Notes - where it came from

       Mid-afternoon. You are waiting for Carol at Kroger's on Mason-Montgomery after filling up the car and eating a lite breakfast/lunch at McDonalds. Before that you first stopped at the bank on Cox Road, then Graeter's, then the bank on Rt. 42 and Western Row before heading to Kroger Fuel. Earlier today you saw Dr. - down in Anderson Township then came home to read the paper, have breakfast and take about an hour nap. Such is retired life for you and Carol as she has been with you for the day. - Amorella

       1454 hours. This is how our retired life is; seems there is always something to do to take us out of the house part of the day. I assume we have unconsciously planned it since our retirements a couple years or so after the turn of the century.

       You have your desktop very much cleaned off and ready to move on the next three chapters. - Amorella

       1459 hours. I do. This is really a fun project and a few FB friends (8 or so last night) have popped onto the new blog to have a look. It is much more organized to have the book separate and gathered in a table of contents. And, I'm glad I stated in the notice that this is not a commercial adventure because I don't have to think about how I am using my friends to promote Soki's Choice (and they don't have to wonder if I am attempting to exploit them for future personal revenue either, which is something I had not thought about yesterday when I set this up).

       You have been home awhile. Carol is making your Grandma Schick and her Grandma Cook's secret recipe for meatloaf, something they rarely shared outside of the two families long ago. - Amorella

       1729 hours. I have been researching pain relief for arthritis after Carol came up and made me use the heating pad/massager for a half hour or so. Surprisingly to me it helped. (I don't know why I am surprised, Carol suggests trying thing and she is usually right.) Some info suggests that what appears as sciatic nerve pain is actually arthritic. I took a five year old tramadol pill just after noon but hope to get something more effective tomorrow. It's still an original prescription from my kidney doctor; I rarely take pain. pills. I still have most of the pills in the container. I'll take one more before bed though to see if I sleep better tonight.

       Post. - Amorella (It bothers you that Carol is right more times than not because part of you thinks you are smarter than she is, when this is obviously not true after your more than fifty years of observation.)

       1750 hours. Why would I think like this when I know better?

       Why? Because you are arrogant. Gary P. thinks you are the most arrogant man he has ever personally known. He has told you this to your face several times in the last twenty or so years. Your response each time -- you smile sheepishly for a moment then change the subject. Do you deny this? - Amorella

       1755 hours. No, but I don't like it on such a public record.

       Be less arrogant then boy. Post. Amorella

       1758 hours. I don't like people telling me what to do.

       People, who know you well, know you don't like people telling you what to do; many of them don't either, but I am not a person. - Amorella

       1800 hours. I don't care if you are just imagination or G-D's Holy Angel, I don't like to be told what to do.

       Pure arrogance. I like you anyway, boy. Now, Post. - Amorella

       1803 hours. I shouldn't have thought that, Amorella. I feel bad. Sorry.

       Remember in your imagination once, matters such as this came up when you felt I was a real Angel and you defied me anyway. - Amorella

       1806 hours. I remember the welt rising up on my right forearm. I remember there was no place to hide in my head so I backed up facing ahead, moving away from being too close. I didn't know what else to do; it was as an existential experience and quite real enough from my point of view at the time. I found I could not apologize for what I thought because I would have to deny I thought it, but at the time I thought it, I meant it. This was a dilemma and made me think twice before my sense of losing respect, which was not the case, deeper down than momentary anger was great respect, and the wish to keep a respectful distance from whoever or what you were.

       This was your innate wisdom from knowing who and what you were, not knowing what I was or what I was thought to be in your heartansoulanmind at the time. Relax, boy. It's almost time for supper. Post. - Amorella

       1816 hours. Where and why did all this come up here and now? None of this was on my mind.

       It came from deep in heartansoulanmind boy. Most people don't consider what's really in there. - Amorella