26 December 2017

Notes - keep the underline / until I don't.




         Early afternoon. You just completed your second thirty minute exercise of the week and didn't want to say anything to jinx it. - Amorella

         1252 hours. I would like to get three in this week anyway. My thighs and lower back ache a bit but not enough to stop as I am doing them. Low thunder surrounding those joints.

         Working on your own you came up with two lines for the bit of theatre:

         Three Personas in Theatre -- Heart and Soul and Mind

         Setting: Atop a Rocky Landscape of Shifting Boulders Galore

         1300 hours. I was trying to pull up some lines to settle into a location of mind where I might like to work. 'Shifting unconscious boulders below was the attempt to pull out words to fit the occasion -- likely chance. There is no tone of Our Town in them. Here's the thing, Amorella, if you were a real Angel I secretly would have thought the same thing, i.e. 'I can do my own work, I don't need and don't want any angelic help.

         You put need before want. - Amorella

         1312 hours. Arrogance plain and simple.

         Arrogance yes; plain and simple, no. - Amorella

         1314 hours. I have no words here.

         Besides the four? - Amorella

         1316 hours. You are being a smart ass.

         That's your department, boy. - Amorella

         You had lunch, good leftover's from Kim and Paul. - Amorella

         1342 hours. The ham was especially tasty. Paul made his own sauce and burnt it on with a small blowtorch. Kim mixes potato skins with mash potatoes. I like it, but it appears odd on the plate. Amorella, I am anxious over this 'play' with my humanity. I am anxious because it will show me (at least in the past it has) how I come to conclusions and though I wish them all to be reasonable, it generally turns out that it is a battle between heart and mind and heart mostly wins, and in my mind the heart winning is a weakness.
        
         To paraphrase, Moby Dick, "That's a mouthful". - Amorella

         1358 hours. I remember the line but not where. It is near favorite lines which at present are scrambled.

         Here it is in the text:

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Starbuck, first mate: It is our task in life to kill whales, to furnish oil for the lamps of the world. If we perform that task well and faithfully, we do a service to mankind that pleases Almighty God. Ahab would deny all that. He has taken us from the rich harvest we were reaping to satisfy his lust for vengeance. He is twisting that which is holy into something dark and purposeless. He is a Champion of Darkness. Ahab's red flag challenges the heavens. 
Stubb: Well, sir, if it's like that, I don't wonder that you, a religious man, might be a bit downcast. But I don't much see what you can do about it. 
Starbuck, first mate: Listen to this. 
[He goes over to a bookshelf, picks up a heavy book, opens it, and reads aloud from it]
Starbuck, first mate: "A captain who, from private motives, employs his vessel for another purpose from that intended by the owners, is answerable to the charge of usurpation, and his crew is morally and legally entitled to employ forceful means in wresting his command from him." 
Stubb: Well, that's a mouthful, I swear! 
Flask: Wrest his command from him? Does that mean take over? 
Starbuck, first mate: It does, Mr. Flask. 
Stubb: [incredulous] Why, you ain't proposing we do any such thing? 
Starbuck, first mate: [Starbuck indicates yes]
Stubb: You're in dangerous waters, Mr. Starbuck! Come on over; come about!

Selected from -- http://www dot imdb dot com/title/tt0049513/quotes

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         1415 hours. I see the humor. On ship it is act of usurpation, Starbuck is suggesting to take Captain Ahab's place as captain. The crew is against it. This is a powerful line meaning to take over the ship, to wrestle Ahab's command. Yet, for me here in the post I am showing myself to be timid within my own heartansoulanmind. Amorella, you are something else.

         Post. - Amorella

         1422 hours. These posts are for my intent. The lessons are for me. I accept this because, overall, I know I know less than nothing but hate to admit it. I don't know why this blog has to be shared, sharing makes me free of it, but I don't know why. - rho

         You share because you are my student. - Amorella (Keep the underline.)

         1434 hours. 

         Carol found the TV remote to be wanting. You replaced it at Cincinnati Bell Fioptics and stopped to order a Papa John's pizza on the way home. Almost always excellent as it was tonight. You watched an episode of "Blind Spot" and episode three of "The Crown" and a part of The Kennedy Center program on CBS. - Amorella

         2203 hours. I did not realize I share the blog because I am your student. I do think of you, the Amorella, as my teacher as observing what humanity is, but it is only my humanity and my lack of humanity as example. I use myself because I know no one else so intimately in heartansoulanmind, and it seems I do not know my own heartansoulanmind as much as I might. It may sound silly but the old Boy Scout motto holds true: "Be Prepared". In life one should prepare for death by knowing one's self. That is my philosophy. How else to confront possibly nothing at all or to confront an Angelic being or something else entirely. It appears a necessity to me, but only perhaps I am nearing the end. Some study the Bible or other religious text to find themselves. I accept, the Amorella, as my teacher because I might learn something about myself I do not know about the core of my humanity and the lack of it. Thinking of myself as a very private person and then opening the pages of my private and core thoughts stretches my trust in my fellow humanity to whatever limits I have. This is nothing dramatic even with the continued audience a few. Very ordinary person you and I both find here. One of my good friends recently remarked on encountersinmind that how could anyone find time to read such when she or he is busy with her or his own life. He figures that any who reads this blog doesn't have a life. That's his opinion. I readily accept it and assume curiosity hits the reader in the same way quora-dot-com affects its readers. Life is interesting. I am rattling on. My own students these years ago would be asleep even with their eyes open. I've done it myself. I write because I have no choice. I am not 'alone, all alone on a particular sea'. My problem will come when I realize I write and have nothing to say. (2228)

         That will not happen on my watch, boy. I observe your heartansoulanmind daily. I keep you honest where it counts most. With honesty grows dignity and humanity. You know this. Post. - Amorella

         2235 hours. I live until I don't. I am conscious until I am not.

         Post. - Amorella

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