25 January 2016

Notes - no calamity / surprised! /

       
      After noon. You are surprised to find you only have Dead Eleven to complete for this chapter. – Amorella

       1301 hours. This allows for a good feeling about the day as far as writing is concerned. I don’t know what happened to provide that twist at the end of Pouch 11 – a bit of unconscious humor I suppose, something to wake up Merlyn. It is one thing to have the Marsupialese dead moving in, quite another to have soul machinery moving in too. I really don’t know where that came from.

       You think this won’t be a calamity? – Amorella

       1306 hours. I don’t know anything about souls. If a soul enters an AI machine I assume it knows what it is doing. I also assume such an AI machine managed to develop a heart first, that is, to go with its mind (to keep a continuity within the story).

       Later. You don’t see this (machinery with a soul) as a problem within the Merlyn books? – Amorella

       1620 hours. No.

       Post. - Amorella


       1720 hours. After a nap and I just re-read Dead 10. I do not remember writing this about the soul.

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TEN
Roundabout Reel

            The Supervisor has a little saying:
                                    Ring-a-ring o'rosies
                                    A pocket full of posies
                                    "A-tishoo! A-tishoo!"
                                    We all fall down!

                                    We rise from clay
                                    On judgment day
                                    Be we dead or still alive.

           

The Dead 10
                     Wing-dancing spritely across leafy forest
                        Feather bright birds sing along in a chorus,
                        Dead trees' gray fingers will leaf out quite soon
                        Under misty full light of magic May Moon.
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            Merlyn lies comfortably as a stone sarcophagus on the top of the granite-like mountain separating him from the Earthling Dead. There is a difference up here in my sanctuary from down by my hut and stream, he thinks. There is a residual effect, an echo of sorts from life that may stay awhile in one or more of the person’s most intimate surroundings. It is a place that most of the Living at one time or another get the tincture of a haunting when the ghostly spirit as it were, is no longer there or perhaps never was there consciously. That’s my observation that has no more validity than I do. Such a lace of humor to drape me this side of the River; a dark humor that forever sparks my humanity to survive beyond physical death. Humor, to my spirit, is everywhere, a delight like a spring valley of fresh flowerings. All one has to do on either side of the River is to observe one’s surroundings. With this, Merlyn flashes above his sleepy stone-like head to the Supervisor’s saying in parchment-woven heartanmind:

                                Ring-a-ring o'rosies
                                    A pocket full of posies
                                    "A-tishoo! A-tishoo!"
                                    We all fall down!

                                    We rise from clay
                                    On judgment day
                                    Be we dead or still alive.

            These are the first words from the other side, and from our Supervisor’s gleaned intelligence, no less. No tunnel or flash of light for me; nothing more than the presence of words hanging in the dark – “We rise from clay, this judgment day.” And, the surrounding dark strangely resounds in a chorus every so quietly, “Be we dead and still alive.” The words haunt as an apparition might flow among the Living – an invisible sheet of an undiscoverable yet understood reality. We are born already dead, that’s how I see it. I do not know the words, the vocabulary to grasp the sense. Life is but a moment where we have need of great calculation. I see this now. Without time, the closet of the open soul speaks:
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            - I, an open soul, am a fully immersed constant observing out three hundred and sixty degrees Up and Down and All Around. I am a poetic breath without the air. Open mouthed, I forage with kindness for a mutually beneficial sustenance searching to shelter an unprotected heartanmind that I might learn more examples of what life is. –
            Turn. Turn. Turn and Turn again.
            - Merlyn’s soul, Foretoken, asks, why are you here?
            - the once open soul, Venerable, answers, to learn. –
            - What else can be digested from Merlyn’s heartanmind? –
             - Venerable replies, a weakness needs shoring up.
            Another Turn sets open and then it is closed for the better.
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            Merlyn grumbles. What is this that moves my soul away from this place to another as another soul flies down to nest – Here. I feel a surrounding movement where there is none. I feel as a chess piece picked up and dropped on an adjacent square. I am the same Druid piece I was and not a Bishop. I appear alone on this Board but I know better. The Supervisor is about. I am who I am – Merlyn a Master Druid and once Scottish Bard. I lie on the top of granite mountain in my own sanctuary. I look down to the Dead and up to the Living. Stone of the Spirit is my architecture. I am a common heartansoulanmind. I am free to defy as are all other human-like spirits. I lie here in balance with Up, Down, and All Around. I am and I am not, both at once.

            Silence.

            Humbly, I exist without being. I have no voice, no sound, no spiritual sense at all other than an invisible crosshair. Being without being. There is no beginning or end to it. Naked consciousness aware. I defy my very self’s center to remember what a Master Druid is.
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            Beware Earthly air, whirling winds deceive
            Beware the claw-ripped Souls of Beltane's Eve.

Selected and edited from “The Dead 10”, Book 2.

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       1727 hours. I would have thought I would have written the above, but I do not. How very odd. I remember the “Beltane’s Eve” poem lines from decades ago; not word for word but they have a familiarity to them. No one could follow this at first reading. I couldn’t. I hear a little of Dante in the tone “Stone of the Spirit is my architecture.” There is no reasonable in this. I am shocked by the content. I am not the “I” who wrote this piece. This is my reaction to it. – rho

       You remain honest despite your comment. Now, do you see a truth, boy? You are in parts still. – Amorella

       1737 hours. I am an 18th century literary neo-classicist and a 19th century literary romanticist – two-toned?

       Right out of your old British Lecture Introductions – what do you think? – Amorella

       1743 hours. It is a relief to not be a secret full blown multiple personality; I can say this for certain.

       Post. - Amorella

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