Notes - working on the bath / spiritual comfort

       Afternoon. You are at the earthen dam at Pine Hill Lakes Park facing east with the windows waiting for Carol to complete her walk around the lakes on the asphalt trail. Today has been a near normal day. You spent time looking at two other places for the bathroom remake – Ohio Tile and Marble (downtown) and Keidel Kitchen and Bath Showcase off Paddock Road near Norwood in Cincinnati. 

        We found our wall tile and have to match it to our new Armstrong flooring and to a piece of our bathroom cabinet and that with our new two sink vanity top (marble or granite). Stopping at Keidel we looked at more tubs and now it is between a Kohler air and a Bain Ultra air tub. Bain is the original air massage tub from Canada (ThermoMasseur with Geysair); I didn’t know anything about it until recently. If we can get it for about five or six hundred more than the Kohler tub it might be worth it, certainly for a positive resale.

       Time for supper and the international news, boy. Later. Post. - Amorella

       Evening. You think about David and the coincidence of his dying on his birthday morning. When you mentioned this at the church funeral service others verbally agreed when you concluded your shared story and comment aloud, “. . . And, passing on his birthday; that’s the David I know.” – Amorella

       2124 hours. This is another example of the ‘wonder’ we witness from time to time in life. There are human connections, invisible to us. ‘Gut’ connections. Intuitive connections. I can easily project David smiling to himself and thinking, ‘Going out this morning is a best timing for someone who can no longer speak. It is a matter of quiet understanding. This is something I can live and die with. This is how I have lived for many years – with quiet understanding and this is a way to share it quietly with my family and friends.’

       You could project this boy because it gives you a way to imagine being there at the moment of his departure. You had a similar experience when you felt Bob pass you by on his way out of this world; and it turns out later, you found it was about the same time he died. Coincidence, but it was a spiritual-like connection and it makes you feel better to think you understood when they left, but only after the fact. Thus, you realize in your reasonable mind, that you created such scenarios in your head for your own comfort, just as you write, still, for your own comfort, your spiritual comfort. Writing is a spiritual journey for you boy. Words are your sacred stone; grammar is the mortar that seals them together. – Amorella

       2138 hours. I don’t know that this is so, Amorella, but if so, I would hope I am climbing a personal set of stairs and not a wall.

       Following your thought, if this were a wall, young man, you would not be open to sharing who and what you are for no other reason than to remain free to be who and what you are to yourself. – Amorella

       2142 hours. I wish to die both an open (honest) and free man, nothing more. – rho

       This is a reason for you to work on your writing form in your own time. For you, in this endeavor – your Merlyn books and this blog, there is time enough until there isn’t. Post. – Amorella

       2145 hours. You find a way to give me personal spiritual comfort, Amorella. I thank you for this. – rho

       You do have spiritual comfort. We both know this. May others rest as well as you in present form. How odd it is that you are still an agnostic at heart and I am still your pretending angel. In here, the world is a strange place, and in here, the spiritual world is also a strange place. Now, post. Tomorrow you and Carol vote for your democratic candidates and return to Cincinnati to further finalize your plans for the master bathroom. - Amorella