Notes - I never really know /

       Early afternoon. You and Carol had McD’s Egg McMuffins for lunch (with a coupon, so one was free) and two Cokes. Across the parking lot from McD’s is Kroger’s on Mason-Montgomery Road – and Carol is inside. (You have to pick up meds for the trip from the other Kroger’s today.) – Amorella

       1342 hours. Thanks, Amorella. I forgot. This is odd. Was I picking up two signals at once?

       I channeled it in to avoid confusion. – Amorella

       1344 hours. “Channeling” sounds ‘new age’.

       What would you prefer, boy? – Amorella

       1347 hours. I know the tone of that ‘voice’. It signals ‘Caution’ with meaning and intent. I automatically, as it were, take a step back.

       The step back is for your own good (as you see it) of course. – Amorella

       1350 hours. Yes. I cannot think of the words to express the first of many times I have heard “Caution”.

       “Dread” was the word you used. – Amorella

       No doubt.

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dread

verb

I used to dread going to school: fear, be afraid of, worry about, be anxious about, have forebodings about; be terrified by, tremble/shudder at, shrink from, recoil from, quail at/before, flinch from; informal get cold feet about.

noun

she was filled with dread: fear, apprehension, trepidation, anxiety, worry, concern, foreboding, disquiet, unease, angst; fright, panic, alarm; terror, horror; informal the jitters, the creeps, the shivers, the heebie-jeebies. ANTONYMS confidence.

adjective

the dread disease: awful, frightful, terrible, horrible, dreadful; feared, frightening, alarming, terrifying, dire, dreaded.

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       1355 hours. Reading over the above “a disquieting foreboding” fits best.

       Carol is picking out fresh home grown corn on the cob at the Black Barn in Lebanon. – Amorella

       1430 hours. This is only the second time we have bought corn this summer.

       I agree, “a disquieting foreboding” is a good description. – Amorella

       1458 hours. Home. Today, “a disquieting alarm” probably fits better.

       No, it does not. There is a very thin line between ‘alarm’ and ‘foreboding’. – Amorella

       1500 hours. ‘Alarm’ has a false sense of hope to it.

       Orndorff, you have learned some things over the years. – Amorella

       1502 hours. I know this – if you, the Amorella, were a real Angel of G-D, I would act no differently.

       This is an honest response. You would act no differently in our relationship. – Amorella

       1511 hours. What else can I say (think)?

       Nothing. Someone else in your present existential position would be where sheorhe is at the moment of such a personal realization. Nothing can be imagined ‘here’ only ‘experiencing’ would do. – Amorella

       1515 hours. To each her or his own way, and, in this process I take another step back.

       You know next to nothing orndorff and this realization serves you well. Later, dude. Post. - Amorella

       1531 hours. I never really know how these posts will begin or end.