Later in the morning. Jadah woke you wanted
the window shade open for the sun. After breakfast with Carol (with both
reading the paper) you had a nap then a soak bath. Carol informed you of
errands needing to be done today. Such is your start. Last night you listened
to Bluegrass/mountain music before drifting to sleep. – Amorella
1041 hours. I like mountain music,
I think better than the blues (at least presently). I get tired of words
running through my head – herds of words. Then I like music without any words
at all, no human sounds. Being human is sometimes just too much, lesser animals
too easy to emulate, then, music without words is liberating to the soul, let
the heartanmind rest, slumber away – it is like riding on the back of the soul –
reminds me of riding on the back of a sandworm in Dune. Riding on the
back of one’s soul is like that only better I would imagine. – This is a
surprise, I don’t ever imagine riding on a soulshell before. If I did, I don’t
remember it. How would that really be – to ride on a soulshell? (1053)
First, boy, where would you be? Your
heartanmind securely inside the soul where it is supposed to be, how could you
be outside the soul too? – Amorella
1054 hours. I would be in my
imagination, a dream, so to speak, of being outside the soul.
What would you see or hear in this imaginary
liberating event? You would have to have a reaction of some sort or it wouldn’t
be remembered even in imagination. - Amorella
1056 hours. Good question. I like
the concept of not considering the reality of the concept better. I have to immerse
myself in the concept first – riding on the back of one’s own soulshell with
heartanmind restfully asleep inside.
Why don’t you drop that on your Facebook
page and see what happens? – Amorella
1101 hours. Why not . . . sounds
like fun.
After dusk. You watched NBC and ABC News and
this week’s “Major Crimes” as well as a bit of the Olympics. You are unsettled
by something Doug wrote today – the focus was on Republican politics and Trump
and his new campaign boss Steve Bannon. Doug commented, “You have to be careful
who you dance with,” in reference to Trump. You thought of yourself and me, the
Amorella. Personal warning flags immediately popped. That’s the event
smoldering presently. – Amorella
2116 hours. Doubts are always
present. How else do I protect myself from perceived reality, reality and
imagination? I am a skeptic as well as a cynic. I am glad you bring this up
because I need to have this out in the open (consciousness) where it can be
dealt with. The doubts never have gone completely away. I doubted my teaching
abilities until I retired. Now it doesn’t make any difference. I’ll have doubts
about Amorella until I’m dead, then it won’t make any difference. I can live
with it. What is important is how my heart feels about it. I have less doubt
with my heart than I do my mind. Oddly enough, my soul, from the way I
intuitively read it (intuitively I sense the soul as female) presently, isn’t
much concerned either way, that is, whether I have my doubts about Amorella or
not. (2127)
Thus this particular doubt business is over
and done, buried away for the time being. – Amorella
2129 hours. I feel better having
thought this out where I can read it -- less confusion.
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