12 November 2016

Notes - a clearer mind / not a pretty picture



       Evening. You arrived home after two this afternoon after exiting at Fields-Ertel and having lunch at Potbelly’s. Carol worked on the mail while you took a nap. Tonight you watched a “This Old House Hour” and last Wednesday’s “Designated Survivor”.  – Amorella

       2025 hours. Carol also raked leaves in the back. They will be collected by the city on Tuesday. We ran into smoke from fires coming through the mountains between Knoxville and Jellico in Tennessee. The two days on the road were fine though yesterday was more crowded and hectic than we anticipated. At dusk last night Carol suggested we stay over west of Knoxville and I’m glad we did. I could feel my age creeping up and it was rather upsetting. I pride myself on keeping the pace and coming home in a day; we would have been home about eleven last night but both of us were tired. It was rather nice staying over – this time, again, a Comfort Inn.

       Deep down you like to think it was just the circumstance plus losing an hour of daylight, but not so deep it is the feeling of losing the discipline and desire not to complete the trip from Tampa to home in a single day. – Amorella

       2034 hours. Thanks for clarifying the internal conflict Amorella. (No sarcasm intended. I agree with the call on my frustration). It is rather interesting that you can show and clarify my mental anxieties. It quickly allows me to drop the concerns. I rarely disagree with you calls though it still irritate to be called out.

       Strange, it irritates you to be called out by yourself. – Amorella

       2041 hours. Odd, but yes. Stubbornness, I suppose.

       A clearer mind is a freer mind, same goes for heartansoul. Post. - Amorella

       You were reading a couple of articles in the newest issue of Discover. One, “Nothing Really Matters” by Adam Hadhazy, focuses on a “fifth force theory, a theoretical ‘screening’ mechanism, known as a chameleon field, suppresses the fifth force in the presence of matter”. - Amorella

2206 hours.  In my mind anyway this force shows up where there is a less dense concentration the matter; it shows more energy (a very small amount). With more matter, the less this force is noticed, thus the ‘chameleon field’. In another ‘connected in my mind’ field of observation I would call this the serendipitous field; the place where connections are not seen until after they occur even though they were there beforehand. I am discounting ‘cause and effect’. This might be termed ‘fate’ or ‘destiny’ without the sense of the supernatural. It might not even be ‘known by the stars’ in that sense. A mysterious turn of events appears to happen and it is shadows, sometimes, by ironic humor. So much for my explanation, duh. Why can’t there be a hole without a surrounding of sides? Clarity is not a virtue of mine, but I have an understanding of the concept I am attempting to describe. (2217) – It is surprising how much time this took to think out in my head.

Post, orndorff. – Amorella

2218 hours. The second article is “Meet the Denisovans” by Bridget Alex. This is of interest since I am three percent Denisovans, two percent Neanderthal and ninety-five percent Homo sapiens. The Denisovans had big molars and I have big molars. I am hairy like the Neanderthals and as I age and am more bent in stature I see myself looking more like them in the mirror.

          Clarity is not a pretty picture, boy. Post. - Amorella

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