14 December 2017

Notes - category / science - philosophy / vulnerability?


         Disappointing news. Craig is still not better and they are spending another day resting up at a motel near St. Louis. Tomorrow, they hope to leave to see family in Ohio and Pennsylvania. You left it and they agreed with a possible road trip to meet them in St. Louis on their way home for food and conversation. Carol is at Kroger's and you are waiting. She is still making Grandma Schick's/Cook's meatloaf which she will freeze as well as part of the vegetable soup she made last night; you are having it for lunch. - Amorella

         1057 hours. We hope Craig is better for Christmas in Chicago with Eric, Mary Kay and the boys. Rather dreary day, cold and cloudy, typical near Winter day in the whole state of Ohio. The house is clean, nothing much to do but wait for our trip to Westerville tomorrow. (There is always stuff to do, but I'm not in the mood to do it, i.e. working on cleaning up the basement stuff).

         What are you in the mood for, boy? - Amorella

         1105 hours. Reading the new bi-monthly Popular Science that arrived yesterday, I'm in the mood for that, though a nap would do first. It' a rather bummer day without our friends' expected visit.

         You are back to friends. Did we ever settle on what category of friendship your closest old friends were, those you taught with at school? - Amorella

         1109 hours. No, I don't think so. Besides, when you added Bob he was not a school colleague.

         Bob was close enough as you were talking about soul-driven friends in education. You and Bob talked about your classes and poetry and literature when he was teaching English at Westerville South High School and you were at Indian Hill and then at Mason. You used some of his notes. - Amorella

         1113 hours. I think friendship is a delicate balance among heart and soul and mind. I have friends that's what I think when I think of my friends -- heartansoulanmind relationships all. Friendships are an entanglement of unmeasurable forces.

         Force is not the best word to use for heart, soul or mind. - Amorella
        
         1117 hours. I am thinking of a force, like gravity for instance.
        
         People being drawn to one another is not as a gravitational force. - Amorella

         1120 hours. What is it then, Amorella?

         People are drawn together for a common cause. It is the cause, the concept, the idea, the common reason for living, the common purpose for living, the humanity, the warmth of another beating heart. - Amorella

         1125 hours. I cannot disagree though I would like to do so.

         Why is that? Why would you like to disagree? Is it because you cannot find the reason to disagree? - Amorella

         1127 hours. I hate being put in a corner.


         Then find a way to disagree so you can be content and perhaps even be happy. - Amorella


         Mid-afternoon. You spent a couple hours making up a new mostly single space, eleven point, Times New Roman font  phone list composed in a two column two page format. You have been modifying this same list every two years or so since returning from Brazil in the summer of 1972. -  Amorella

         1614 hours. That is true, since 1972 -- lots of family numbers have been dropped, Aunt Ruthie's still there though. Friends change due to family circumstances. It is easy to become friends with people who have a child or children about your own child's age. Some move, some drift away as children's interests change through the years. Some die. Some drift away as you change employment and when you retire. Those phone numbers change with the times. I used to keep home as well as cell numbers. Now it is almost all cell phone numbers. Companies and businesses change. I just deleted numbers to Sears for instance, Macy's is probably next. One whole column is business, insurance and medical oriented numbers. If one wanted a personal history of someone it would be a good idea to have an updated copy of her or his phone numbers. I'm sure a person's cell phone has a lot more information than the owner considers.

         Post. - Amorella

         1629 hours. Why do you want me to post so often I don't really have anything to say except to myself?

         Keeps you honest, boy. You might have second or third thoughts and go through what you consider unimportant but that I feel is important about what your thoughts say about your life.  If you were to die tonight your grandsons would have a record of who you really were. as opposed to a generic papa, an old man whose thoughts no one really knows. I feel these matters are important. -  Amorella

         1634 hours You are 'sounding' like the old stage manager in Thornton Wilder's Our Town.

         Deep down, you feel the same as those in Wilder's OurTown setting. - Amorella

         1638 hours. Being a dyed in the wool Romantic embarrasses me. I have always been too sensitive to Wilder's aspects of life in Our Town. I think it is the best play ever written in terms of what simple things tell us about ourselves. Such aspects make us appear more vulnerable to the world.

         Post. - Amorella

         1646 hours. Such aspects make me appear more vulnerable.

         Are you more vulnerable? - Amorella

         1647 hours. Oddly, no. I am who I am, also I am a Neoclassic. 


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