Notes - senior moment % / is that the point? / a friend's voice

         I did a silly thing yesterday, noting my new blog introduction on my Facebook page, public too, no less. I don’t really want more readers as it makes me uncomfortable. Carol has an early retired teachers’ luncheon at Rookwood Commons today so she is busy already and it is hardly mid-morning. I have exercises to do but laziness has set in. Also, I appear to be losing interest in writing The Rebellion as I do not see its connection the newly found thesis. I don’t see the connection to the self-published books either. And, yesterday Carol said I don’t pay as much attention to my surroundings as I should. A car was waiting for me to cross in the parking lot while I was deciding which foot to start walking with. My concern was my stability while walking in my really comfortable old ‘earth’ shoes. I didn’t want to fall. I almost fell earlier while walking up the steps. I brushed the cat who was near my feet – poor thing I almost scared her to death. It was one of those ‘senior moment’ days. %

         You need to put a marker on this, orndorff, for yourself any time this sort of event happens. Now is as good a time as any. Use a percent sign so you can easily find it in computer searching your notes. Post. - Amorella

         Early mid-afternoon. You had a peanut butter and raisin sandwich for lunch and some chips while watching an Australian psychological thriller type film on Sundance. Carol is not home from her luncheon yet so it is you and the cat hanging out upstairs where you have the best large window view of the north woods along Muddy Creek.

         A narrow but dense spring woods is a blessing to me. The leaves are grown full, at least most of them. Not a visual hint of State Route 42 and south Mason downtown not more than three hundred yards of valley and rise away.

         Below is the new introduction from yesterday so I more easily read it without climbing online. The bold print is for my focus.

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This blog was created on 15 August 2009, and has become the notes and drafting of my fourth novel in the Merlyn’s Mind series, "The Rebellion". The central theme focuses on the basic spiritual aspects of being human in the 21st century. This blog and said books are an attempt to build a personal fulcrum on which to balance the heartansoulanmind for the better contentment of the human spirit. [Richard is sharing this at my insistence. – Amorella]

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         I cannot help but think of the construction of my Master’s Thesis earned at Bowling Green State University in the Spring of 1970. In this case I don’t really know what a “personal fulcrum” is plus I am working on balancing my heartansoulanmind for the better contentment of myself specifically, not the human spirit generally. If I do not have my heartansoulanmind ‘together’ as it were I cannot expect to balance them on this “fulcrum”. Plus, how can I go on without better understanding how this ‘comes together’? I feel like that once the six books are completed I will have to redo everything – it that is the case I’ll condense it all to one book if I am going to be done with all this before I’m dead, something I consider at present to be highly unlikely.

         You thought about condensing before but you could not do it.

         I have a question. Is the better contentment of the human spirit before physical death or after?

         First, you should realize “contentment” exists in this posting’s context because your muse asked you if you were content at the department retirement party she had set up. – Amorella

         I thought as much. The retirement party was on Laney’s birthday 2003. We sat across from one another at the center of the long table at a now defunct pub called ‘The Broken Nail’ (I think) on SR 42 in Pisgah. She looked at me and said, “Are you content?” I will never forget that moment because the question went from my ears directly into my heartansoulanmind. I like to imagine that when my heartansoulanmind are in ‘balance’ I will then be content. Oh, that is the point?

         Post. - Amorella

         After twenty-one hundred hours. You have come to a realization. – Amorella

         All these Merlyn works were triggered by Laney’s voice and her three words at the table. -- What a friend's simply sincere voice can do.

         This is something you need to think more deeply about – the human voice and its possible affect on a heartansoulanmind. You need no more proof than what you have witnessed for yourself. Post. - Amorella