20 October 2016

Notes - obligation of consciousness / word choice / the blind / smile



       Mid-morning. Tis a day dark and dreary . . . you and Carol are awaiting the workers from Alluring Glass to come and install your new shower. – Amorella

       1007 hours. They are supposed to be here within the hour. Once this is completed there are a few small things to be finished, and the additional wall handrail. After that, as Larry says, “We’ll be out of your hair.” On another subject, obviously my Diplomat Preface has to go. The Soki will have to come up with his own introduction, so to speak.

       I’ll do that, boy. Later. Post. - Amorella


       Trent and Logan arrived and are on the preliminaries of installation. You decided to delete ‘The Dewdrop Discoveries’ from Blogger because the concept is no longer relevant. And, heartansoul agrees it is not. - Amorella

       1108 hours. It looks like I had epiphany and didn’t even realize it. This is both settling and unsettling at the same time. Consciousness is interesting.

       So is the unconscious. So is the heartansoul. You have lifted the personal burden of obligation by the nature that put you in the position in the first place. - Amorella

       1118 hours. I thought I was obligated by G---D.

       Where is the free will in that? – Amorella

       1119 hours. I have spent enough time ruminating on that question. It is time to let it go.

       Post. - Amorella


       1127 hours. It seems I was obligated by consciousness.

       By your humanity. – Amorella

       1128 hours. This brings up an interesting question. Can one’s consciousness overreach enough to effect one’s heartansoul? And, the personal answer is: ‘yes, it can and did’.  

       It appears to you as so. – Amorella

       1133 hours. I have intuitively felt that as far as mind and humanity is concerned the mind is the weaker, but it is not the mind itself it is more specifically one’s consciousness and one’s consciousness is or can be stronger than reason. However, this allows for an illusion of heartansoul reacting together when it is actually consciousness (a part of the mind) that is ruling, not one’s heartansoul.

       You are acquiring an understanding that is useful to you personally. Post. - Amorella


       Set up a new document and title it, Soki’s Address. – Amorella

       1152 hours. I will. I thought you would use ‘Introduction’ or ‘Preface’.

       You are not the Soki, I am. – Amorella

       1153 hours. And so officially designated, I digress by stepping away, not by stepping down.

       Good word choice, young man. Post. - Amorella


       You closed your MacAir to consider where you are in relationship to your new book titled, Soki’s Choice. What do you think of the title? – Amorella

       1222 hours. This is out of the blue, Amorella, but I like it. What a change of perspective it makes to me – it is clean and fresh.

       You were ruminating on consciousness and it dawned on you that:

“Consciousness doth not make cowards of us all” – consciousness gave me courage to walk naked within, to silently open heartansoulanmind to a more public view.

       1230 hours. The blind can see, Amorella.

       An arrogant and honest response. – Post. - Amorella

       You had an excellent late lunch for less than twenty dollars at Cracker Barrel this rainy dark afternoon. You have been thinking about my title: Soki’s Choice and it first reminded you of William Styron’s book, Sophie’s Choice. - Amorella

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Sophie's Choice

In the novel Sophie's Choice, by William Styron (Vintage Books, 1976 -- the 1982 movie starred Meryl Streep & Kevin Kline), a Polish woman, Sophie Zawistowska, is arrested by the Nazis and sent to the Auschwitz death camp. On arrival, she is "honored" for not being a Jew by being allowed a choice: One of her children will be spared the gas chamber if she chooses which one. In an agony of indecision, as both children are being taken away, she suddenly does choose. They can take her daughter, who is younger and smaller. Sophie hopes that her older and stronger son will be better able to survive, but she loses track of him and never does learn of his fate. Did she do the right thing? Years later, haunted by the guilt of having chosen between her children, Sophie commits suicide. Should she have felt guilty?

Selected and edited from -- http://www.friesian DOT com/valley/dilemma/s.htm

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       1553 hours. Since Sophie’s Choice is the very first thing I thought of I am going to make the assumption that my unconscious mind saw connection. Perhaps it was simply because the word ‘Choice’ is in both titles. But there is a question that something deeper in the unconscious was moving the bio-machinery about. I did not read the book but I did know about it, probably from a review of the book when it was published. Why did you choose the title Soki’s Choice? (1600)

       I chose the title because it was my choice to do so. – Amorella

       1602 hours. Your response makes me smile so that’s good enough. I like the title for whatever the reason.

       Post. - Amorella

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