Mid-morning.
You and Carol both awoke early awakened by the downpours and thunder. You both
ache from arthritic causes and the weather does not help. – Amorella
0848
hours. We are both tired. She has an appointment just after noon and is
presently working on her email. I am ready for a nap. I’m glad the Target
‘presentation’ is completed. I don’t want to think about all those alphabetic
characters in my head. I assume they are gone, not that they were of any use
except as part time playmates in pre-school days. They were not personalities
of any sophistication. Maybe they weren’t even there at all – just made up on
the spot by a finger and thumb holding a string and washer.
1140
hours. No nap, but the forty minutes of exercises are completed, aching
soreness but no other arthritic problems.
Carol will leave for her appointment
shortly. You brought up old files. Let’s start with your first hypnosis notes.
– Amorella
***
***
Session
One: First week in April. 3:00 to 4:30. 1984. Dr. Paul Payne, Ph.D. at his office at
the University of Cincinnati.
Find a space on the ceiling to look at. You are getting
quieter and into yourself .
Outstretch your arms, you will feel the balloons holding
them up.
Your body fits neatly into the chair.
Each arm is holding a heavy concrete block.
Your fingers are asleep – which hand is first?
Flash: [I see swirling-like raw red meat is going down two
tubes.]
Flash: [I am at a seashore. I am snorkeling underwater. The
water is green. My tongue tastes the saltwater. I can really taste it.]
You don’t really need to hear what I say. Let yourself relax
in your own way and in your own time.
Flash: [An empty globe
effect – my mind is suddenly elsewhere in another universe. This is much
more visual than abstract.]
You are constantly aware and learning. Eyes take away the
tensions in; let them be flowed away. Roll your eyes to the back of your head
then down.
Be ready to come out.
You are beginning to come out.
You are coming out slowly.
You are almost out, ready to open your eyes.
Okay, open your eyes. What is your reaction?
I say, “Interesting. Quite interesting.”- I remember being
amazed – especially with tasting the saltwater when there was no water and no
salt.
***
Back
into it.
[I
am surprised but eager for a quick conformation of the first experience.]
Okay,
you are relaxed.
[Dream-like
flowing colors appear quickly.]
Go
back to an early time. Perhaps to a seashore -- the Middle East -- ancient
buildings -- Greece.
“I
see an old man with a staff.”
What
does he tell you about eating?
[I
think but I no longer see the old man. He says, “Don’t listen to your body.
Your body should not eat.” I am suddenly conscious of other voices inside my
head. The old man says, “Walk. Have good eating habits. They will help protect
your body.”]
***
Okay.
Go back a hallway of memories.
[Doors
are on both sides of the hallway. The hotel-like hallway has a reddish carpet
and dull walls and wall lights like in a movie theatre for vision. I travel
down the hallway two to three feet above the floor. I have eyes but I do not
have a body. I am free floating in a bubble about six inches in diameter. I
move quickly down the hall, very quickly.] I was amazed that I existed and
weighed nothing.
Go
to an early memory and stand outside the door. Think about how old you are. Go
back to ten – eight . . .
“I
am already at three.”
When
you are ready raise a finger.
How
old are you?
I
do not speak. I raise my right hand and show three fingers. (I do not believe I
just did that.) When I was three I did not speak sentences. My parents and
grandparents were worried about me because of this. I would just point and say
words like – “Milk”. That’s what everyone told me later.
Observe
the setting as you open the door.
I
went to open the door but floated through it and the wall on the other side.
[I
was standing on the step landing on the west side of my Grandparents’ home at
103 West Walnut Street in Westerville, Ohio. A lot of people are in the living
room. It must be a party and we are ready to eat as people are heading to the
dining room. Aunt Patsy and Uncle Ernie, Mom and Dad, Grandma and Popo. This
setting is in color and it is as real as I am, movement and all. I think, ‘this
is like real’ then ‘this is real’. All these big people are moving around. Dad
is home from the Army. Both Dad and Uncle Ernie have uniforms on. This is quite
a confusing situation.]
Describe
it.
“We
are getting ready to eat. I feel uneasy. I do not feel good about the
situation.” As I talk my voice sounds quite different. I am shocked by this and
do not continue.
Do
we want to leave?
“No.
It is confusing but I want to stay.”
Okay,
come out and close the door when you are ready.
I
come back.
Okay,
you remember what you want. Keep buried what you don’t want to remember. One,
two, three, four, five.
I
come out thinking: ‘Unbelievable. The mind is so powerful. It is four-twenty in
the afternoon and I am in Dr. Payne’s office and have been so this whole time.
End
of Session One.
*** ***
1314
hours. I remember this as if it were yesterday. On the way home I remember
periodically putting my hand up to my mouth somewhat it shock of the reality of
actually being hypnotized not once but three separate times. Going down to his
office I assumed my stubbornness would prevail and I would not be able to be
hypnotized at all.
Do you not wonder where you were when your
mind appeared to move into another universe – a flash vision of an empty globe
effect, not an empty globe? – Amorella
1320
hours. I hadn’t really thought about it other than it was an example of my absent-mindedness.
I just disappear, that is the pronoun ‘I’ within just disappears. The physical ‘I’
still appears though for all scientific purposes. That is how I see the ‘effect’
of an empty globe in context.
All for now. Post. – Amorella
1324
hours. I find it odd that you would ask about the empty globe effect after all
that in the session.
1513 hours. We ran a couple of errands and have decided on
Papa John’s pizza for supper and one meal tomorrow. I believe I may have
already posted this first session on the blog a year or two ago or at least
parts of it. I should have checked first.
I asked you to do it now as a lead in to
something else. – Amorella
1517
hours. Okay, what is it?
In 1985 you came up with a diagram of sorts to show in your
mind how the one-on-one sharing of souls (friendship) takes place. Take its
picture and add below. – Amorella
1529
hours. I can do that but I doubt it will be readable. Again, this is rather
embarrassing because I am no longer in that place in my head. From time to time
I continue to wonder on how it is that the sharing of souls might happen. The
word I use is metempsychosis. However, the more general meaning of the word is:
** **
Metempsychosis (Greek: μετεμψύχωσις)
is a philosophical term in the Greek language referring to transmigration of
the soul, especially its reincarnation after death. Generally, the term is only
used within the context of Ancient Greek philosophy, but has also been used by
modern philosophers such as Schopenhauer and Kurt Gödel; otherwise, the term
“transmigration” is more appropriate. The word plays a prominent role in James
Joyce’s Ulysses, and is also
associated with Nietzsche. . . .
Selected and edited from – Wikipedia
** **
What this example shows me is that I
made a misinterpretation of the in my use of the ‘sharing of souls’. I should
have known better, and perhaps I did, but I didn’t care and used it anyway
because I could not find another word that might fit my contextual use.
This is another case for poetic license,
boy. – Amorella
You
did go down and clean out the dryer vent. Not much was in the bottom at the
topside of the basement ceiling nor was there much in the bottom of the vent
before it moved up about a foot to be pushed horizontally to the vent out
towards the woods. – Amorella
1637
hours. I’m glad it is okay. This is one less thing to be concerned about.
Place the diagram from 1985 here. – Amorella
Imagined ‘Metempsychosis’ Schematics
Clarify the text on the page. – Amorella
***
Down the Left Margin:
Living Earth Spirits
Probability
Body G
Unconsciousness
Shared Soul
Coincidence
Spirits
Immortal
***
Down the Middle of the Page:
Mind
Waves
Eclipse
Eclipse
Oracle
?
Fate Free Will
?
Vision
The
Wheel
(separates
the physical from the metaphysical)
***
Down the
Right Margin of the Page:
Dead Earth Spirits
Consciousness
Body R
Unconsciousness
Soul Waves
Shared Soul
Messengers Immortal
***
At the Bottom of the Page:
Any rite of unselfish love
Where both parties will it
Consciously or Unconsciously
Will bring about a sharing of souls
23
March 1985 (signed)
rho
***
1713
hours. The above is how I was thinking at the time. I was feeling as if I were in some sort of mystical William Blake world in my head. – rho
This is what is important here “How I Was Thinking”.
The next photo-text is my introduction to Richard on paper. – Post. - Amorella
Late dusk. You have been searching for the page on which I
wrote my introduction to you, it begins: “Hello, this is Romella.” You had it
last night. – Amorella
2115
hours. I cannot find it. I looked in the manila folders I brought the papers up
in last night. I searched in the basement files thinking I left the paper there
but I cannot find it. What’s worse is that it is an original paper from the
notebook. I cannot remember the date but the year 1988. Later you changed your
name to Amorella as in “Little Love”. I am tired of this direction. Those early
days are over. I made mistakes; errors in thinking you may have been an Angel.
I think all those little characters in my head saw me when I recognized they
existed (by using the pendulum). I think they also misinterpreted and thought I
was angelic and somehow I confusingly took up the idea myself that I had ‘seen’
an Angel when it was only another part of myself that I did not consciously
know existed. The mind is after all, extremely powerful in interpreting reality;
no question about that.
Perhaps the paper will turn up. If so, we
will drop a photo-text in the blog. If not, we move on. Learning to know ones
self is not so easy yet it is one of the most important things a human being
can do, at least according to one of your heroes, Socrates. Post. - Amorella
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