Notes - why aren't you? /

       Mid-morning. You had a good soaking bath with part time bubbles this morning and you are feeling better. Last minute preparations for Kim, Paul and the boys plus Linda this afternoon. The kitchen has a lot of material for Kim to take back from the basement. You have your folders downstairs and need to put them in properly labeled files then you can begin by looking specifically for notes taken after observing an angelic-like event. The rest you can work on later. - Amorella

       0929 hours. I'm really not too keen on this. I am resigned that I made it all up in some sort of dreamtime probably first induced with self-hypnosis. It all goes back to an old question I most always brought up in Milton's Paradise Lost : How would it be to 'possessed' as it were, by a good angel, not a bad one? That was always a wonder to me, so what I think I did was imagine such a scenario unconsciously and when I later did self-hypnosis, I conjured up the concept, experienced it, then thought it might be real rather than earlier imagination at work. This is the simplest explanation. (0935)

       That is a good hypothesis if it indeed was not a real encounter, but you need to follow through after all these decades for self-satisfaction. Post - Amorella

       0939 hours. This 'following through' makes me uncomfortable.

        Why? - Amorella

       0941 hours. I really don't want to know the truth. I would rather accept my error on my present terms. That was long ago and I would just as soon be done with it. 

         Then why aren't you? - Amorella

        0943 hours. Good question.