Notes - editing and revising for simplicity

       Mid-afternoon. You are sitting under a maple, facing west towards the center of Rose Hill Cemetery. Carol is walking. You had lunch at Penn Station before a short jaunt to Kroger’s for milk. This morning Tim got the yard mowed and he will mow it as needed when you are in Florida. Today you are unsure you want to tackle the Dewdrop Discoveries because when you tried it last night it looked too much like fiction. The reason for this is that you put yourself in charge. You saw firsthand that it was not authentic. Strange as it may seem for you to write with authenticity I must be witness if not directing. This is because the words have to be heartansoulanmind focused; your basic humanity is where the thoughts and words must draw from. Let’s take a look at Dewdrop, page one.

“There’s the rub, boy. You do love G---D. – Amorella

         I will use the Bold Arial Hebrew Scholar font, size 14. You will use Regular Arial Hebrew Scholar font, size 14. - Amorella

       1514 hours. Why? It seems arrogant. I am not Hebrew.

       Tone. This work is for personal spiritual discovery. The key word is not Hebrew it is scholar. – Amorella

       1518 hours. This was unexpected. [stop]

       You are home where you suddenly began re-working (simplifying) Dewdrop. – Amorella

       1618 hours. I did.

       Make copy with the changes. This better represents the necessary tone of the document. Add the revised document here using the Hebrew Scholar font. – Amorella

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THE DEWDROP DISCOVERIES

23 May 2016

         1302 - If I were to say, “I love G---D,” where’s the definition of love?

         There’s the rub, boy. You do love G---D.

         1306 - That is the crux of the matter, isn’t it.

         1734 - How can I, an agnostic, honestly state I love G---D?

         We return to the point in your life where you chose to make a private and personal stand, and then did so by accepting the possibility not the probability of G---D’s existence and acted according to your conscience, to your humanity, to your heartansoulanmind. Over a period of months you were spiritually tested and passed where it counts most in the most, in the spiritual world.

         1818 - I do love G---D, not the concept of God, and I honestly call myself an agnostic at the same time.

         You find it difficult to think on these things without writing your thoughts down.

         I can better accept that it is possible within myself to live better accepting that G---D is, not necessarily that G---D exists.

24 May 2016

         You have been thinking about the meaning of ‘the difference between IS and EXISTING in terms of Greater Reality than the terms Physical’ as a contrast to Spiritual.

         1351 - I feign arrogance here and say the difference (in context) between IS and EXISTING is that we don’t know any better.

         You would like me to help you here, as an imaginary-or-not writing persona, in distinguishing between Timelessness and Time from my perspective.

25 May 2016

         Doug mentioned how sleep might be construed as an alternate reality, and death also as an alternate reality. Hypnosis is also considered an alternate reality.

         1425 - I don’t feel comfortable on this subject.

         Think of this, the tiny hole in a floorboard causes a nail to enter and close it. – Nothing exists then gravity, that’s the analogy. - Amorella

         1621 - How can gravity come from nothing?

         Distortion. – Amorella

         1652 - Nothingness has distortions near its edge?

         2158 - The only thing that a vacuum can hold is consciousness, and if a vacuum contains not-a-thing but rather consciousness (because it is non-material as is the heart and soul) then consciousness [i.e. mind-like] may indeed be timeless.

[Nothing on 26 May]

27 May 2016

         You [Amorella] say, “Nothing exists then gravity, that’s the analogy.”  

28 May 2016

        1539 hours. I am still thinking about how it would be if next to Nothing-at-All there were distortions of gravity waves. I try to imagine a visible even though light would not have been created yet.

        From my perspective, light need never exist. What do you think?

        1543 - I think it would be easier for you to remain consistent. It is difficult to imagine you without a form when obviously, from my perspective, you have a function.

        Humans cannot imagine what they are not (that is, all of physics). Even spiritual aspects (heart and soul) are imagined lightly.

        1725 - I prefer my soul female in form. If I were female I would prefer my soul male in form. I prefer you, Amorella, female. However, what form would you prefer? (I imagine a leaf of grass.)

        A very small drop of natural (unpolluted) water; a dewdrop will do. – Amorella

        1745 - This is a surprise. I would not have thought of something so simple yet so extremely important to life as we know it.

        2112 - What to be; a dewdrop of natural water. I am taken in by the purity of the concept. Tonight on either ABC or NBC News a reference was made to the discovery of Clathrate Ices in Comet 67P.

         2225 - This is becoming an evening of quiet reflection – imagination and contemplation on the understated simplicity of Amorella being as a thoughtful dewdrop.

         Let the thought be as it is, boy. Watch the thought settle in the quiet. No need for imagination and contemplation.

29 May 2016

        Being minimalist is comprehensive enough. Don’t you think, boy?

        0917 - Yes.

        Nouns do not exist.

        0931 - This is my understanding in context.

        Being is.

         2200 - I do not know how to articulate my observation on my morning meditation.

         It is difficult to describe a sensation, metaphysical or otherwise, without nouns, boy. People like to use a natural image such as a lake or stream on a mountain or the seashore or in a forest. A deep sleep does not do either though you have thought that it might, as it is the closest to death that people can go naturally every day. What comes to your mind is that nothing-at-all may appear to be sense as being comfortably encased in a solid. This sounds counterintuitive to you but that is the sense of it – an invisible solid, that when someone would appear to be looking in they wouldn’t see you or a solid – only empty without time or space as a reference. That is what is in your head at the moment.

30 May 2016

         Where you were in your head yesterday was not a place of Freedom, Justice and Peace.

         0936 – The heartansoulanmind complicates life’s decisions.

         Yet, you said that your heartansoulanmind was in Nothing (a solid) and that, in fact, your heartansoulanmind was as a solid metaphysical piece.

         0939 hours. Simply put, that’s the way it was, a conditional place of Freedom, Justice, Peace and it did not enter into the equation.

         0942 - The ‘condition’ was a place of ‘being’, not even capitalized.

         1528 - Off and on, I continue to think on the ‘conditional experience’ yesterday. It was not a hypnotic induced experience. I just appeared in the three-dimensional field, the block of Nothing-at-All. I don’t remember being ‘centered’ in the block either. I was just there within it. It felt three-dimensional because I felt three-dimensional but I was not. It was as a remnant of being three-dimensional.

         1712 - I find my brain events interesting. They stretch a sense of what reality is as far as I am concerned because the experiences are subjectively real enough to pull a perspective that I would not have had otherwise. What I am thinking is that I might use the descriptions in a scene where human souls exist before they accept heartsanminds.

         Pre-lived souls? – Amorella

         1719 - I cannot image a post-lived soul being in such a circumstance.

         You are, as it were, a living soul presently. How would you find yourself again as a pre-soul? – Amorella

         1721 - My soul was pulled into a flashback of ‘before’.

         What about considering your ‘events’ as you see them as plausible nonfiction? – Amorella

         1723 - cannot accept such events as nonfiction. I toy between the metaphysical and the physical, the science.

         2222 - It is always best to assume that I am mostly fiction.

31 May 2016

         You are wondering if there is anything else to come of your ‘nothing brain event’ from the other day.

         1455 - Here is what I remember. I was here then I was nothing and nowhere. I seemed to be in a cube-like form but I was as nothing as nothing was.

         The dewdrop; I like that concept because it stretches from near Nothing out through the entire universe as water in a crystal-like form – very basic, very simple, very cool imagery. That’s it other than it isn’t relevant to reality except as a subjective experience.

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         Post. – Amorella

         1731 hours. The Arial Hebrew font will not work on this blog. From my perspective it is just as well. However, the ‘scholarly’ aspect did help set the tone in editing and revising.

         2244 hours. If nothing else this can be classified as experimental writing.