Notes - Sacks / a right / something valuable

       Dawn. Joe should be here soon to work. Jason is bringing the tile a little later. It is another pleasantly Fall morning. Last night you read another couple of chapters in Hallucinations. The book shows you that other people have far more problems neurologically than you do. – Amorella

       0740 hours. The book does allow me a broader personal level of coping. Actually, there are medical names for the hallucinations that I have had.

       Later, you ought to write them down. Post. - Amorella

       0802 hours. Time to go for my blood test for Dr. Bajaj next week. No breakfast until after. No breakfast no newspaper. I like to have my peanut butter while I read the Comics. 

 1243 hours. I have gone through Oliver Sacks’ Hallucinations (First Vintage Edition, July 2013), to where I am presently, page 199, Chapter Eleven. Accordingly, I have these pages marked for reference by chapter, title and page number: Chapter Five, ‘Illusions of Parkinsonism’: 84, 85, 88; Chapter Eight, ‘The “Sacred” Disease’: 136, 138, 143, 155, 158, 163; and Chapter Ten, ‘Delirious’/[Toxic Psychosis]: 193. These pages contain examples of similar-like hallucinations except for Amorella only one or two others last a year or two. I remember having had in my adult lifetime. 

       Mid-afternoon. You had drinks and Egg McMuffins for lunch to which you added a caramel sundae. Your details on Sacks’ book are fine for now. When you finish the book include the remaining with the above and we’ll put it in one post titled (in part) “Sacks’ and Richard”. You read that Toxic Psychosis is more correct in context than Delirious, which has other connotations. Remember, you saw two psychologists at University of Cincinnati in those days, the clinical hypnosis and the one who dealt with ‘esoteric’ mental diseases. Both men found you fit to continue teaching as you were doing and felt you would not doing anything to harm anyone, including yourself. This is while you were at Indian Hill High School teaching mostly literature and composition to senior college prep and honors students as well as at least one class of sophomore literature and composition, your main stay from 1972 through 1984. – Amorella

       1525 hours. I am still a bit concerned a few people might consider me mentally unstable. 

       Yes, you are, but not enough to stop publishing the EIM blog and working on your books from time to time. – Amorella

       1528 hours. I’m going to write what I think as long as I have the power of life to deal with it. It is my right as an American citizen. 

       Of course it is. Post. - Amorella

       1801 hours. I completed the books and have the rest of the chapters and pages to mark. Chapter Eleven, ‘On the Threshold of Sleep’: 200,208, 212,217, 225; Chapter Thirteen, ‘The Haunted Mind’: 230, 231, 247, 250, 252; Chapter Fourteen, ‘Doppelgangers: Hallucinating Ones Self’: 256, 265, 270; Chapter 15, ‘Phantoms, Shadows and Sensory Ghosts’: 289, 291,292, 293 (the last page of the book, not including the Index).

       You had supper and watched NBC News, earlier Joe and Jason cleaned most of their material from the garage and you did a final bit so the Accord could be put inside for the first time in several weeks. Add this to the day’s blog. Tomorrow we can fill in those page numbers with short example/meaning. – Amorella

       1911 hours. Oliver Sacks’ book is a good example of what is an inclusion to our human nature. I’ve  have read a couple of his other books and I plan to read more because these seemingly abnormalities are not so much as people think. I remember going into Dr. Payne’s office at U.C. in the near mid-eighties for the first time and I sat down in his waiting room. I had never seen a psychologist before and though my focus was to see if hypnosis could help with weight control I had many of these hallucinatory issues riding inside too. The fear at the time is that Dr. Payne would discover them and I would have nowhere left to hide.

       As I sat alone with such thoughts a class bell rang and students began walking by the glass window that separated us – lots of students. I quietly looked around for reassurance (I am in my forties) and realized I was really the only one in the room and these students probably think I’m completely insane. As soon as I met Dr. Payne I openly said what was on my mind. He laughed and half jokingly said, “The crazy people don’t come in here.” This struck me as completely funny and I immediately relaxed and let this kind man try to help me with my weight problem through hypnosis. I thought to myself at the time, ‘I haven’t left the waiting room yet and I have already learned something valuable.’

       Post, my young man. - Amorella