Up after seven. Focus on Owen. You are concerned because when almost asleep last night you realize I hadn’t okayed scene eleven being completed. You had assumed it was and you do not like to make assumptions in that they can be a form of human trickery, especially without conscious intent.
For me there is an unconscious dragon, some might call it original sin or Satan or the absence of good, whatever. I think of it as unconscious fear fueled by guilt or by irrationality, the absence of reason and cannot with good conscious rule out an unnamable evil. It is as an inbred cultural element that is connected with the human clans, It appears to have a purpose only because nature itself appears purposeful from genetics through higher consciousness, coming to life, living, and growing. This is the way I see it in the books. In real life like everyone else, I know next to nothing. For me, fiction is a wonderful gift.
You are looking for the invisible Balance in your mind, orndorff, but remember the Balance is in the heart and soul too. Again, as far as the books are concerned. How else to self-study? Other ways for other people, but fiction works well for you. Relax, enjoy the morning. Post. – Amorella.
After noon. Focus on Owen. Nap. A breadless cheese and turkey wrap for lunch. Paul is home after a twenty-four hour shift. A rainy but relaxing day. Let’s define good and evil for this upcoming scene twelve. When you think of the rebellion in heaven you are culturally reminded of the Book of Genesis, the Divine Comedy, and Paradise Lost. Let’s keep these in the ballpark, recognizing the individual quirks exist outside these three.
That’s fine with me. This is a touchy subject but I used to talk about it class, mostly with Milton and Paradise Lost. If I can keep it to that it would be easier for me to address.
Your definition was mostly on the sense of good and evil angels however and I want to focus on the concepts separating the Biblical passages of Adam and Eve and the Fall of Man from these books. – Amorella.
Oh. How strange to think on because I thought this story was an existential version of the original story, really a more humanistic and existential version of Paradise Lost and Sartre’s No Exit. I have had to muster up a lot of courage to take on such a project. I am an unknown and have learning disabilities and I am not really a very good writer. Writing keeps me off the streets so to speak. Words are a sanctuary for the semi-chaotic conditions that exist between my five senses and the outer world of living a human life. I understand the theology of Good and Evil but even in the process of this sentence I do not think it proper to capitalize evil. By the same token I should not desire to capitalize good either, but I do because I was youthfully trained to think I should do so. It is difficult for me to see human beings as inherently good or evil. We are built to make judgment (free will) because we are allowed (or we have naturally developed) a moral sense within our higher state of human consciousness.
You are thinking of digging up your notes from Paradise Lost and your classical definitions of good and evil as used in those lectures but you do not have them here along the “North Coast” of the United States. I would like to interject my own definitions to follow in the context of this second trilogy, so to speak. The reason being self-evident in your preceding paragraph, your own cultural conditioning. While this was also true in the first trilogy, your aliens, the marsupials, had a similar story of “The Fall” thus you did not need to separate yourself from it.
“The Fall from Grace” is not an aspect of the Rebellion?
Not in your conditional thinking; no, it is not.
Oh.
The reasoning is not sound for these books. Look up ‘Grace’.
Merriam-Webster says: “1a: unmerited divine assistance given humans for their regeneration or sanctification; b: a virtue coming from God; c: a state of sanctification enjoyed through divine grace.”
The characters in these books do not “Fall from Grace” because it is arrogant to think such a thought in this existential and spiritually minded work. – Amorella.
I am out of my league here, Amorella, let alone out of the ballpark.
These books are based on the concept of G---D as a Conditional Verb, not a noun.
I seem to remember something to this effect somewhere in my many volumes of notes. I thought consistency though was the hobgoblin of little minds, at least to one literary figure or another, Emerson comes to mind first. I will have to think on this. Such a minute yet large detail.
Alas, it is boy. Post, and consider how you are going to deal with it. – Amorella.
You had supper at Olive Garden and watched NCIS on your return. Now you have time. What do you think?
When I have doubts or questions I still go with what you [Amorella] write. I don’t have to agree, and I can edit later. I see no reason not to continue my same thinking as it has produced three books. However, when I question my own honesty I also question my authenticity to myself. Originally, I was writing this as if G---D were doing the reading, not literarily of course, but as if G---D or an Angel of G---D were to say, upon my death, “Who are you, boy? What is your story? Fiction will do.”
I would not and do not wish to be dishonest (self-deceptive) in such a situation or test I have set up for myself. I would like to feel when I finish these books, that I am satisfied whether G---D exists or not, at least to the best of my authentically human abilities. This is a self-test, an experiment, to better show me who and what I am as a human being. I would hope that it would also give me better insight into the species homo sapiens. That is my focus as I see it. These writings allows me a further purpose and meaning and sharing the writings helps to keep me honest, sharing keeps me in check, especially when it comes to self-deception. I would expect those who read these notes and books and who know me as a person, would tell me when they see or read something that does not sound like the me the friends know. It is not a double blind test. But telling G---D an honest story, or seemingly honest story is all I can do. I use you, Amorella, to help me tell such an authentically fictional life story. I don’t know how many times this has come up in my notes. My greatest fear in relationship to these works is self-deception, and focusing on the concepts of ‘good’ and ‘evil’ is a focus on my own sense of morality. For some it may be swearing on a Holy Bible, for me it is this.
You have your personal reasons and personal experiences on which to think. One of your secret concerns is that although you are honest in your thoughts your sense of necessity in sharing with others is a form of arrogance and ultimately self-pride.
I am reminded of the Puritan poet, Anne Bradstreet, who felt it prideful to have her book of poetry, "The Tenth Muse Lately Sprung Up in America” published so her brother-in-law took it to England where he had it published (if I remember correctly). I understand her concern. But, I also understand the concept that to wish to always do my best can also be interpreted as being too prideful. Even if I say, “I wish to always do my humanly best” on my personal endeavors it has a reeking of self-pride to it. To be ‘good’ or ‘evil’ is not as easily distinguished when it comes to confronting a manifestation of ‘good’ or ‘evil’, especially when (in my heart and mind at least) human imagination always (I do not like using absolutes such as always or never, but in this context 'mostly' has a wishy-washy tone to it) has a part in such a separation of human values.
In your heartansoulanmind, if an Angel of G---D were to say to you, “Tell the truth, boy.” What would you immediately say?
“I do not know what is true about me, and I do not know what is false either.” Upon this thought I immediately think of Martin Luther’s famous words: “Here I stand, I can do no other.” I can see from this how much of myself is high theatre. My imagination at work. I like to put myself in other’s shoes, in the other shoes of people whom I admire and respect for their sense of human dignity and worth.
Now that you have thought this out on paper where it can be better reasoned, I can move on to scene twelve, which will be Mother’s scene. I will see if it is acceptable to you. Post. All for tonight, orndorff. – Amorella.
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