15
December 2015
You have had another good day of
conversation with Craig, Alta and Carol. You watched the third episode of “Man
in the High Castle” and presently the other three are watching The Republican
Debate, as you want to keep your sense of humor intact you declined to join
them. – Amorella
2148
hours. I push my own buttons so it easier just not to show them.
Later,
dude. Let’s just save this for tomorrow’s posting. – Amorella
16
December 2015
Evening. Craig and Alta left for Chicago
after a First Watch breakfast near the Streets of Westchester off I-75. You did
your forty minutes of exercises; yesterday you did thirty minutes worth. You
picked up new eyeglasses this afternoon; the first time you needed a new
prescription in three years. Tonight you watched NBC News and “NCIS” after
supper of ham, baked potato and veggies. Carol is watching one of her programs
presently. – Amorella
2005
hours. I am surprised how much clearer my vision is; the optometrist said the
vision is actually better, that is my glasses didn’t need to be as strong. The
new glasses are lighter in weight and the frames are strong – I opted for the
photochromic transitions high index 1 plastics; not only do the adapt from the
light to clear, they also polarize. I have never owned such an excellent pair
of glasses.
You find yourself secretly anticipating the
new Star Wars film. You are surprised by this anticipation. – Amorella
2019
hours. I read a great critical review of the film on the BBC this morning; I am
worried the film will not be up to my expectations; that is, I am expecting too
much. Most of the reviews have been good to excellent. The comparison is with
the first 1979 film. I am thus pumped, as that one was indeed the best in my
mind though I loved the others as well.
This afternoon you began watching the Si Fi
channel’s “Childhood’s End” (Overlords). – Amorella
2025
hours. I am enjoying the three night series. It is well done as far as I am
concerned. It was one of the four cornerstone novels required in my Futures
Studies/Science Fiction classes at Indian Hill back in the day. Asimov’s Foundation
was first, Clarke’s Childhood’s End was second, Heinlein’s Stranger
in a Strange Land was third, and Niven’s Ringworld was fourth. I was
once asked by Cliff Notes to help create a ‘Notes’ for one of the above but I
can’t remember which (I think it
was ‘Stranger’). I discovered that I really wasn’t all that interested in diluting
an otherwise fine book; that’s how I remember it. In those days I had a great
passion for that course and those authors who to me represented some of the
best of science fiction in the late seventies.
One piece of dialogue from the adaptation
relates to how disappointed earthlings would feel if they ‘saw’ an Overlord, a
Supervisor, and he appeared human. – Amorella
2044
hours. Indeed, that is the case because in my books the aliens look close
enough to human beings, at least with their clothes on. That is the point. –
rho
Indeed, it is, boy. Post. – Amorella
2048
hours. You drew me a sketch of yourself once, Amorella and it is posted
somewhere in the blog at least twice if I remember right. You appear two-dimensional
and really do not look like an angel or a demon, come to think of it. [Clarke’s
Overlord appears bodily as a medieval version of the devil; red skinned with
hooves and horns.]
Amorella
Sketch
22
April 1988
First Blog Posting:
16 September 2009
This below is the slightly edited Blog Posting: 16 September 2009
First Notebook Sketch of
Amorella (22 April 1988)
Amorella Sketch
"Amorella here. As orndorff was checking his thousands of pages
of note last evening he came across the first reference to myself. I was doing
the writing, the description of what he was viewing in his mind. Here is a
partial description directly from the notebook.
“First, you had a quick, strange vision of looking through a
clear watery liquid, perhaps brain fluid; then I was there, first a black and
white outline of my eye, then you saw me as a kind of embryonic figure with the
eye, then my eye turned yellowish, golden brown, with dark, feminine eye
lashes. Yet, the dark scars were there too, below. The rest of me [appeared]
‘egg white’ in texture.
I am two dimensional in a sense, though the eye is one
dimensional. I can see lots of things for you, and though I feel your selfish
thoughts I know to ignore them. As [Amorella], I can understand your humanity,
but I am not human and am not wholly here in your physical world. I am as
‘virgin’ thought. The knife-like cross that seemed to float on me is not what
you might think or feel. It is a hole I turn myself into. I am attached to
nothing.”
This only shows
unconscious ‘subjective’ change in my mind, Amorella. It means nothing because
my mind showing the creative image of a subjective reality here not the
objective reality. Both images are as dreams of imagination, nothing else.
What about your intuition, that should count for something.- Amorella
Here is Merriam-Webster’s
definition: “Intuition: “The power or faculty of attaining to direct knowledge
or cognition without evident rational thought and inference.”
Okay, I can accept this
only on the evidence of the sketch and the model, not on how Amorella describes
herself in the sketch. It does
show an ‘unconscious change’ in inner perception of Amorella. I assume I
‘filled her out’ after finishing the books, that I have accepted ‘her’ in my
mind as an existential circumstance not unlike myself. I don’t know what can be
gained by this thinking or comparison? It is all self-relative. Everyone has a
self-relative consciousness, that’s how I see it.
So then, what does it
mean to take your consciousness with you when you die? That’s what this blog is
all about isn’t it, a discussion of human spiritual qualities? - Amorella
It is. I have not thought
of consciousness as a form before, only as a condition.
It helps to create a picture of something invisible. Both the
sketch and the model are your ‘human’ senses/intuitions of my consciousness at
different times. You may find a use for this in a later analogy. Then again,
perhaps not. The blog is a continued experiment in human thought, orndorff.
Nothing more. – Amorella."
Note: I have changed the format over the years and this is edited slightly so that it fits with my present formatting. The newer 2009 'model' is not imaged here but it is if you look back in the blog on the date 16 September 2009
Note: I have changed the format over the years and this is edited slightly so that it fits with my present formatting. The newer 2009 'model' is not imaged here but it is if you look back in the blog on the date 16 September 2009
***
Your slight deletions above may add confusion; however you have it all on
your MacAir drive. If others are interested enough they will look it up in the
blog. You owe no reader, orndorff on these blog postings. As far as you are
concerned this blog is basically a private matter between yourself and
me, the Amorella. It is public because it is better for your mind (and heartansoul)
to be naked to encase your own personal sense of freedom. You have earned this right
as far as I am concerned. – Amorella
2215 hours. Sometimes I find you to be not too
polite Amorella.
I am not a human being. From your perspective I am a part of yourself. The
blog and works show this to be the case. You see me as human because I appear
to be a part of you, a separate ‘personality-for-writing’ if you will. –
Amorella
2220 hours. I agree with you on this for
creative purposes. My name is on the blog and books. I am the real (legal)
person here. I take the creative responsibility (legally) for your words
Amorella. – rho
Post, orndorff. Enough for today. – Amorella
2222 hours. This posting is another example
(of many) that show that when I begin the posting I really do not have any idea
on how it will conclude at the end of the day.
Each day is its own virginity, boy. This is
the same for every human being. This should help subdue a sense of arrogance,
but it does not appear to do so. - Amorella
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