Note - a play on hope and desperation / Amorella further self-defined through my old logic lecture

         You cousin, Jimmy S., sent you a forward which he does from time to time but this one was on sports and one of the great end games – normally you are not a sports fan (as such) but you do admire women and men who are physically skilled in sports, dance, etc. This forward however is like no other you have seen and it delights you right into your heart and soul but you are not sure why.


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         071027 Trinity University 28 - Millsaps 24 End Zone Angle - YouTube


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         Google: end-zone-angle-of-the-final-football-play-of-trinity-vs-millsaps-video/

         The humanity exhibited in the play as well as in the voice is exhilarating. I am tickled by the performance of both. Why it goes so deep is a mystery.

         I’ll leave it as such for you, but indeed it does go deep, even so much as to touch your soul. Post. – Amorella.

         Mid-afternoon and you are waiting for someone from Time-Warner Cable to replace the digital cable box. Lunch earlier at Penn Station, before that, errands.

         Moving on dusk and mostly clear skies for a change. You are trying to think of scientific-like questions to ask me and don’t know where to begin. Since you do not like having ‘belief’ a part of your ‘creed’ for the blog you want to exclude what I believe. This is just as well because I have ‘no reason’ to believe. You have your existential elements which you have posted before, put down the first three and you will see I meet your criteria as an existentialist, at least the first three. These are easily witnessed through ‘my’ words (focus on aspects of the Merlyn’s Mind writing series] in the blog.

            1. immediacy of experience

            2. unity of thought and action

            3. importance of decision and commitment

[From The Discovery of Being by Rollo May and Existentialism from Dostoevsky to Sarte by Walter Kaufman.]

         Let’s move through the next four from May and/or Kaufman.

            4. pm of repression (loss of freedom)

            5. character development caused by loss of freedom leads to freedom 

            6. self-affirmation of character (finding your inner self)

            7. fears and anxieties (what you have before your self-affirmation) [resolved]

         (4) I, Amorella, see myself as having no loss of freedom; although, from time to time in the notes, if one checks carefully, sheorhe will find my response has been modified by another aspect of ‘myself’. Rather than use ‘levels’ here, i.e. higher or lower or deeper; think ‘regions’ as in a geographic region as a similarity rather than level.

         (5) not applicable

         (6) not applicable as I am a ‘whole’ spirit

         (7) I, Amorella, do not know ‘fear’ even in the mental aspect of a human being, i.e. orndorff. Let’s move down your Logic Notes to Kant:

         Kant: Four Basic Questions:

        

         1. What can I know?

         2. What shall I do?

         3. What can I hope for?

         4. What is a human being?

         I, Amorella, understand*; I perceive, I do not know. I am subject to ‘error and/or accident which ironically can be misconstrued as misunderstanding.

* 1b • perceive the significance, explanation, or cause of (something): she didn't really understand the situation | [ with clause ] : he couldn't understand why we burst out laughing | [ no obj. ] : you don't understand—she has left me. [American-Oxford]

         Much later and it is after 2100 hours. I am thinking this is somewhat like what my character, the seven year old hybrid, Diplomat, did when proving a very small alien ‘parasite’ was writing selections of book three, not the Soki.  I found a selection from Merlyn’s Mind, Chapter Eight, “Pouch Text”:

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A Beginning Hypothetical Alien Profile

             I [Diplomat] will make this alien a female so as not to confuse her with the male that I made of the Soki. This stands to reason because early on in the books the Soki is referred to by the marsupialese pronoun sheorhe. The alien is a creature who evolved from the size of a single dandelion seed or less. The species became smaller and smaller until one could fit inside a marsupial or human brain.

            The alien is from this galaxy. Her species originally lived on a planet and feed from the humidity and carbon dioxide in the air and from the oxygen/carbon dioxide cycle from grassy plants. Her remote ancestors had no legs or arms. No eyes. No ears. None of the human senses existed. The species originally lived between the grass blades as a spore might. Then the species developed from a single asexual seed blown in the wind to a higher state of consciousness.

This alien ancestor sensed the material world through a cone that goes inward from the top of the seed. The actual seed surface or skin continually flaked onto the grassy stems which allowed it to lodge itself within as a small mollusk might lodge itself in an empty shell. The winds blow these dandelion seed size creatures from place to place within the planet’s environment. These intelligent creatures learned to roll in pieces of dead grasses and adjust by bobbing and rolling the dead blade of grass so the wind might catch them so they might raise themselves higher and higher into the sky and become more conscious of height, width and depth.

Much later, aliens, such as the marsupials, landed on their grassy and environmentally friendly world from time to time and some of the fully conscious (as in human and marsupial consciousness) seedlings  attach themselves to the marsupial and/or other ships piloted by yet other aliens of consciousness in the galaxy.

These tiny creatures further refined themselves smaller and smaller because it was to their benefit of survival, down until they were the size of self generating amoebas, only one of their species might then needed on any planet for further propagation.

Eventually through divine design or evolution their outer shell becomes a transparency that can be seen through like clear glass. Because it would at times reflect sunlight it would seem to be a sparkle in the air when airborne and then be gone. A little sparkle of reflected light as hardly a speck of dust perhaps, and thus the minute alien still easily and neatly disguised itself and kept safe from harm.

As these tiny amoeba-like creatures traveled the galaxy they became smaller and smaller as their adaptive minds became larger and larger. Eventually they become microbe small, but the mind stays its original size. It is my contention that this alien masking as the Soki, who is, in turn, masking as the writing process personified, the one in Richard’s [Graystone] head, is less than a hydrogen atom in size, but its mind is the same size it always was, or even perhaps a bit larger because its awareness of proper hosts and environments in which to survive as a single member of a vast species.

 This sub-microscopic creature can move to whatever shape she desires within her host. All she needs is a whiff of carbon dioxide and oxygen in her food and air supplement cycle. She is very efficient little creature.

This may not be complete accurate as a hypothesis, but it allows her fits the intelligent profile needed for such a small alien species to exist undiscovered within a marsupial or human host.

Carrying this profile further, let’s say the one disguised as the Soki, was left on Earth when the marsupials first landed in 1988. It could not divide on Earth because it has nothing left to divide into. The alien species had reached its cul-de-sac of evolution. She is one of a kind on this planet, a unique species that has found herself in the head of the author, Richard [Graystone]. She can do nothing of herself, nor does she need to for survival, as long as she has a host, who could be any human being or marsupial. She can only make herself known to her host telepathically through her own mental consciousness.

The Soki, the personified writing process, is, meanwhile, completely telepathic within the confines of his host. He needs nothing else to survive as an alien consciousness either. Knowledge to survive his environment is also gathered from the brain of his host. Both make complete sense as atom-sized intelligent parasites.

This particular little alien who disguises herself as the Soki (whom the author considers a product of his imagination) can exist for a very long time on Earth as long as she has a human host. If she happens to be in a host who is more than likely to be killed then she must transfer. She must therefore prefers to be in urban areas, where ironically, she finds herself in a more dangerous environment, but there are a greater amount of hosts available. And, since the eye socket seems to be of some significance, perhaps the transfer is through the eye stem directly into the brain. This is all supposition of course, but I feel it is plausible under the circumstances.

Here is the scenario I have devised as to why she might choose to risk her disguise for her survival’s sake. Earth is a dangerous world for the little creature. Her greatest fear is having everyone die off like early on in the first book in 1988. Only four people left. Not very good odds of surviving. To increase these odds, and after having been hosted by a marsupial before coming to earth.

The alien’s electron-sized brain easily disguises the Soki’s immediate human environment, a mental presence, in the brain, of a personification of the writing process within the host. The Soki, as a presence of mind through the interaction with the brain, becomes her front and back yard so to speak. And, as with a self relative sentence, when she (the alien) is observed in the brain, she disappears as something else again, and reappears only when the observer is not looking.

Thus, her built in defense system is extremely miniscule, remote, and self referential. She is the most efficient piece of conscious life in the universe, and it is nearly as old. She has no harming capacities of any kind because she needs conscious life to co-exist with. She is an almost perfect alien form as far as basic survival of a consciousness or self-awareness is concerned.

             I will call this alien, thought Diplomat, Ameta Cortavena which translates as Consciousness-Near-Nothing or Heart-of-Nothing, because when she is one, then she is not the other. No one knows which this tiny benign alien is at any given time for when observed she becomes the other. A perfectly constructed defensive system built in. If there is a plausibility of an intelligent alien at all this fits her profile description.

From: Orndorff’s Merlyn’s Mind, Chapter Eight, “Pouch Text”

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         Returning this to my [Amorella's] original present task; (2.) What shall I do. – I help a one time teacher learn something about himself in the event that he one day, after death, hypothetically stand before an Angel and say, “This is who I am [now that I better understand myself].”

         (3.) I, Amorella, have no need of ‘hope’ in the human sense. The ‘hope’ I sense rises from a vacuum.

         Kant’s (4.) Is not applicable to me. I have already defined myself. Post. – Amorella

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         This is a beginning. I like the idea of beginning from my old logic lecture. I am comfortable with this as a (subjective/objective) base. - rho