Early afternoon. You change the wording and
deleted an extemporaneous paragraph ranting about the meanings of ‘confession’
from yesterday’s blog because you spent part of the morning reading definitions
of confession and none fit your particular context. Words can be a great
challenge for you and more so as you write your thoughts down. You are forced
to think. – Amorella
1253
hours. Words have context whether I like it or not. Self-honesty is first.
Sometimes it is best just to delete a word or paragraph because it is going
nowhere, particularly in context with my muse. Some things cannot be fully
resolved in this world which is one reason I hope there is a spiritual world
(after) in which I can resolve personal matters, particularly in relationship
to ‘love’ which I don’t like the definition of because it does not cover the
bases so to speak.
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love –
noun
1 an intense feeling of
deep affection: babies fill parents with intense feelings of love |
their love for their country.
•
a deep romantic or sexual attachment to someone: it was love at first sight
| they were both in love with her | we were slowly falling
in love.
•
(Love)a personified figure of love, often represented as Cupid.
•
a great interest and pleasure in something: his love for football
| we share a love of music.
•
affectionate greetings conveyed to someone on one's behalf.
•
a formula for ending an affectionate letter: take care, lots of love, Judy.
2 a person or thing that
one loves: she was the love of his life | their two great
loves are tobacco and whiskey.
•
Brit. informal a friendly form of
address: it's all right, love.
• (a love) Brit. informal used to express affectionate
approval for someone: don't fret, there's a love.
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1302
hours. What comes to mind first is G---D. If I were to say, “I love G---D,”
where’s the definition of love based on the above or any definition?
There’s the rub, boy. You do love G---D. –
Amorella
1306
hours. That is the crux of the matter isn't it? You cut right to the chase, Amorella.
Now I am wordless.
You had a late and leisurely lunch at
Smashburgers. You ate outside facing the newish West Chester Hospital in the
near distance. The day is sunny and clear and the view was through some foliage
at the six-floor structure beyond the parking lot. It reminded you of sitting
on a campus in Silicon Valley – like you had been transported there for lunch. Carol
agreed when you mentioned it. – Amorella
1602
hours. This was very cool. Presently I am sitting at Rose Hill Cemetery waiting
for Carol to finish her walk – lots of shade with the temperature in the
mid-seventies – a beautiful day. I think this cemetery is better kept than
Otterbein’s; it is certainly a more spacious layout. Carol’s sister Linda may
be coming up in September/October for a week. One of the things she and Carol
are going to do is buy gravestones and have them set (except for death date of
course). We will probably have one with both our names like her parents have .
. . nothing conspicuous. I am always reminded of Henry T’s headstone, it is
less than eight and half by eleven inches and only says “Henry”.
You are having trouble with your Wikipedia
Offline. You downloaded it but never tried it until now. – Amorella
1624
hours. I cannot remember how to spell Henry David T’s [Thoreau] last name. I
forgot my phone. Here comes Carol; she’s put at least twenty minutes in – she passes
me by saying she has a few more minutes of walk time. I am a terrible speller. I
don’t know what I would do without Word or Page software. No doubt this is one
of life’s little ironies, a would-be-writer who can’t spell and never could. Carol
has her thirty minutes. (1628)
1722 hours. We are sitting in the shade of
the front porch. Carol is reading The Patriot Threat and I have been
working on my Wikipedia problem. I did not find the same Wikipedia database I
had for my Mac Air, but after finding it buried in past purchases on the Apple
Store I am downloading the contents once more. Perhaps it no longer works – I bought
it in 2012. The English version is being downloaded – the other recent download
was in Simple English, mine is just English.
1731
hours. Now to the earlier appearance of the ‘Elephant in the Room’:
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There’s
the rub, boy. You do love G---D. – Amorella
1306
hours. That is the crux of the matter. You cut right to the chase, Amorella.
Now I am wordless.
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1734
hours. How can I, an agnostic, honestly state I love G---D? Obviously, I cannot
love G---D beyond doubt.
We return to the point in your life where
you chose to make a private and personal stand, and then did so by accepting
the possibility not the probability of G---D’s existence and acted according to
your conscience, to your humanity, to your heartansoulanmind. Over a period of
months you were spiritually tested and passed where it counts most in the most,
in the spiritual world, not the physical. – Amorella
1744
hours. I do not remember having this ‘1987 testing-event’ described as such
before, but perhaps it was. This is a very simple explanation Amorella. You
entered my notes and I began to focus on the marsupial humanoids as a science
fiction trilogy: Stuck, Home and On Earth. I wanted to
emulate the Asimov’s original trilogy: Foundation, Foundation and
Empire, and Second Foundation.
You check to see if ‘emulate’ is the correct
word. - Amorella
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emulate - verb [ with obj. ]
match
or surpass (a person or achievement), typically by imitation: lesser men
trying to emulate his greatness.
• imitate: hers is
not a hairstyle I wish to emulate.
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1759
hours. I did not think on matching or surpassing Asimov or his trilogy (let
alone his hundreds of other works) nor did I desire to imitate his content or style.
I was not then nor now trying to emulate his greatness. My thought was simply –
Asimov wrote a great trilogy and I would like to write a trilogy too. I wanted it to be a ‘thinking
person’s trilogy’. I always enjoyed the times I could see my students actually
thinking in class. I was recently to retire so I attempt to do what I attempted
to do in class, particularly in my college prep, honors and AP senior English classes.
Once I retired I decided on broadening the science fiction to include a past as
well as present, mostly because I agree with Einstein that on some level our
sense of past, present, and future is not separate. I feel it is we Homo
sapiens who separate the divisions by our instinct to survive, to live in the
continual present. Even in this concept we develop a possible spiritual continuation
so that we might in a sense experience a future – ego at work I suspect. Back
to the subject – I do love G---D, not the concept of God, and I honestly call
myself an agnostic at the same time. – rho (1818)
You find it difficult to think on these
things without writing your thoughts down. – Amorella
1820
hour. It is a necessity to write down my thoughts to think on the subject.
Which thoughts to write down and which not to write down? I have tried to cover
the gamut in these notes and on this blog.
You are about to head up to bed after
watching several shows with Carol and an “X-File” yourself. – Amorella
2151
hours. I can better accept that it is possible
within myself to have a better life accepting that G---D is, not necessarily that
G---D exists. I discern a difference between ‘is’ and ‘existing’ in this context.
You lose nothing by thinking boy. This is
what the brain does. Learning is a human condition not a fact in the usual
sense of the word. Post. – Amorella
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