Notes - to be on top of my situation

       Late morning. You are waiting for Carol outside Chico’s at the Tanger Outlets off I-71 and U.S. 35. You are facing north; four flags are at half-staff, assumption: it is the 75 anniversary of the Japanese bombing Pearl Harbor. Earlier you had a good breakfast at Scrambler Marie’s with Kim and Paul after the boys were at their respective schools. – Amorella

       1135 hours. Carol must be trying on clothes; that’s not all bad. She doesn’t buy clothes much for herself anymore and yesterday she found two long sleeve tops at Macy’s. Kim and I both like them for their brighter colors. I just saw on BBC that Donald Trump is ‘Time’s Person of the Year’. He might actually shake things up for good or ill both nationally and internationally. I don’t like the man. I don’t like dishonesty and deception, but we are built as we are. Survival comes first as far as genetics are concerned. Genes are obsessed with survival and if they have to adapt to survive this is what they do. That’s our building block for breathing and consciousness so this is what we do, adapt to survive. You can’t get much more basic than this in terms of chemistry and biology – it is innately (unconsciously) understood. This is true also for the Soki.  Amorella too?

       You arrived home after noon, made two appointments and then took a nap while Carol raked leaves. Leaf pick up is Friday. Tomorrow you have an appointment at one at Toyota to have your key replaced to the sum of about three hundred and fifty dollars. Friday you have an appointment at Honda at twelve-twenty to have your key replaced for about one hundred and sixty dollars. – Amorella

       1917 hours. Last night we were lying in bed and I told Carol . . . .

       Last night and then early this morning before getting out of bed you mentioned to Carol that you have to reprogram you slacking focus. You also thought you lost your blood work pack, thinking you took it yesterday but not today. Once home you saw the pack and realized you hadn’t taken it with you and that you had a false memory of taking your sugar yesterday morning. This is a concern you want to get on top of immediately. Paul suggested you getting a ‘Tile’ to keep track of your keys but you haven’t yet looked into it. There is a deeper concern. Unconsciously you are anxious about losing your somewhat ridged habits of daily personal conduct like not counting your pills and placing them in a line before taking them; having peanut butter and raisins on a piece of bread every day; putting the right sock on before the left sock every day you wear socks. I’m I correct? – Amorella

       1927 hours. Even the way I sit in a chair, Amorella. These are very small insignificant personal events/details but if I lose them then who am I? I brush my teeth for a specific length of time – a beep to two beeps on the toothbrush. There must be at least fifty to a hundred things I do every day that are copied automatically. I am not conscious of them but I know they are who I am. Maybe people don’t pay attention to their individual manners in everyday life but I am at least semi-conscious of them. I never thought about how the forgetting really has an effect my personal nature. I need to be on top of my situation.

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