Notes - a shadow / Velveeta / grammar / no choice

       You had a late but very good lunch at Smashburgers before stopping at Kroger's on Tylersville before coming home. You have had rain all day. Early on you were hoping to get a doctor's appointment for today but it did not happen. You do have one for tomorrow afternoon. Late last night you were rooting through the Internet for new cars out of curiosity for a year or two from now. Paul has been trying to talk you into the Tesla 3 but you are unsure of using one on longer trips. You did discover a new car though that has peaked your interest, the Honda Clarity Plug In that will be out next year. - Amorella

       1643 hours. What I like about what I read is that it is slightly larger than the Accord and gets 45 miles on all electric before the regular hybrid kicks in. It sounds like it could be much like the Avalon size-wise. A full level two charge in two and a half hours. Plus, today we were talking about getting rid of the 05 Honda when we move. One car will be enough. A Toyota dealer is in Delaware and Westerville has Roush Honda. Supposedly the car will get 44 mpg on the regular hybrid route. It is set up much like the Volt which is supposed to be its competition but the Volt gets 53 miles on pure electric rather than 45. We'll have to wait and see. I really didn't know the Clarity was going to have an all-electric and plug in, I thought it was hydrogen only in California. Turns out that the plug in is the only one that will be available nationwide. In some ways it will be nice having only one car and we love the Avalon hybrid, so it's not like we want to get rid of it any time soon. Mom and Dad went to one car, Carol's parents only had and needed one car even when he was working in Washington. We didn't have any when we were in Brazil and we only rented when Craig, Alta and Jim came down. No need otherwise. Taxi or bus was just fine in Sao Paulo or Rio. I am not pumped to buying a car now but it's nice to think on. I suppose I'll have to get "Motor Trend" one more year or two and use the library for the other auto magazines. I think the plug in will be the best for us. No problems around the state of Ohio with the plug in and no problems on longer trips like to Atlanta, Tampa and Tucson. In a year or two there ought to be more automatic driving if needed, at least a full level 3 and partial 4 for auto-drive. (1702)

       Good to see you still have a spark for an old passion for cars and driving places. - Amorella

       1704 hours. What will be really nice is having a two car garage holding only one car. I'm sure I'll go for the 220 volt in the garage when it comes time to add. Forty-five miles on all electric sounds pretty cool to me. We could go 45 miles in the morning, charge the car at lunch, and go out again in the late afternoon/evening and never touch the fuel tank. Most awesome and cool.

       Post orndorff.

       1710 hours. You know I may not be around when the house is done or when we look for a new car but I will have thought about how it would be if I were. That's good, it's good to live in a positive oriented dream during end of life times no matter how long they are. Whenever I go out of here it's with no complaints, life is good when it is and sometimes bad when it isn't. I don't take it personal. 

       Typical deep orndorff intimate-thought-construction -- "life is nothing personal". Oddly, you are sincere into heartansoulanmind - Amorella

       
      1721 hours. It is rather weird. It is like I am a shadow of who I am and who I am both at once. 

       Time for bed even though it is early. Nothing really accomplished today. At least you'll see the doctor tomorrow afternoon. A smattering of sharp pains around the hips tonight, especially the left one. You had a catchall supper that has skipped your memory. you both watched ABC and NBC News and last night's "NCIS.LA" and "Madam Secretary". - Amorella

       2120 hours. I had half a wheat bagel with Velveeta cheese on top, Ruffles chips and a cold can of Coke Zero.

       Post. - Amorella

       2129 hours. "I don't take it personal," is not correct grammatically. I know better but didn't catch it. "I don't take it personally," is correct. It is an 'adverb' modifying 'do take' the verb. "I don't take life personally," is a true statement as far as I can tell. 

       I agree, orndorff. In a circumstance such as the one you are finding yourself in the moment, it is true, you don't take life personally. Is this concept a matter of immaturity or is it a matter of personal growth? - Amorella

       2138 hours. I have never thought such a question before, at least not that I remember.

       Not in this context I assure you. - Amorella

       2140 hours. Once, many years ago, I gave up the world. I let it go psychologically as part of a spiritual struggle. I gave it up.

       You did, heartansoulanmind at the time. Perhaps the giving it up is still in there as it was a spiritual promise to yourself. - Amorella

                                

       2143 hours. That's doubtful, Amorella. I still have anger, I think for being here in the first place. I should have died in my first week of life.

       So, living ever since is a regret? - Amorella

       2146 hours. No, it is not a regret, but I had no choice.

       Now, there's the rub. You had no choice. Something to consider while you are living and breathing, don't you think? Post. - Amorella