Notes - oh dear, what can the matter be? / an inclination / the Southern Cross

        You awoke early thinking about your film review and want to add a comment on plot construction. Here it is:

         A note on plot construction. Anonymous is a film of happenstance and theory molded into a story, a fiction for delivery to an audience. Is it completely reasonable? No, but it is entertaining and fun.

         You had a banana and skim milk for breakfast and can deal with it but I suggest you add a handful of dry Cheerios to the menu for more substance. – Amorella.

         I want to get this diet down before I begin insulin. I know I have to half my meals which is going to take some doing. Yesterday I had The Works omelet at First Watch: 800 and some calories. I should have dropped the muffin and potatoes and probably half the omelet but I didn’t. If we hadn’t been going to the film I could have taken it home and had the rest for supper. I thought about it. In the short run, old habits will probably do me in. Damn food and damn money and damn me. Sometimes I feel this way, then I dig my way out of the funk and carry on, ironically, with a very light load. It would help if I could find a way to put this concept to use in the story.

         What a rationalization. You want to give whatever you have to do a purpose.

         It gives me a sense of personal worth, Amorella. What gives you a sense of worth?

         Soul-light and solid ground. – Amorella.

         A different dimension of ‘solid’?

         Not physics solid obviously, kid. – Amorella.

         Almost noon. I checked the Cheerios and one handful is one-fourth of a cup, 25 calories. I ate them. I don’t know what good it did but it isn’t much.

         You were staring at the oriental rug on your side of the bed and ‘saw’ an ‘eye’ and thought of the green disk and its possible location as far a the universe (as you know it) is.

         The disk is like a floater in the eye.

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Floaters are suspended in the vitreous humour, the thick fluid or gel that fills the eye. Thus, they generally follow the rapid motions of the eye, while drifting slowly within the fluid. When they are first noticed, the natural reaction is to attempt to look directly at them. However, attempting to shift one's gaze toward them can be difficult since floaters follow the motion of the eye, remaining to the side of the direction of gaze. Floaters are, in fact, visible only because they do not remain perfectly fixed within the eye. Although the blood vessels of the eye also obstruct light, they are invisible under normal circumstances because they are fixed in location relative to the retina, and the brain "tunes out" stabilized images due to neural adaptation.

Wikipedia

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         That’s as far as you need to go in Wikipedia, we can work with what you have here. – Amorella

         A ‘floater’. I like it. So, Merlyn is going to explain to Arthur where the are relative to the universe?

         Let’s take four universes and let it go at that. Your universe being one of them. Assume I know the four, the ones I am responsible for in the story. – Amorella.

         I thought you were responsible (as a caretaker) for three.

         Do you want to check through your notes?

         No. A needle in a haystack of words – as long as it is not referenced in the books themselves it doesn’t make any difference. It is hard to imagine a floater the size so small it cannot be discovered with physics in relationship to four universes, three others like our own. This takes a lot of holistic imagination, Amorella.

         You are not John Milton, boy. – Amorella.

         Here’s how it is for starters:

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When they are first noticed, the natural reaction is to attempt to look directly at them. However, attempting to shift one's gaze toward them can be difficult since floaters follow the motion of the eye, remaining to the side of the direction of gaze. Floaters are, in fact, visible only because they do not remain perfectly fixed within the eye. - Wikipedia

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         Assume you can be at such a distance and have eyes relative to see four universes as four constellations in the black moonless sky. Much of the ‘space’ appears empty when in fact it is not. Light appears and the viewer observes this as light, not as mass. A floater may appear outside the viewer when, in fact it is inside. It is not within the four constellation-universes and as it is usually to the side of the direction of the gaze it is not seen perceptually because there is no light to reflect it. In a way it is as dark matter, only much less so. Merlyn’s words, not mine. Remember, heartsansoulsanminds are matterless, boy, but they do matter more than matter itself. That’s the way it is in here. Post. – Amorella.


       You are finished with your extended walk at Pine Hill this late afternoon. Carol is still walking her course. Earlier you drove up to the Warren County Court House area and voted absentee. You were both surprised at how busy it was – a line when you entered and a line two times as long when you left. Then a late lunch at Penn Station. You did not eat all of your half of a large chicken teriyaki  sandwich for a change, but you did split the fries.

         This focus on blood sugar and writing down calories may be a necessary chore, but it takes the joy out of eating pretty much what I desire. I went those thirty-three days though with no food at all, nothing but calorie free liquids, as Gary P. and wife are my witnesses. I don’t really care all that much about food deep down; I think it is a private idiosyncrasy, strange and contradictory; but then at times, this is exactly what I am.

         Out the front car window the half moon is at twenty degrees or so above the horizon. – You are home and are curious as to the four universes as constellations forgetting I am speaking figuratively, orndorff. You realize this is a problem from time to time; your imagination gets the better of you. This is one of the deplorable problems when it comes to humanity, particularly when it comes to such metaphysical ‘objects’ from Angels on Up. The Green-Shaped Disk, the Place of the Dead, is built of heartansoulanmind, boy. All within is also is, but for me, the Caretaker. My story through your humanity; do you see how this is, orndorff? – Amorella.

         I am gathering an inclination.

         Good. Post. – Amorella.

         After playing hide and seek with the cat it is almost time for bed. You had another paragraph or so about using the Southern Cross as your make believe constellation composed of for universes in the distance. You spent time searching for an image that would work. You found two, let’s use the simpler.

From: nzphoto.tripod.com/astro/asoutherncross.htm

         You asked me to pick out the universe that contains us humans and I chose the bottom one, the one at six o’clock, the lighter one because it appears closer, that leaves the light blue at nine o’clock, gold at the twelve o'clock, and dark blue at three o’clock.

         I did and I said the darker blobs of light in the background represent universes that are further away as far as our fictional books are concerned. – Amorella.

         You described how Merlyn might explain all this referencing from the so large to the very, very small to Arthur. A good and quite useable paragraph but I hit the wrong button then hit another before I could recover it, and now it is as a dream not quite remembered upon a sudden awakening.

         Merlyn uses a representation of the [chess] Board to move through the metaphysical setting – I assume the Board is a form of quantum entanglement in an engaged setting, that Merlyn’s mind is in two or more places at one time. I need to know how this works for Merlyn and how he can be explaining matters to Arthur when Arthur is not on the Board. I mean I need Merlyn to explain where he is in reference to Arthur while at the same time being able to view four universes from a great distance.

         Heartsansoulsanminds are not matter. Distance is an illusion like seeing a lake of water hovering above the midday desert sand. It is not much different than doing several tasks in your mind at once. People do this constantly, some consciously and some unconsciously. The human body appears in one place and the human mind can easily be preoccupied in another place. For survival in the universe of physics the body is the real place, for survival in HeavenOrHellBothOrNeither the mind is the real place. I have explained this before yet you are bothered by what has a ring of truth about it even outside the books. – Amorella.

         I must learn to accept fun magical imaginary moments as fictional reality. I have no doubt which universe I am in, but I find secret delight staring at the photo of the Southern Cross and ‘thinking’ it as an alternate reality. I am playing a child’s game of “Let’s Pretend” as an older adult – and it is still fun and exciting in a secret sort of way.

         One practical reason for the blog, boy, to keep it not so secret so you cannot easily slip away into a dream. You know who and where you are. Let’s call it a night. Post. – Amorella.

         Another contradiction perhaps, but writing keeps me real, the act of writing is in the reality of the physical universe.

         So is the Southern Cross, old man. Have a good sleep. – Amorella.