You were awaken by Jadah the Cat about an
hour ago, took advantage of the situation and used the bathroom to find upon
return Jadah sitting on the corner of the bed awaiting you to stop by. You
hesitated, put out your arms, and she instinctively climbed upon them. You
carried her to the bedroom chair, sat down and reclined. Jadah contentedly sat
on your chest, rolled about for a gentle tummy scratch and fell asleep like a
small child cuddled in your arms might. – Amorella
0350
hours. I began thinking on how the heartansoulanmind are as a mix of sand
granules radiated and pressurized by physics, the framework of ever evolving
DNA, biophysics, through the ages. Each heartansoulanmind molded within until
the biophysical entity is completed. A spiritual intensity inspects the
soul-like shell, shining through the odd sized sheet of imperfect glass shell.
Imperfections everywhere tempt closer examination. Each heartansoulanmind
reflecting a sparkle of friendship gathered and solidified within. Hues of infraction
mark intensity of reason and emotion saying, “This is who I am in consciousness
and out. Held together, bonded in a frameless spiritual gravity. (0409)
Mid-morning. You slept most of the night in
the bedroom chair. Once Jadah left you threw on a blanket and fell back asleep
yourself (Carol was sound asleep and you didn’t want to awaken her. Besides,
Jadah was curled up on your side of the bed.) Carol has come up and is reading
her book in bed. – Amorella
1010
hours. With this setting I am reminded of many of our days in Sao Paulo during
the week after our teaching day ended. A private bus would drop us off from
school at our apartment building and we would sometimes walk half a block to
the modern just like home grocery store to pick up essentials when we needed
them then walk up the four flights to our apartment. Once settled we would
gravitate to the bedroom to turn on either BBC or VOA to see what was happening
in the world then with the radio turned off we would sit and read books. This
was very relaxing quiet time for us. Whenever we are sitting in the same room
doing different quiet things those old vibes are re-stirred. I don’t ever
remember missing television. Besides, on the weekends there was always lots to
do; Sao Paulo was about the size of Chicago in those days. It was easy to catch
a bus or taxi to anywhere in town right outside our apartment building. Good
days they were. We loved our time there and the Escola Graduada ‘Graded’
community that became our family. We were quite comfortable and never more than
24 hours from the States, usually less. (1030)
You
watched last night’s “NCIS.LA” then went to supper at Panera/Chipotle.
Presently you are at Kroger’s on Mason-Montgomery for bakery bread and paper
plates. You had a very leisurely supper with conversation. – Amorella
1843
hours. I’m sure we’ll watch one more show. I want to finish up this assignment
so I can move on with Dead 9. I am curious how this is going to work out, as
well as ready to move on to the next chapter. It is pleasant to work on the
novel without a deadline, unless I take the word literally. Laney liked a
comment I dropped on her FB page yesterday. It is a ‘contact point’. I write
something and she acknowledges with a ‘like’ almost always. I see it as similar
to a wave to each other from her down on the southwest side of the long school hallway
and me up on the northeast end of the same hallway; just a wave and a smile
between two friends, two comrades-in-arms. I wonder what the French words for
comrades-in-arms is? [Suri suggests: “compagne d’armes”] – I rather like the
French in describing our personal relationship – rather old fashioned, and
charming both in sound and sense.
Once home you watched Miss Marble, “Body in
the Library”, Part II, an eighties production – delightfully slow-paced and
extremely British – not far off from an old radio series in terms of dialogue
so say your thoughts. – Amorella
2043
hours. The television is off and the house is library quiet. Carol is finishing
household chores in the kitchen and has her purse and book on the steps to take
up and read awhile before bed.
2111
hours. I have ten points to choose three from as I see it.
Drop them in unordered here. – Amorella
**
**
1. Recognise what
and who you are from the top to through bottom your heartansoulanmind. Forgive
yourself and stand with dignity as the human being you are, nothing more,
nothing less. Be damn well ready to stand. This is not a time to grovel.
2. Respect the
Angel for what it is; it may become the Angel of G---D at any instant. Do not
attempt any manipulation of this Presence. This is overwhelmingly difficult
because normal surviving skills will rise. Let them go in peace. Accept the
conditions of this event. If nothing else one will learn something about her or
himself that she or he did not know.
3. No pretending.
No falseness accepted; let all thoughts go concentrate on being what is left
when no thoughts only consciousness exists.
4. Let the world
go. The world is in its place; this place is not of the world and you are as a
momentary guest – be polite and respectful but also honest to the core; no
arrogance or malice – a being without body, heartansoulanmind only as clear as
your imperfect glass will allow. One can question the Angel with an open,
honest and even defiant heart.
5. Do not think to
apologize for being human. To think otherwise is a profound arrogance. In such
a profound experience ne cannot know whether she or he is Innocent or not. Accept
your full humanity with dignity; respect the Angel in its Being. Humility will
rise in the sincerity of this course. The Angel ‘knows’ you better than you do
yourself.
6. This is a
Necessity. Will the heartansoulanmind to accept any human failings
and/or the most terrible of thoughts that rise in the moment. Will these
fear-gathering thoughts go away in peace.
7. Being
nonphysical, only heartansoulanmind, one’s nakedness is overwhelming. The
‘light’ is the sense of being observed by Nothing imaginable or by an Angel,
not ‘light’ in the physical sense.
8. The Angel comes
to you not the other way around. Distance between the observer and the Presence
is understood, though logically one might assume she or he is within the Angel
or its Conditional Region and nothing else exists. This appears to be a natural
occurring spiritual experience.
9. The Angelic ‘light’
shows that within its Reality you do not existence. The Angelic light shines
through the observer creating this effect. One exists and does not exist at the
same time in this Angelic setting. This can be very disconcerting.
10. Nothing can be
done about this spiritual experience. The event happens. The experience is
beyond the observer’s nature. This is a rule caused by being both of Nature and
in ‘Beyond or Before’ both at once.
**
**
The
above ten are acceptable. Add ‘Rules’ to your title and post them. – Amorella
2200
hours. Doing this tonight brings me to the edge of such an experience. This is
such a reminder of the seemingly real experience. The irony is that I cannot
know beyond a shadow of a doubt whether it was real or not. I thought the odds
were billions upon billions to one, but the ‘one’ always exists and as such I
chose to accept this spiritual experience as a reality. I had no choice. To
deny such an event by the most modest and most unorthodox of any human being
would be such a profound arrogance that I would not wish to survive such a
thought.
I am no pretend witness, boy. I am Amorella,
a Betweener as far as you are concerned.
2207
hours. Personally I can accept this because I have a string of self-evidence in
several decades of notes. This is between me and Amorella and G---D also, if
such a Creator of All Things and Beyond exists. I am after all, a doubter,
because it is human to doubt. The court is spiritual, and here I stand because
I can do no other. – rho
Think on these ten points or rules. Come up
with the three most important. Tomorrow is soon enough. Post. – Amorella
2214
hours. This self-imposed existential drama cannot be helped. Nothing can be
helped standing naked before an Angel. This appears real enough. - rho
The above is in context with this copy below from post 10 April 2015. –
Amorella
** **
Doug
sent you ‘an inspirational quotation’ as he does every so often this morning
and today’s is: “The
only source of knowledge is experience,” by Albert Einstein. Second, so following, this ‘knowledge
that the color of an Angel’s eyes’ is not fully imagination it is based on your
experience. – Amorella
1641
hours. This is based on what I once thought was an Angel’s eye because I saw it
in my head. But seeing it in my head during a transcendental experience does
not mean it was real.
The point is that seeing the Angel’s eye was
an experience. – Amorella
1644
hours. It was a select aspect of a transcendental experience. In this sense,
indeed, it is not imaginary in the broadest sense of the word.
You distort your sense of reality by not
giving experience its due. – Amorella
1648
hours. The [Angelic]experience is intuitive knowledge at most (and less intuitive at least), not knowledge as we normally use the word.
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