Notes - not accounted for / con't Lesson Seven - B /

         Mid Sunday afternoon. You had a leisurely family breakfast at the new Bob Evans nearby on Cedar, grocery, then for you, a nap. You had an off-centered dream during your nap. What you remember is a small rectangular building on a hillside above a wide though not deep river. Once you walked to the entrance of the dark blue mosaic designed building (like an airplane hanger or large garage), you saw small groups of people, some splashing near the edge, a few talking in groups (all you noticed with bathing suits) then you walked around the building and there was a bridge, or a pier and as you walked out (you could see nothing of the other side) you looked down and saw people under the water, individuals not moving and who looked drowned. It occurred to you during the dream experience that all these people were recently dead, all had died by drowning, but they were centered at a central ‘existentialistic’ location in or near the water. You felt these people did not know they had drowned but they were in the similar cultural experience of swimming in a waterhole in a river. A flash, and the interior of the building was a Tibetan styled temple. Then you awoke. Does this sound familiar to the dream experience? – Amorella

         Your description is not exact – there were stops and starts, like an on and then off and so forth. I sensed this even though I was in the dream, it was a lucid-like dream but I was not consciously controlling it. I was outside and inside the dream at the same time. It reminds me of the difference between print and script. I observe life as a script (letters connected in a flow and flourish) but the “on/off” reminds me of a flash of life as a print letter after a print letter – there is a blank space where there is no connection.

         Once at Dr. (Paul ?) Payne’s office at the University of Cincinnati (in the mid-eighties) I told him that I saw reality (a greater sense of reality) that way – a disconnect between frames, and that at times I think of seconds as pieces, that we do the connecting, rather the brain does the connecting, but the mind can ‘see’ time is here then it isn’t, it is here, then it isn’t. This is exactly what it felt like in the Dance with Amorella. Now, this doesn’t have to be a mystical experience at all, though that is what came and comes to mind – perhaps it is a natural occurrence that we don’t normally see, thus we don’t account for it. The experience may manifest itself (for some) in a thought such as this; “I see the world for what it is just like most everyone else – but something is missing. I am not seeing reality as it really is, a piece is missing or not accounted for.”

         Post. Title this “not accounted for”. I understand your point. This early afternoon dream is reinforcement in your mind for what you just described – that even the recent Dead don’t see reality for what it is. - Amorella

         After dinner you did your exercises and thought more about Lesson Seven – B. Here is what you have presently, a homework assignment of sorts. We will continue tomorrow or when nature permits. - Amorella

         It appears ‘being and not being’ at the same time is impossible but what if the ‘being and not being’ only appears to be at the same time because the brain senses the circumstance like an on/off switch. If time were a segment as a particle but the brain resolves this as a flow of motion because, for survival, this is how the brain has to think. It is a way to arrive at point B from point A, and it is a way to find and catch food on the move. That a hypothesis, I guess.

         On and off and full and empty may be aspects of the same event. If it were possible to know when the ‘spirit’ motivates us (and only the spirit) it may be possible to measure such a spiritual energy within our humanity, that is energy from the soul as separate from heart and mind. We do measure ‘mind’ through brainpower. We say a person has heart – we know what this means and sometimes it is measured in courage and fortitude. We even say, “heart and soul” but what is soul, determination? Online dictionaries suggest heart and soul means: “the most essential” and “with complete faith” otherwise I was looking at song lyrics.

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heart: 1 the central or innermost part the heart regarded as the center of a person's thoughts and emotions, esp. love or compassion: • courage or enthusiasm 2 the central or innermost part;

soul: 1 the spiritual or immaterial part of a human being or animal, regarded as immortal. • emotional or intellectual energy or intensity, esp. as revealed in a work of art or an artistic performance: 2 the essence or embodiment of a specified quality;

Edited from: Oxford-American dictionary software

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         The words do not have the same meaning from my perspective. Yet their use shows that many people may think they are nearly the same, examples, courage and enthusiasm. If the soul is indeed immortal that makes it immensely different than anything in known physics. That’s how I see it. The “Being – Non-being”; the “on and off” and may be manifestation of the soul, which is not human but instead an example of an ‘immortal spirit’. Heart and mind are human. I'll think more about it tonight, but it is good to get this into words in this particular context.

         Post. - Amorella


       These are just ideas, concepts and hypothesis being worked, nothing more.