Notes - going to film / did not happen / trust

         Mid-morning. Today, happily, you are going to see the new Churchill film, Darkest Hour, after noon, its first showing of the day at the Regal about three miles down Mason-Montgomery Road. You remember reading A History of the English-Speaking Peoples: The Birth of Britain, The New World, The Age of Revolution and The Great Democracies between high school and your first year at Otterbein. - Amorella

         0935 hours. I got interested when writing my first research paper (1959-1960) which was for Mrs.  Lillian Gossett, my British Literature teacher during my senior year. The ten page typed paper was titled: "The RAF and the Battle of Britain".

         Earlier today Carol got you up to watch Savanna Guthrie’s NBC interview with Michael Wolff, author of Fire and Fury, a book for sale today after which you jumped to "Morning Joe" on MSNBC.  

         0952 hours. We will buy and read it. No comment until I have done so. I would rather move on to almost anything else or stop until after the film.

         Later, dude. Post. - Amorella

         No film. The line was fifty feet too long and only one poor lady was selling tickets. Inside wasn't any better. You returned home just in time to note the electric went out for a bit more than half an hour. You had a mid-afternoon lunch at Panera/Chipotle after the electric returned. Home in time for pre-dusk; dusk presently. - Amorella

         1725 hours. We hope to see Darkest Hour tomorrow at 12:40.was interested in asking Amorella a personal question but now I can't think of it.  -- Amorella, what would be an interesting question to ask you in which I would learn something about you, not me? (1731)

         You'll need to rephrase that, boy. - Amorella

         1734 hours. What would be a good question to ask you in which I would learn something about you that would in turn affect me also?

         1738 hours. Never mind. I feel badly even suggestion such. If I am going to ask a good legitimate question I need to come up with my own. - rho [I thought to say, "I'm sorry" but being sorry for making a bad decision on a personal question does not demand an apology.]

         An honest mistake, true. - Amorella

         1744 hours. Two decades ago and I would be sweating the fires of hell being stuck in a position of arrogance while meeting an Angel face to face and not knowing what to do viewing a nearly invisible eyes or eye not more than a foot beyond me knowing I was being seen completely through naked to the core beyond the own knowing of myself. How do I get out of this? That's what I used to think in such a situation that I believed at the moment to be true, truer than my own being. No blinking, no eyelids to blink with. I was nothing but the reflection of some other being's eyes, non-human eyes, not even spiritual eyes. A formulation of eyes hung in front of my own that were Beyond being. Slowly I developed a plan that was understood by the Viewer before I developed it. I walk backwards within my own sense of Nothing being viewed by Something-Not-There. This was Hell with a burning, without a pain. It was a Hell of understanding what it is to be Nothing because I was being viewed by Something Beyond human reality. (1800) - rho

         You understand still, an event that was and was not both at once. The above is as true a description that you can muster from a self that was not there when it was. You see, you were just describing yourself from my eyes, so to speak. It was your attempt at describing what you can never forget in life, an event unevented. Post. - Amorella

        

         1805 hours. I don't even know what happened here. I am not going to reread it because I was reliving it as my fingers moved on the keyboard. - rho [How can I apologize for something that did not happen but unmistakenly once.]

        

         You relaxed with the national news and a new "Blacklist" as well as Rachael Maddow. - Amorella

         2306 hours. Taking a break from her book, Carol is reading the new Consumer Reports. Jadah is relaxing after playing with her toy chipmunk loaded with fresh catnip flakes, and chasing the laser light you were operating. Spooky played with her own freshly loaded chipmunk downstairs until she curled up in the chair for sleep.

         2312 hours. Earlier today Kim called to check in; a very pleasant call. We three chatted for a while, looking forward to seeing them next Wednesday and Thursday. I've been reminiscing about the trips Kim and I took together, one was to Chicago for a few days when she was a junior in high school and during Spring Break we drove and saw the major buildings in Chicago; this is when she was really interested in Frank Lloyd Wright. Carol had to work that week so it was just the two of us hitting the town. A year earlier Carol had major surgery when we were going to the east coast for the history and literature and looking at the major universities and smaller colleges. Carol's sister Mary Lou stayed with her at our house. What a trip father and daughter had. We were gone about two weeks, saw many of the historical and literary sights, and on the way home we decided on a whim to drive into the Village and stopping at a small Jewish restaurant before stopping at Princeton and Gettysburg on the way back to Cincinnati. Wow. How wonderful it was to help raise a daughter. Carol and I have been very fortunate in our lives. (2332)

         You and Carol gave Kim many opportunities in her early life. She took advantage of them but never advantage of you both. Post. - Amorella

         2335 hours. I disagree. She took advantage of me plenty of times, I liked it. She always has had her Daddy on a string. I don't mind one bit. You are right, she has never taken advantage of us in a bad way. She has our complete trust.