like, at least at present. I would like to know the shape of the mind. Surely it is not Big Bang like. Consciousness arrives and the mind expands – limited by our environment, that is, our body and brain being ‘attached’ to our worldly sensed environment. It would seem to me that the ‘textures’ of the mind would be different that the ‘textures’ of the heart and of the soul. Timelessness, for instance, would set differently in the heart and the soul than it would in the mind; or it seems to me that it would. The fabrics of each would also be different in construction. What color would best suit the mind? I cannot imagine that a ‘blue’ would be the choice of all three. Surely the heartansoulanmind are not aspects of the same thing. Our languages sort them separately perhaps intuitively. I piece them separately and together, puzzle-like fitting in two dimensions. How would one pull pieces from one dimension alone? Geography.

         Post. – Amorella

         You had take out from Potbelly’s for lunch and while Carol was reading a section of the Sunday paper and eating you were reading a couple of articles in the newest Harper’s which came a couple of days ago. This triggers the thought that if Goggle augmentation software programs were used to separate matters of the heart and soul and mind people might learn something from this. For instance, which matters of the heart influence the soul more? Are matters of the heart always a priority of the soul? What causes the soul to rise up against the mind and/or the heart? - Amorella

         It seems that if we knew these things we would be better able to understand individual human behavior. Look what Google and Facebook learn from the individual as well as collective humanity? If we could better train our hearts and minds and souls, would we not be better ourselves? Churchill once said, according to the Harper’s article – that we create our buildings and in turn our buildings (architecture) train us. This is first a priority of personal moral philosophy. I can vaguely imagine a non-fiction work with the title: Training Your Soul. We work on training our minds, but I don’t know about a book titled: Training Your Heart. We use hypnosis as well as meditation techniques in terms of processing one’s mind. (1525)

         2023 hours. Perhaps the marsupial humanoids have a system that will be uncovered by the humans. Behavioral psychology based on the three invisibles but hardly unknowns – heart and soul and mind.

         You hate to lose what you think is a good idea. – Amorella

         Maybe it isn’t a good idea, but it is something to consider as long as I keep it reasonable.

         It seems to me that part of this is nothing more than semantics. – Amorella

         2029 hours. I hadn’t addressed this but you bring up a good point. No matter what myth or science you follow the north wind is still the north wind.

         And, thus, G---D is still G---D. – Amorella

         2031 hours. With proof or without proof, yes, I agree in principle: G---D is G---D.

         Post. – Amorella
         2034 hours. It amazes me sometimes how the morning in the mind rolls around to the evening in the mind – groceries to G---D on this particular roundabout of a day.