Note - relief / renewed anger / soul images (fictional)

         After noon local time. You had breakfast, napped, did your forty minutes of exercises while Carol was walking at the community center, had a long soaking bath for the arthritis, checked your email and wrote a note to Doug on how it is being an agnostic. – Amorella

         1227 hours. At least I am not arrogant about my agnostics.

         No, you are not. Here is your present internal debate structured. As you mentioned to Doug, you consider yourself a Unitarian as far as culturally accepted religions go, but early beliefs from the standard Presbyterianism of the forties and early fifties set like granite because you cannot completely dismiss aspects of any of the major world religions. Why, because you have doubts. You are not spiritually arrogant because you are agnostic. This has a sense of reason behind/within it; therefore it is acceptable as a point of view. Relax. Post. - Amorella

       Thank you, Amorella. for clearing this up. You provide me with spiritual relief.

       Moving towards mid-afternoon. At Carol’s suggestion you had lunch at Piada Street Italian on Mason-Montgomery Road and stopped at Kroger’s on the way home. – Amorella

         1420 hours. I have been considering the concept in Dead Ten that opened or closed the soul is at its primordial point as far as the books are concerned.

         Fundamental point is more apt, orndorff. As such the soul is constructed open, as it were, to receive a heartanmind. – Amorella

         1425 hours. In my brightest days I would have never considered such a minute operation. This sets up precedence that from before the beginning of physics, metaphysical construction was set at least to me this appears the case.

         Your basic Presbyterianism is raising a green flag of Predestination here, is it not? – Amorella

         1432 hours. This is how I see it.

         I see it as a prerequisite to an evolutionary possibility in these books. We are talking ‘reasoned human imagination’ here not G---D. - Amorella

         1446 hours. I agree. My concern is based on arrogance; it always has been.

         The difference is that, early on, you did not realize this consciously. – Amorella

         1451 hours. A memory pops up – back in 1985 during my first year teaching at Mason, the rumor going around was, that when I had a chance to talk about Dante’s Inferno in American literature, I did partially through a basic imaged outline of the nine circles of Hell because there was a poem in American literature (I forget which) that made reference to it. Within a week or two, word came to the principal that I was teaching devil worship. When I was called to the office and told of this rumor I could hardly believe it. I denied it forthwith and said that I saw this as a good way to broaden their sense of classical literature, the Western Canon. The rumor festered until it was time to rehire at the end of the year (I did not yet have tenure as I had at Indian Hill.) One of the board members was taught at I.H. by Mr. Bill Kincaid, a dear and well respected colleague of mine who has since passed on. The board member called him and he vouched for me. I was rehired and given tenure at the end of the second year. I will never forget this. I later discovered that some people in the community had checked with the public library to see what kind of books and their titles that I had checked out over the years while living in Mason before I taught at Mason. No proof, but I’m sure someone tried to check on the books I borrowed. I suppose this event is one of the reasons for this blog in the first place. I don’t mind if people know what I have read in my lifetime. I don’t mind if people can read my notes. The books have never sold so much to be controversial and I don’t mind that either, but I’m an open book as far as these books and blog are concerned. And, before these I had the notes of the first books delivered in a timely fashion to my several kind readers whom I listed in those books. (1514)

         Your anger, shock and disbelief still show, boy. – Amorella

         1517 hours. I would like to live in a more honest world Amorella, not a perfect one.

         Everyone has their wishes. Take a break. Post. - Amorella

        You want to describe an open soul so that you have an in-book definition for your own clarification. – Amorella

         1632 hours. Yes. But I do not know this is possible with words. I am thinking of when I had the mystical experience of dancing with an Angel of G---D, not knowing at the time of course, that this was your doing, or so you said.

         You were in several places at once, or so it seemed. The image to evoke this – an ancient image in your displacement – you were as having four faces, each facing a primary direction. – Amorella

         I don’t like your description but it is true that is the experience, a part of it anyway. In some ways it was as the directions were within me, this was the immediate feeling. Time did not exist; it was though time was not absorbed within the inner sight. The Angelic Presence was felt and understood. I have tried to use an aspect of this in Grandma’s Chinese dragon setting story.

         I did not have a body but I had a point of focus – one-dimensional or two at the most. I felt a depth from the sight like I was as radar-like machine understanding distance; however, oddly, while looking north to south and south to north and east to west and west to east at once I did not exist. This was an interesting experience (to say the least) and it allows me to better appreciate how we function in ‘normal’ reality. In some ways the experience is verifiable similar to what others appear experience in near death experiences.

         ‘Verifiable’ is not the correct word here, boy. – Amorella

         1822 hours. Thank you, Amorella. I want to do a definition of an open soul but I need a break.

         Post. - Amorella

         Let’s do something unusual. Let’s have open soul (never capitalize) give heranhis perspective. – Amorella

         2008 hours. open soul waiting? What does an open soul do? Is sheanhe conscious of ‘being’? 

         HeranHis is not entertained as yet, open soul is aware of ‘being’ much as I, the Amorella am aware. This is not consciousness. We will leave that to the Living and once-Living. – Amorella

         2013 hours. The fictional open soul ‘observes/understands’ much as I did in a mystical trance – as four faces.

         No. Six faces – Up, Down, North, South, East and West. – Amorella

         2016 hours. Sounds like we are talking about sub-atomic quarks here. The six faces have no self-awareness other then ‘a singular ‘being’ (in existence – metaphysically and physically at once).

         Let’s have that my ‘standard’ for this writing exercise. - Amorella

         2022 hours. What does open soul realize about a Betweener such as yourself?

         A bump in the night. – Amorella

         2025 hours. This is a lot to take in and consider. I have to acclimate to these experiences to be as a ‘bump in the night’.

         I, the Amorella, am as a bump in the night. The open soul is as a fish’s mouth to me. – Amorella

         2029 hours. Is there a web image I can use as a prop?

         Here are three (below) to choose from. - Amorella

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         2043 hours. Three open soul 'mouths' to choose from -- just the mouths themselves not that which surrounds the mouths in the images.

         My perspective not yours. – Amorella

         2044 hours. I cannot help but thinking about the ‘nibbling’ on the end of the line with the fingers dangling a string with a washer on the end.

         It’s all from your mind, boy. What do you expect? – Amorella

         2046 hours. I am ready to quit for the night.

         Sign top with ‘soul image’. – Post. Amorella