Notes

        Busy morning. MRI took most of it, then you filled up, got both cars washed, and cleaned out the garage. It is a sunny but cool day and you decided to make the most of it.

         Psychologically, it is amazing how much better one feels driving a clean car inside and out. It is engrained in our down home Ohio culture. Now if I could just put the snow shovels in the basement it would be a great day.

         Last night, in the bath with jets and bubbles you had a flash on scene four but forgot to write it down and got interrupted with other things.

         Yes, I did. I have been hoping it would come back to me but it hasn’t. It seemed like a good transition from Apollo and Artemis on the other side of the Styx. One thing I didn’t know is that the other side of the river is only half way back to Earth. That certainly complicates matters. I like the concept of Merlyn eventually tying or hoping to tie the threads of thought and light of the two world cultures of the earthlings and the marsupials. That does help bring the six books together. I assume that will come into play in book six.

         It has already come into play in this last scene orndorff. Where have you been?

         I don’t know. Back here on Earth I guess.

         Post this to get started. Hit your emails, relax, and when you come back to your precious iBook go directly to scene four.  – Amorella. 

        What you wrote you don’t like, so erase it. Tomorrow, you’ll start again, or later tonight. Enjoy the evening.

         It is difficult not feeling guilty, for not writing.

         You are not writing these books out of guilt, orndorff.

         I don’t mean it that way. I was always taught that you have to work, to do something to show your worth. I don’t know where I learned that, but probably it is somewhere in my Presbyterian upbringing. It is by our works that we are saved, something of that sort. I don’t agree with it exactly, but psychologically I think that we save ourselves by attempting to do good works, that is doing work for the betterment of humankind. Teaching literature was my tool. Retired, I suppose one can say these books are written in the selfish self interest of having an objective that keeps me content.

         For the longest time, in early teaching days, I felt guilty for not working in the summers. I did teach summer school several summers but was still left with three or four weeks where I enjoyed myself, but going to the store when others, particularly men, were busy with work of one kind or anther, I didn’t feel productive.

         If you got to the point were you were obsessed by writing this series I would stop. There are times during the last twenty or so years where you would scribble in a notebook, a few words every day or so and that was it. Guilt for no reason is not a good thing. Nothing in your writings will support it. People use guilt to motivate people and while it may work on some, it will not work on you. Friends keep their friends in line, a balanced line, one that you try to adhere to except for your eating habits from time to time. ‘Be moderate in all things.’ It is Greek enough and certainly fits to be bound one way or another. Knowing yourself, is another, and that’s partially what these book bindings are about. Post. Later, dude. – Amorella.