The May sky is clear but cooler today. You
and Carol were up early, for you about an hour earlier. Arthritis not is not so
bad this morning, but you are conscious of its whereabouts. Culturally, it is
May Day in many countries with respect for the Dead noted. You have not looked
over chapter fourteen yet and don’t really remember what the four segments are
specifically about. Later, dude, when you are more up to considerations.
0835
hours. I do need to go over my verb choices particularly with ‘said’ and
‘thought’ in various forms. They are too overused. I should run off another
draft when this is completed looking for just such words and making
substitutes.
No need to waste paper boy. We can do this
at that time. One of your concerns is just subbing a word for another may be
just as bad as using the same word. It is best to work on this as we go along
but then focus on this specifically once this final round is completed. –
Amorella
A
little before noon local time. You completed your forty minutes of exercises
and don’t feel better or feel worse in terms of joint soreness but you felt
better when you got up. Earlier you did have a half hour nap on the living room
carpet before the exercises. Carol is getting ready for her retired teacher
luncheon at one in Blue Ash. The cats are nowhere to be seen. What do you
think, orndorff, are you ready to edit chapter fourteen? – Amorella
1149
hours. I have it ready to go, but I am not sure where my clipboard is, my red
pen is right on the shelf beside me though. When Carol leaves I will probably
watch “Revolution” as it was on last night. It is interesting but probably
over-extended as a series. We still enjoy our cable. It costs about fifty
dollars more than it’s worth for HD and the box but we don’t go to movies much
anymore. We like what we like. Carol has her favorites – I don’t remember their
names but I punch them in for being recorded every week – I know them when I
see them on ‘record’. Carol has been doing a couple loads of clothes this
morning. I helped a little but not as much as I should. If she would let me use
the washer I would wash my own stuff – I used to do most all the washing and
drying and hanging or folding when Kim was less than four. It was a simple
washer system now it doesn’t have those ‘fins’ coming up in the middle and uses
a lot less water, etc. but I don’t like it. She doesn’t use the settings I
would use and used for years. She says it is not the same kind of washer and
that if it has to be done she wants to do it. It’s easier to let her have her
way. I don’t care that much to argue over it. Most arguments I have we people I
don’t because it is easier to keep my mouth shut – besides it takes a
tremendous amount of energy to argue and if it gets really heated and you need
to vent – what good is that? Most social, political arguments aren’t worth it
to me anymore. People think what they think and defend their thoughts sometimes
to the death. Then they are dead. In a way, the world as a whole is like our
Old West of the nineteenth century and earlier.
Watching
“Mr. Selfridge” last week the boys were going off to the continent to participate
in World War I. What were they thinking? Wars cost a lot of money as well as
lives. Why not spend the money to make things fairer and better and let those
young people live longer lives? It just a pipe dream; but maybe one day wars
will cost too much money and people just will decided not to pay for it in the
usual way. In our country we have a lot of people who don’t want to pay for
anything government-wise. That’s their choice but eventually we will pay for it
anyway because necessities are just that. Okay, I’m done. Wasted energy, wasted
words.
You
watched “Revolution” while eating half a can of baked beans and some crackers
and cheese, after which you received a note from Fritz about meeting for lunch
next Thursday as the class gathering is that evening. You also spent time
editing chapter fourteen and have completed the first two segments. – Amorella
1442
hours. I am somewhat surprised I breezed through the first half. Not much
content change. I did clear up a couple of passages. At least they are better
than they were. Once I begin editing on the screen rather than paper I really
edit once again. It is easier to edit when you don’t remember what it is about
and are basically (re)-reading for the first time. When Carol comes home I
think we are going to the grocery. Maybe she’ll want to read in the park or get
a Graeter’s. Who knows? I am out of my sweats through and ready to go wherever.
I wonder if I should wear socks?
Where does one stop thought writing? –
Amorella
I
was thinking about the temperature then thought about socks. Since I thought it
I decided I should write it down even though it is irrelevant. It only seems
proper to put down my thoughts while I am on the keyboard. That is the basic
objective of this twenty-five year some experiment is it not? This is not
standard textbook-like setting for a writing ‘thought-experiment’ but that is
what this blog is. What else? Almost every time I use ‘What else?’ in this sort
of context I think of Joseph Campbell being interviewed by Bill Moyers.
Campbell used the question once or twice. I admire both men very much. I love
the tone the two set in that PBS piece on mythology. The garage door just came
up. Carol is home. Let’s see what we do. (1458)
You are at Pine Hill Lakes Park waiting for
Carol to complete her walk this cooler and brisk Thursday afternoon. Later,
dude. – Amorella
1733
hours. Surprisingly, I completed the editing on chapter fourteen. A bit of
rearranging and correcting, but nothing drastic; I think I’ll rework some of it
on the fly while I a typing it into Page.
You may not have it completed by tonight.
You should know by now that this is not that type of project. – Amorella
1736
hours. You want me to be ‘humane’ to myself as the legal author of the project.
I hadn’t thought about this. Ha! Not much would get done on this planet if
people similar to myself were in charge. You can’t tell people what to do and
expect them to do it.
Back then I told you what to do and you
gladly did it for free. – Amorella
That
was because, in context of those times and private thoughts, I had no choice if
I was to remain who I am. You effected my spiritual center, if you will. To
remain center I wrote my angry heart out I suppose. Whatever I wrote out and
sent away I no longer have in me. I gave it away. I am thankful I survived
intact, both mentally and spiritually. In fact, if I had rejected the demand I
put on myself, I would not have survived, at least not spiritually.
You write strangely honest sentences for an
agnostic. – Amorella
1745
hours. I think ‘believing’ has little to do with spirituality. Being is what
spirituality is about. I have doubts but one thing I have little doubt about is
the human spirit – the will to be the best one can be, to be a best friend, to
be a friend to all the species and more. Surely if we can develop a friendship
with a pet, we could develop a friendship with another species similar to our
own.
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