18 July 2013

Notes - The Dead 20 completed / surprised / souls and free will


         Mid-afternoon. Carol is taking a nap. Let's go to Dead 20. - Amorella

         1559 hours. Surprisingly to me, I have completed The Dead 20; at least it seems so for now. I like Merlyn and Bracc don't know how it is, but then I suppose that is the authenticity rolling about. I will have to see how this works once the book is complete.

         What a turn-about. You are accepting Dead 20 as is without my okay? - Amorella

         For now.

         Good enough, Add and post. - Amorella        

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The Dead 20 ©2013, rho. draft for GMG

            Merlyn awoke standing amongst the white foxglove and red poppy just east of the stage ruins. His eyes focused first on his mind's pillar, the giant Oak and on to the boulder and beyond to his hut. His eyes slowly moved to beyond the hut, the heather, the narrow woods and they rested on six tall blades of grass by the river. Six, he thought.
            A billiard table rose from a short muscled contraction in a long fingered hypnotic oak root pointing his way. In a brief uncommon blink the oak tabletop stood beside; felted green from side to side to side to side. Empty it is, concluded Merlyn, but for a solid green ball number 6 directly in front of the far left corner pocket. With no cue ball present his curiosity swept onto the flat green and he merging lightning quick curiosity rose on the far cue spot as a solid yellow 1 ball, equally sized and equally weighted with the nearby solid green.
            I am drawn into the 1 ball on the far cue spot. I must have scratched the cue ball but it doesn't appear pocketed. I am open-minded and ready for almost anything but losing my Vivian to her dusty bones in the material world.
            "You have only my soul to hold onto, Merlyn," coached Vivian from afar.
            "The soul is a mystery," he grumbled. "I have only heart and mind to grasp you with."
            "Not enough to hold in reason alone," set the soft leather tip to kiss the yellow to move leisurely towards the green 6. Close enough for a conversation on the elementary rules between two unlike souls closeting to fellow Druids heartsanminds. "I am the one, Merlyn. Who might you be?"
            "Bracc's ancient ghost, cornered, green with envy, and ready for the pocket."
            "The cue's been scratched."
            "I am stuck still, and in all honesty embarrassed I died in a resort of trickery, to convince the base, the living, that I could speak to the Dead."
            "But you are the Dead speaking in this, my fabled mind, Bracc."
            "Such is your flat humor of last resort. Alas, I am done in."
            "You are on not in Bracc. There is no trickery here."
            "I am but a poor soul caught, trapped, holed up by a pocket."
            Merlyn quick-wittedly remarked, "The economics of the soul have nothing to do with pockets of poverty, I assure you my fellow Druid. You need to turn about like those other once racked fellows similarly endowed round. The green is but a painting, man."
            Bracc responded, "As is your yellow, Merlyn."
            Merlyn shifted his thought, "Two solids and a scratched cue, do you see meaning in it?"
            "My wonder is why I am here at all."
            "I dreamt you; rather Grandma brought you up."
            "As a lesson?"
            "I thought so, but you are here as a cross-segmentation in dreamland."
            "The faeries have captured us both?"
            "No faeries, here, Bracc, unless you find faeryland in your soul."
            "They are in me mind and heart but not me soul."
            "How do you know this?" asked Merlyn in surprise.
            "Because faeries came about after creation not before," replied Bracc earnestly. "Tricks came after."
            I thought hearts did the traveling, surmised Merlyn. There is more to a soul than armor. "What do you know of the soul, Bracc?"
            Merlyn is asking a once-misguided Druid about the soul?  How can this be? "I know it is lonely, Merlyn," rolled from heartanmind. "I do not know this, I know next to nothing, Merlyn."
            "Whose voice was it then?"
            "My own. I know it is not from heartanmind, and that is as honest an answer as I can give." Bracc paused. "I have learned to be an honest man since my capture."
            "Who captured you?"
            "I do not know. I found myself in a sealed solid walled place. It had a door."
            "Did you not try it?"
            "Not for several thousand years I reckoned, but when I did it opened and I was freed. I do not know who held me or freed me, but it happened just as speaking to you has happened. Avalon is an enchanted place just like the living said. I have learned that also. I am learning many things even now."
            "Your heartanmind is learning?" asked Merlyn.
            "I would say the soul teaches. That is how it seems but I do not know this."
            Even the Dead don't have the words, thought Merlyn. I have learned something too.

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        1602 hours. It would seem easier to go ahead and complete Dead 21 while this is fresh in mind.

         Merlyn does not dream in that fashion. To him each segment is one of the four cardinal corners. - Amorella

         I did not realize that. The Dead then represents the North; The Brothers East; Grandma's Stories South and Diplomatic Pouch West. This makes sense from a druid's or a shaman's thinking.

         This is not the four classical Cardinal Directions. Merlyn lived in a time when he became spiritually torn between Druidism and Christianity. He has learned to accept parts of each just as many Christians accept the Old and New Testaments. This was Merlyn's thinking in this fiction. These are his dreams so let's put them in a modified order; touching the forehead is the North; the middle of the breast is the South; the left shoulder is the West and the right shoulder is the East. - Amorella

         Why would he switch from west to east?

         This is because Merlyn faces North to the North Star, thus South next; and West first because the Son rises in the East. In this case The Dead are star-ward; The Brothers are below the stars, Grandma's Stories are in the setting Sun and the Diplomatic Pouch, the future, rises from the sun in the East. This is Merlyn's way in his stories. Do you have a problem with this? - Amorella

         No. It sounds plausible enough. I have read enough of transitions from one religion to another in history. As he has not changed over the hundreds of Earth years I assume he has accepted that this is who he is.

         That is how it is in here. Indeed, Merlyn has accepted himself for who he is not who he may represents to others. This is shown in Dead 20 when he does not see himself as the great and wonderful Merlyn as others might see him, but just a normal man who has questions, not many answers, and who is willing to learn from anyone who has information and experience to impart. This is as the Dead learn to do because this is learning from the soul's direction, at least in these books. Post. Amorella

         1640 hours. This whole posting is quite unexpected. I don't know why I should be surprised at that but I am. - rho  

         Dusk. You had shut your MacAir down for the night but as you were going up the stairs you thought about Doug's note today in which he talked about wrestling with the concept of free will and he wondered on your thoughts. This reminded you of your favorite quotation when it comes to free will:
  
"We have to believe in free will. We've got no choice.”

         This brought up the Brothers 20 segment and you are wondering. - Amorella

         2103 hours. I don't know what it is about but I assume it is about the soul as was Dead 20 which means free will cannot be brought into the picture. I understand this, so now I backtrack on the idea of its inclusion.

         What about the soul's concept of free will? _ Amorella

         Why would the soul have such a concept?

         Why would Milton give the concept to angels and not to souls? - Amorella

         I don't know.

         Free will with angels has been done more than once. Why not have Robert and Richard leading such a discussion? - Amorella

         I have never thought about souls and free will in my life. It doesn't even make sense that souls would have free will. What would they choose?

         Choosing which heartanmind to nibble on for one. - Amorella

         What about the exchanging of souls concept, could the souls choose rather than the affected two heartsansouls?

         Why not? You can imagine two lovers who might get jerked around by this development. - Amorella

         That would show that free will does not always exist when it comes to the emotion of love.

         This would show that free will does not always exist when it comes to any overriding emotional circumstance. - Amorella

         So, can we say free will does not always flow, that like quantized time there are times when it does not exist, when time does not exist?

         Why not? People feel that once in Heaven or Hell or Neither time cease to exist. If that is the case then time can cease to exist in the universe too. In these books actually it does because both are reality. People cease to exist in body form but exist in spiritual form. Time exists and appears to cease to exist. - Amorella

         Can a soul be quantified like time?

         What do you think, orndorff? Can it? - Amorella

         I don't know. I have never thought this question before. Okay, I see a soul as a container and sharp like a knife but now I see it as water or air in that it has a characteristic of flowing like time and water or stop start flowing. Where does time go when it isn't here?

         Where do you go? - Amorella

         That's funny, Amorella. You are messing with my head.

         No, I am working your heartanmind while your soul takes the backseat.

         Indifferently, I imagine a soul to have an existential indifference about it.

         Then why would it care which heartanmind it nibbles on? - Amorella

         I don't know. (2130)

         Post. - Amorella


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