Noon, local time. You have been helping
clean the house preparing for Craig and Alta when they return with you from
Florida in the latter part of the last week in June. You will be leaving later
this week. Jadah is curled asleep on the bed with no sheets as they are being
washed. Craig and Alta's bed will be made today. You want to take the cats up
to Kim and Paul's tomorrow, but Carol wants to wait. Paul's much younger
brother, Peter, has some time off his medical residency at Wayne State hospital in Detroit, so he will be
caring for the three cats, Ellie, Jadah and Spooky. How are you feeling about
throwing out your old writings, boy? - Amorella
1214 hours. I haven't gone down to take anything out of the recycled
trash. It doesn't bother like it might have ten years ago. They are full of
thoughts, but everybody is full of thoughts -- if they are heartfelt I assume
we take them with us, if not who would want them anyway.
In here, heartfelt is not enough, the
thoughts have to be heartansoulanmind felt; heartansoulanmind is one unit, the
trinity aspect is secondary when it comes to what you take with you. That's the
way it is in Soki's Choice in any case.
1221 hours. Wow. In fiction anyway that means you don't take much. I'm
moving from a suitcase worth of memories down to a single page.
You appear surprised. - Amorella
1223 hours. I am. If my notes were my memories I cannot imagine having
more than a line of two that might be whittled down as far as all my writings are concerned. Much
that would be gleaned would also ultimately be left behind with the ashes.
You might be pleasantly surprised with what
you would take however. - Amorella
1229 hours. I suppose. If I'm looking to take a Graeter's sundae with
the works I might remember the taste of their plain vanilla.
1513 hours. You sparked my imagination Amorella.
What if you could remember smells, tastes, touches and sounds; no visuals. Wow.
You are sounding like machinery constantly
updating personnel data. - Amorella
1526 hours. You leave me next to wordless.
Post. - Amorella
2052
hours. What is this world, this reality my heartansoulanmind finds itself in?
That I would give up my name to remember the great in the field of world
literature, those I have known and taught? It is a strange world no doubt, but
I'll be damned to have it any other way. I have no personal complaints. I am
as I am with a name or not and the world is as it is even if I have no grammar. We are all in the same boat. (2056)
Kim called. You and Carol are
driving the cats up mid-morning, having lunch out with Kim and the boys and
starting back about three before Columbus traffic rush. You stopped at PetSmart
to buy them new drinking dishes and a new toy mouse diced with catnip for each
of the three cats; and a small dish of Graeter's cold pleasure before returning
home. - Amorella
You watched the NBC News and
the interview with Putin immediately after. - Amorella
1936
hours. Vladimir Putin gave Megyn Kelly an interview but not a story, that's my
opinion. What did she think he was going to say? The questions were straight
forward but rather naive in my mind. The man is obviously intelligent. His
responses on her hacker questions put them right back in her lap. My present response
here is making me feel uneasy. You set me up to react and I did.
2002
hours. I am uneasy because I should have sensed it coming. -- Maybe I did and ignored it.
Either way it makes me feel out of sorts. It is a problem Amorella because I
understand and trust you as a friend. I'm not saying you would stab me in the
back, so to speak, because in all these years I have seen nothing of the kind.
Nothing.
And, you won't. - Amorella
2006 hours. I think watching the interview put me in such a state of
thought. The setting was perhaps more intense that I surmised, or I was making
it more intense for the sake of drama.
This is what you used to do when you felt I
may be angelic in nature. You would overthink, over debate. This is what you
loved about the character of Satan in Paradise Lost. - Amorella
2010 hours. Not good, Amorella. I cannot think of the author's name, one
of the top three or four influential pieces of literature in my entire life.
You stopped to clean out the cats' litterbox
and take it to the street. - Amorella
2029 hours. Dan Rather and Daniel Defoe come to mind. John Bunyan and (finally) John Milton. (2031)
You are upset with your memory because if
there was ever a memory that is in your heartansoulanmind it is John Milton. -
Amorella
2041 hours. This is a great personal shock. I should forget my own name before
the name of one of the greatest English writers of all time.
This is how you feel deep down, that you
would rather remember the names of the great writers you have taught in your
life over your own.
This is how I feel; my name, not the names of people I
love, family and friends. My name is not important, never has been. I've even
forgotten it several times and had to check my driver's license; always at a
gathering of some sort. I was dreadfully afraid someone was going to come up
and politely ask, "Who are you?" Carol and Kim can attest to this as
well as Laney Bender-Slack.
Post. - Amorella
2051 hours. This is who I am, Amorella.
I shall not deny it. - Amorella
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