Notes - it leaves me

         2200 hours. It has been a busy day. We are at Kim and Paul's. The boys are asleep, Carol is reading in the bedroom and K and P are on the couch watching a dance program on TV and I am sitting in my favorite chair (here) with my feet propped up listening to CBS Radio - 'New Age' online so I am not disrupted by the television.

         You are really quite humbled, boy, by the design for Kim and Paul's new house  (if they go through the contract). The design has a private bathroom and an upgraded bedroom (actually, a guest room) off the first floor via a hallway. They said it is for us whenever we want to use it and for us when we don't want to live alone anymore. You joke around about it but deep down you think, "how kind of you to think of us in such a demonstrative way". - Amorella

         I like to joke about it, and they haven't signed to build the house quite yet (but soon, as they will have one of two lots to build on in their preferred subdivision). It will be their guest room after all. We do not consider ourselves 'old aged' yet, but eventually --. We are blessed having such a daughter and son-in-law that are willing to take us in when the time comes. It is an added sense of security, an insurance of sorts, that family is as important to them as it is to us.

         You think, what if the world could be constructed so that 'family' would mean Homo sapiens first. Not brothers or sisters or cousins, just family, where everyone works for the family's common good, for everyone's common good, beginning with health and education and continual 'growth' for their lives. Security and health and lifelong education and work as service to our fellows as well as to the planet as well as the moon and Mars. To serve the young and the old and ourselves. Work is to cultivate our own genetic garden amongst our home planet and perhaps one other and/or moons and/or asteroid colonies.

          In the Merlyn stories the secret of the Holy Grail is found to be: "To serve the young and others so that you might also be served and cared for when necessary and when in older age."

         Those are not the exact words, but that is the intent. "We serve our children so that they in turn will serve us." This is the way your children think by their intent. This is why you are so deeply struck by their words. You cannot formulate this feeling but it rolls deep, sloshing, if you will, about the heartansoulanmind; that which you hope you can take with you beyond physical death. Is this so, as I write it? - Amorella

         It is, and it leaves me feeling strangely naked.

         Post, boy. There is no pornography here. - Amorella