11 March 2014

Notes - hands and a selfie / Custodian who stewards / final Chapter 3 /


         Before breakfast. You and Carol woke before light. You woke at four and have not gone back to sleep. Your hands, still bandaged, are on the board in the proper places but you are moving your fingers to their proper letters slowly. They rest higher on the board because of the padding in the palms and at the top of the wrists under the gauze-like elastic bandages. The hands ache at five/six pain but if you hit the hand the pain is sharper, up to a quick seven/eight. Carol is going to get you wet wipes and disposable baggies for necessities. The bandages can come off tonight but you think tomorrow morning might be better. The right hand fingers are twice as swollen as the left. Getting out of the black lounger chair in the bedroom took some practice. You cannot lift yourself up by the arm rests but you get to the front of the seat and slowly roll out onto the carpet using elbows and shoulders then swing your right arm up to catch the southeast corner of the bed and pull yourself up by the upper right arm. You also find that you cannot lift your computer except by the way you would lift a dinner plate full of food and not for anything but the shortest length of time. Here is a flipped selfie as you are ‘sitting’ back in the lounger. Looks just like you, orndorff. Post. - Amorella 



         0824 hours. I was just funning Amorella.

         Really, I would not have guessed. Few will see the dark humor here as you are picking up your head and are about to hold it like Hamlet is holding the skull of Yorick. - Amorella


         Short before noon local time. You are working on chapter three and you want to add the line (in reference to the Supervisor who has just spoken, “I am a higher advisor of this sort.” Your first approach is to discover another word for ‘higher’ here but cannot find one and you are coming to think there is good reason for this. The Supervisor (played by a selection of myself here) is not ‘higher’ or an ‘advisor’. This is a problem of language. Look up supervisor:

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supervisornoun

manager, director, overseer, controller, superintendent, governor, chief, head; steward, foreman; informal boss.

selected and edited from the Oxford-American software.

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 In this context “steward” is the best word but readers may misinterpret the meaning to think “attendant” or “purser” or even “caretaker” but actually “custodian” fits best in terms of actual ‘operation’ of the Facilities for the Dead, facilities in this case also includes the Dead. Thus, your sentence should read: “I am the Custodian who stewards the Dead.” Add the sentence and post. - Amorella


         2028 hours. I have completed the final of Chapter Three.

         Add and post. – Amorella

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Chapter Three

Circumstance

The Supervisor has a little saying:
                                    Ring-a-ring o'rosies
                                    A pocket full of posies
                                    "A-tishoo! A-tishoo!"
                                    We all fall down!

                                    We rise from clay
                                    On judgment day
                                    Be we dead or still alive.

            I, Merlyn, have this little ditty above memorized to the point it sets stemmed in letters out of which each four-leafed chapter dreams grow to clover size. I knead the dreams into a word stream of music for the heart and soul and mind with hope that when read, these stories cast a light into those living with an imagination that casts no shadow.







The Dead 3

                        “These are a few social rules. Having higher consciousness is not free. Each pays the Boatman,” begins the Supervisor, “Living or dead human beings sometimes deserve to have some free time without interruption.  The dead like company just as the Living do. Why, because in here the dead are still human beings. What would Heaven be like without having your humanity, you tell me? Presently the Place of the Dead has adopted a new name. The primary reason the marsupial-humanoid human-like spirits long ago chose to call this Place of the Dead, HeavenOrHellBothOrNeither. The Earth centered human spirits saw humor in their own language translations because there are times people want to keep to themselves and usually the more secret these reasons are, the more the personal hell there is. People who have no secrets are entitled to a free pass. The dead have come to accept themselves, secrets and all. It’s relatively simple really. The human spirit, Earth or ThreePlanets’ centered, reasons and makes a fair or just worthiness of her or himself. The gravity or the passion that holds one's centeredness, one’s self-worth and dignity, to the spiritual rails of conscious as well as unconscious memory, the freer one is. Knowing one's self is balancing one's spirit of who one was in life and of who one now is. A few of the dead in these dreams remain silent for a distinct period of time-which-isn’t for good reason; learning to know who one is, is generally a prerequisite to learning who the other dead are. Allowances are made. The recent dead are entitled to a close friend to help or to an advisor to manage when such service is needed. I am the Custodian who stewards the Dead.

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            North of Merlyn’s roughshod though comfortable wooden hut, sits our protagonist on his smoothed stone Druid’s chair. This, his throne as it were, rests on a well-laid non-granite slab to the immediate right of the large tall and stately non-oak that isn’t, of course. Merlyn glances north into the spiritual configuration of a securely woven cloth-like matrix to better dress the energetic and passionate cocoon of Merlyn’s heartansoulanmind. This sanctuary, a vivid dream from life is a vivid reality after transition.
            To the northeast of Merlyn’s chair rests the moss-blotched two-foot high flagstone front stage ruins, mentioned earlier, on which he had first magically danced as a child. Around and beyond the stage are a continuation of a favorite Scottish meadow of grasses and flowers. A brush of bluebells and ox-eyed white daisies sets to the left and a caress of white foxglove and red poppies to the stone stage right. Further north a large stand of Scottish Pine grows grandly tall on a higher rising sloop. These are the quiet friends who interlace the solitude and Merlyn’s good fortune.
            On Merlyn's nearer right is a great bald granite dome. Skirting the granite mountain is a fence of purple heather. Watching his yellow sun rise over such a large and handsome dome of graveyard recognized cemetery head stone is a continual reminder to deadanliving Merlyn that his granite dome is how close the present physical universe lies.
            The southern aspect of his domain lies in a valley of thick oak forest blotched with hazel bushes and stands of birch. Further into southwest of this druid’s domain are two wild apple trees with red melancholy thistles scattered about, both a delight to Merlyn’s heart and mind.
            Merlyn’s private sanctuary to the West, not far from his hut and nearby granite slab on which Merlyn sits, he sees through the slightly camouflage of well-leafed young trees and bushes to the slowly moving narrow river. Merlyn has a one-man tanned leather and stick framed Celtic boat, a curragh, resting on the bank. On the other side of the fishable stream is a stand of tall majestic oak.
            Quite satisfied with his spirit’s projected surroundings, Merlyn glances up beyond the blue and sun to see the faint outline of his basic chess-squared mind-spirit weaving his imagination and reasoning into the design and spiritual reality. It is here that Merlyn flashes his entangled consciousness of presence into the here-and-now of Richard Greystone, younger twin brother of Robert. Merlyn has met all Grandma’s storytelling ghostly Greystone and Bleacher ancestors, some in his lifetime. Such are the connective realities a living person rarely zooms in on. Merlyn calls this interconnection of ancestors soul-threading and in here Grandma Earth is the Needle. This otherworldly connection of Merlyn’s has recently been adapted in real life through examples of Linked In and Facebook. The Dead share but it is of roundabout construction.
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            Glancing at his stage, Merlyn views a fellow spirit appearing beside his stone appearing ruins. "Hello, Merlyn, this is Sophia your friend.”
            Merlyn smiles with pleasure.





The Brothers 3

            The following day Richard walks up the steps and down the hall to Robert’s study.
            “This room is like our old club house,” announces Richard.
            Both laughed, and Robert adds, “We were two of six in that club.”
            Richard adds, “While walking Lady, I picked up the wilted flowers on Mom and Dad’s grave this morning. I thought I’d drop them off here before heading home.”
            Robert noted his place the recent Atlantic Monthly and closed it while saying, “Connie knows Memorial Day is coming up. We’ll put some more on.”
            “I still like walking Lady through the cemetery in the morning.”
            “Just like Papa used to do with his dogs,” smiled Robert. “And, Dad too. I sometimes walked Jack past the mausoleum and down the hill to the river."
            Richie mirrored his smile, “The stones, trees and mowed grass; it was a kiddy park for us.”
            “Fun times,” declared Robert.
            “You know," said Richard, "People still say it's haunted on the west side of the Mausoleum where the old trail leads down to the woods.”
            Robert sighed, “Dad never agreed, but Mom thought it was haunted too. There was an old story about seeing dead people walking. I have a poem about it somewhere."
"Published?"
"It was; some years ago in our own Riverton Historical Society Bulletin."
While finger tapping on both arms of the chair Richard commented, "Mom always believed in ghosts but Dad never."
In a sadder than expected tone, Rob replied, "I don't think Dad ever believed in anything."           
"Not in our lifetime anyway.” Both chuckled. “What are the girls up to?"
"They are getting ready to go shopping."
"Why did I even ask?" moaned Robert.
"I got the car if you want to head over to the book store.”
"The old white church on Worthington-Dublin Road?” suggested Rob.
"Why not, we haven't been over there for a while."
"You know I'm looking for an old copy of Ferlinghetti’s "Coney Island of the Mind".
"When Cyndi and I were in Frisco last year we stopped at Ferlinghetti’s City Lights bookstore. They had a republication his classic Coney Island of the Mind."
Robert comment ranked with caustic tone, "I used to have a signed first edition, but I can't find it.”
"Julie probably borrowed it to show her classes. Her favorite Ferlinghetti is "Coney Island of the Mind # 5". It’s my favorite too."
Rob shook his head in dark surprise, "I can't believe Julie has a popular unit on fifties Beat poetry," he paused, "she didn't have to take my signed copy though."
"She’s your daughter. Give her a call. Do you want to go booking or not?"
Robert mumbled, "Old books and poetry are what have long held in common. Let's go." Getting up Rob smiled while watching his brother heading to the door; “we have long held those Bleacher girls in common too. It was inevitable that we would marry the sisters – one of those things that was meant to be.”
Sitting at the kitchen table Connie and Cyndi are drinking tea with an opened House and Garden and a Money magazine underneath.
            "It is hard to believe the boys just turned seventy," whispered Cyndi.
            "We're not too far behind."
            "They been going to that used bookstore for at least forty years."
            "Was it ever a church in our lifetime?" asked Connie.
            "I suppose it was. It’s the closest the boys will go to step in a church setting; and they always seem to come back with an old book or two."
            "Julie often borrows a select old poetry book or two to show her classes."
            Whispering, Connie for no reason, commented, "Robbie always wanted Julie to go into medicine, to be a surgeon like himself."
            "You wanted her to be a cardiovascular nurse like we were."
            "Julie didn't want to be either," summed Connie. "She always wanted to be a teacher like Richard."
            "Does she still call him Uncle Dickie?" giggled Cyndi, quietly proud of Julie’s choice of careers.
            "That was Robbie's doing." Both laughed. “I used to call him Dickie when we dated.”
            “You were always the cock-teaser," joked Connie; then she abruptly changed the subject, “What kind of countertop do you really want Cyndi?"
            Exasperated, Cyndi snapped, "Richard says he doesn't care. He says that, but he won't like whatever we end up with."
            "They are both stubborn and single-minded. We knew that when we married them. Both burrow into themselves – a linked personality quirk, I suppose."
            “How did we ever decide who was going to marry whom?”
            “I think we flipped for it,” said Cyndi. Both laughed independently, one never knew who was going to stop laughing first – one of the minor   differences between the closest of sisters.





Grandma’s Story 3

           “In this story a girl-child’s heart is born from sheets of ice piled over solid stone depressed by weight. Warmed, the water flow inward, creating a landlocked seacoast with green hills, a place subset between two deep memory faults. I am in view of a young woman consciousness,” Grandma continues, “Qwinta is the girl’s name, and she is standing, staring at a multi-shaded orange tinged maple leaf in her hand. Qwinta stands within heart memory sight of a body of lake water, some eight thousand years after her lifetime on Earth, is identified as Lake Champlain. This ecologically setting is between the heart eastern Canadian provinces and two U.S. states. Today the world understands the orange shading in the maple leaf is caused by a complex of the photosynthesis of carbohydrates using the energy of sunlight not by the color of magic within a suggested thought.

            Eight thousand years ago, Qwinta imagined the orange hue of the beautiful autumn maple leaf to be that of the ghostly kneeling Princess, a royal canoeist, in an artfully orange decorated sun regal dugout. Touching this enchanting and perhaps magical maple leaf Princess Qwinta unknowingly creates the self-imprinting of this inner fantasy  . . .

            The maple wood paddle the Princess is using and I, the Quinta, become as one-in-mind . . . I am the paddle’s head, its grip. I am the head; the shaft-and-paddle-blade become two . . . The royal hand on the grip, my head, becomes one with the drop and swirl movement of the paddle through the water. When the paddle is Princess lifted from the water, a ripple ensues. The ripple is a wave with a reflected orange in the Maple leaf . . . The very spirit of the one whose hand dips like a paddle into the River of the Dead also lifts up and leaves a ripple as it passes from one side of the profound and ethereal current to the other side. The swirling spirit, the sculling spirit also manifests itself into the maple tree reflected water is swirled into this lone maple leaf as the paddle rises . . . I, Qwinta, am a Princess spirit and mind, am the causal connection between the Living and the Dead just as the once decorated tree, the wood paddle and canoe, are the causal connection between the sun, orange and this fallen maple leaf. To doubt this is sensation of being is a truth is to doubt my own existence because to do so I would have to deny that I hold a truth between finger and thumb and I watch as sun touches the leaf to gold before it falls.


Grandma all wonderfully black, full hipped, full busomed, and colorfully costumed in Caribbean Island attire sashays and ripples her own waters by suggesting, “There isn’t a reason on this Earth for people to be touched by Perfection even in fantasy. I dance the physical sciences – matter and spirit each has its own interests which can be observed in Quinta’s ghost.”

Quinta, while once living, is abruptly interrupted by three squawks of a crow then silence like the black eyes of night. Doubt and perfection cannot coexist like the color of sun and leaf. My family has light skin and blue eyes, she ruminates consciously. No one knows why. Some say we are the children of the blue sky and white clouds come to life, but why would that be? In our family tears are not the rain and this is plain to see. Our greater family rule is to avoid contact with outsiders. The sun and moon do not avoid us. They are the outsiders. We have a sun and moon inside, as the Earth has a sun and moon outside. Body and spirit, spirit and body, who sets these rules of rising and setting — of the green leaf and the orange leaf?

Human species, be they marsupial or primate in these books, enjoy imagination and reason. I, Grandma, operate by Necessity and human have the necessity to operate.

 Muddy waters run full and fast
And show a future in this woman's past,

Thus in old Grandma’s waves of rain
A leaf of maple and imagination sprang.

            Long ago, a memory stirs, a spooky thought re-occurs, ‘I, Quinta once a spirit, become a leaf and princess both subset between two faults of unseen consciousness. I am the water the paddle strokes, a reality, not a leaf of orange.





Diplomatic Pouch 3

            It is another pleasant Cleveland day in January. Pyl, Justin and Blake had a lunch of ham and cheese sandwiches each with a side of chips. Getting up from the table Pyl checks the tree-lined backyard for blown small branches and sticks.
            Justin and Blake moved to the couch and chairs in the nearby Bose media room.  Once settled Justin asks, “How is the family company doing?”
            Once Blake adjusts the sound of smooth jazz playing  and sits relaxed, he talks the talk of the CEO of Electronic Communication Software. “You know Dad,” says Blake, “he started in a small empty space that had been a small used book store near the college campus. He took classes at Fenn College, in the early sixties then transferred to Case-Western. We grew up in the three-story off West Fairmount in the Heights.”
            “We drive by every time we come up,” replied Justin. “The old screened porch is still awesome.”
            “Dad had it screened. He reconditioned the old electric fan motors himself. We used it full time in the summer. In the late seventies he thought about building chips for the radar detector business but decided it wasn’t for us.” Both men sat chilling on a long George Benson's guitar piece.
            Pyl strolls in from the back yard. “I love that big old sugar maple, look, it’s January and I found this beautiful orange leaf by the bushes.”
            In a perfectly cadenced tone Blake added, “I'm thinking about cutting that maple down, Pyl. It's old and the highest tree out back. If we get a terrible storm it could come down on the house.”
            Glancing at the rising anger in Pyl’s face, Justin turned up the next piece, a Walter Beasley sax rendition of "Do You Wanna Dance," thinking on how Blake sets the bait and on how Pyl almost always picks up on it.
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            Hartolite mummers, “Do you need a little more action, Yermey? She notes his typical nonverbal smile as his right hand slowly sinks into her silky smooth and toasty warm pouch.
            Yermey words stumble out, "It's been five years since I've had my hand undressing this far down." He muses, whenever the women have big decisions a hot itch comes, and there is not a ThreePlanets man alive who can satisfy it. My right hand rests in Hart’s dreamland and it is one of the very real pleasures in man’s life.
            Friendly’s head moves from his stomach and giggles, "It's been ten years if it's been a day since we’ve seen you in this position." Hartolite echoes the snicker.
            Yermey unslides his hand-in-pouch, abruptly sits up and jumps out of the bed-from-of-the-wall. He grumbles and pulls fresh overalls from the nearby dress chute. He lazily one at a time drops his legs into them, pulls overalls up feeling the cloth methodically unwrinkled and automatically adjusted to his size. A general distain floats like smoke in his mind, 'The women pop us in those pouches when we are tiny crawlers and never let us go. We men grow expecting, at any time, to see a woman’s seductive glance, to be politely and judiciously asked to put a hand-in-a-pouch. His old heart scoffs, ‘Such is our biology.’           
            In such moments Yermey usually turns to philosophizing on ancient ThreePlanets children’s tales. He thinks, ‘I don’t believe the myths of our clergy and their ancient fableizing. Strange, there is such a close species connection of the Concept-of-God and a Fall from Grace. These earthy High-Primates have a similar story. How is that?
            Friendly now fully dressed catches the corner in his eye. She is always upbeat and positive. Hartolite is one good handsomely suited cuddlanbabe. I imagine resting my hand in your pouch almost every night before I go into a deep sleep. We do our life’s series of services-for-the-species, imagining and creating a more comfortable educational and entertaining setting for our community-of-families. We create the safest, most efficient and easily manipulative devices possible for our species’ healthy growth and well-being. We attempt to treat ourselves humanely in our ThreePlanetCommunity; and we will for Earth too, if they can accept such gifts free and without obligation.

            Within the half hour, Hartolite and Captain Friendly come to a mutual conclusion. Friendly declares, “We buy the Williams’ plane tomorrow or leave them two hundred thousand U.S. dollars, and commandeer it. I want done with this. We must create the most efficient and resourceful way to directly contact this High-Primate species. The shock of us will do them well,” concludes Friendly. Yermey smiles and Hartolite’s facial expression makes Friendly quickly ask, “Is it ‘do them well’ or ‘do them good?’”
            Eyes gleaming, Yermey asked, “Who are you two going to be?”
            Responding in a mischievous tone, Hartolite comments, “I’m Hart and she’s Fran.”
            “We’re sisters,” adds Friendly.
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