21 August 2013

Notes - Brothers 21 completed / the understanding Dead / I don't know


        Late morning. You were up early, breakfast and the paper, finished mowing the grass before the heat of the day, took a nap, and here you are a little unsure about the conclusion of Brothers 21 because you have not had it on mind since yesterday. - Amorella

         1243 hours. I puttered around for a while then got to work. I have completed Brothers 21. I rather like it for the humor but I don't know how it will be for another reader.

         Drop it in anyway. The humor is a bit strained and puffy at the same time. Post. - Amorella
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The Brothers 21 ©2013, rho - draft segment for GMG

            Richard and Robert are sitting in the morning shade on a bench in Riverton watching people and traffic move through the busy Uptown intersection of State and College. Richard always liked this corner from where he could see one of his favorite boyhood places, the weathered State Movie Theatre marquee once grandly lit. Robert never was the movie fan, fancied Richard.

            Rob's boyhood took in bound textbook-like words to carve a life based on what human reality is, the physical body. Richard liked the adventurous photographs in Life as much as words of daring and diversion. Rob became a cardiothoracic surgeon and I became a professor of literature. We are still living nearby in our hometown, but identically twin bodies do not identical twin minds make, considered Richard. He glanced across the street waiting to see Cyndi and Connie emerge from Schneider's Bakery with four small cups of coffee and four fresh and tasty white cream-filled doughnuts topped with a layer of chocolate icing. "Let's move on to something else, Rob, I'm tired of talking about money."

            Interrupted from his focus on the marquee, Rob tapped his brother's shoulder, replying, "Talking and thinking are two different things, Dickie." In clear and exact memory Rob had been focusing on his recently completed poem.

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L I L L I A N       G I S H

                        News: senseless beyond the deadline,
                        prisoner to a here and now,
                        reports any hearsay, the current heresies.

                        She: its quick legend in catchwords,
                        memorable as a persistent comet is memorable,
                        Old light of whom reaches us years later.

                        She is Beatrice: graceful frames of spirit;
                        comet to fixed star; sister to star
                        forms through whom travelers know --

                        earth as Diana, child of wild things,
                        gathering broken blossoms with voice of arms
                        in the first light a chaste lover brings;

                        fire as Athena, eyes flashing with battle-charm,
                        holds our souls, fragile as daylight, through the night,
                        breaking the dark air of harm;

                        water as Venus, love's strong voice of light,
                        laughing with the long hair of waves gently bearing
                        the sea-worn swells of doubt from every lover's eyes;

                        air as Mary, sensuous truth as heroine,
                        whose dark lips of pure fire melt that elemental
                        cold of pretense in the frightened soul of hope.

                        Child to woman to spirit of silent grace,
                        from way down east rising with the northern sun,
                        always new, the unforgettable faces of Lillian Gish.

•••

            Richard asked, "What are you thinking about?"

            "Lillian Gish. The marquee got me thinking about her." He stopped; then, "The girls have been in the bakery for sixteen minutes."

            "She was famous in the silent movies. What about Lillian Gish? She's dead isn't she?"

            "The poem is about her unforgettable faces. She died in 1993, Dickie." He pointed, "Here they come. The restaurant's not open yet. Let's meet them at the tables across the street."

            As Richard looked at the traffic and the people moving in street light order he had a flash of thought on how it might be as being only an existential heartansoulanmind walking across the street. "The most basic form of consciousness," rolled out.

            "What's that?"

            "I am thinking on minimal consciousness, if there is such an animal," acknowledged Richard.

            "We hoped no less in the operating room," chuckled Rob, continuing with, "A minimal animal, you want a jellyfish," as they crossed with the light he added, "I'm ready for coffee with cream and a cream-filled doughnut."

            The most basic form of spiritual consciousness is human consciousness, continued Richard in silent reflection. Let's say this minimal consciousness is in a quantum state not unlike a quantum bit in a computer. The classical bit is stored as a 1 or a 0 but a quantum bit is stored as a 0 and 1 event at the same time. This is similar to the condition of Schrödinger's Cat in quantum mechanics. This spiritual consciousness both exists and does not exist at the same time. A human being can feel or sense the heartansoulanmind existing. It is like being on stage and of stage at the same time. One may never completely know where the theatre is or what the discovery of the humor of the joke is.

            This then is the grammar of the heartansoulanmind, it is not necessarily the words in a linear string; it may be where it is not, between the lines. I think there may be something to this. Now, what would the natural form of this heartansoulanmind really be like?

            "We got you two the cream-filled doughnuts you like," said Connie.

            "But they only had three," added Cyndi. "So I took the jelly."

760+ words  (slight revision in conclusion tonight)
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         You had a good lunch at Penn Station. They know how you two like your sandwich and your fries. You also had a little rain, which should be good for the grass this time of year. Presently you are waiting for Carol at Kroger's on Tylersville after dropping off a letter at the post office. Life is good, huh, boy? - Amorella

         1434 hours. I feel good after completing Brothers 21; I hope it is okay. I sent it to Doug for a read from questioning mind.

         The books are built for such readers, particularly those who question the world in which they live. - Amorella

         Alas, most people are too busy even if they have the inclination to think on such matters from time to time. I have always tried to make time. Retirement, a partner who doesn't mind, and the Internet help tremendously.

         You both have always been readers, an important attribute these days. - Amorella

         It has always been important.

         No, it has not, not for so many people. Even the letters, the alphabet, has its own meaning; don't it, boy? - Amorella

         You are sounding like Grandma. (1446)

         Let's see what the last story is as what we are going to do with it. - Amorella

         1608 hours. Home from the grocery and from another errand after, so to speak, Graeter's for a child's dip in a cup of wild cherry chocolate chip. Grandma's 21 in the original has 11,317 words. Criteria and Renaldo are the most important characters. Grandma pretty much right off says she's going to sit to tell the story so you know it's going to be a long one.

         We'll do as we did before, make a second working copy and we'll begin deleting what is not important to the immediacy of Criteria and Renaldo and what has to carry on to the next book. - Amorella

         What about the focus on heartansoulanmind issues? (1615)

         We just take the bones of this story, boy. Surely if any one understands; it will be the Dead. - Post. - Amorella


         1653 hours. We have cut the story down to 2587 words.


         Now, delete the original long copy and make a new copy of the shorter 2587. - Amorella

         That wasn't so bad as I thought it would be.

         The story in bones does not have to make sense. The first cut was more mind sense. The second cut will be heart sense and the third cut will be soul sense. You got that, boy? - Amorella

         1659 hours. I will re-label as I want to keep these as samples of each sense.

         You are ever in the experiment. - Amorella

         It is my nature, Amorella

         Time for a break, boy. The next cut is only what your heart feels. - Amorella

         This will be strange because what the heart feels is what is the most important.

         Not here, boy. It is what wordy bones the soul decides to save that makes the difference. - Amorella

         1706 hours. I have never thought of the soul saving anything.

         1735 hours. I had been called to help with household chores.

         In here, boy, your soul is saving the story's last chapter. The soul is given deference in the last two books. - Amorella

         You have said that I put my heartansoulanmind into those first three Merlyn books. I assume I have put the same into this book.

         You have until now. A transition is being made for the next two books. - Amorella

         What will be the difference? I cannot imagine writing a story from the soul's perspective of what humanity is.

         Here is the rub, boy. You cannot imagine. - Amorella

         1744 hours. True. I have not been able to imagine much of what has already been written.

         It is not a matter of belief, young man, you allow me to run your fingertips on the keyboard. - Amorella

         Does this mean books two and three will not have mind or heart in them?

         No, but we will allow the soul to learn this for herorhimself. - Amorella

         My soul is put to the test?

         Why not? - Amorella

         This does not seem fair. I thought the heartansoulanmind were equal as a unit (as far as the story is concerned).

         In the story the soul is immortal; the soul is less than equal. This is the reason, out of respect, sheorhe is given deference. - Amorella

         I don't know where you are coming from Amorella.

         Neither does anyone else, young man. We are done for the day. Post. - Amorella

         Doug says the segment, Brothers 21, appears fine as is. For this I am grateful. Thank you, Amorella. - rho

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